bro i look away for like 2 months and you drop the craziest shit ive heard ever wtf

quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

lyrics ⬇️ 

its been a lot to bottle up what ive become
ive came to terms with what id done a year ago
but i forgot how we had met and how it crashed and how it burned
you said it would all be worth it in the end maybe wed learn

what i wanted ended faster than i hoped for
its been exhausting my whole memory straight folklore
yea i see dreams along my hall
its been weeks since we last called
maybe i should write it off
i would rather lay than talk

i take anger out on everybody that dont deserve it
but when its wearing off i promise you ill feel like a burden
so when im hurting really bad ill make sure they know im alright 
i did everything i could with what i had i tried fight

but it aint go to plan whenever other thoughts arrived
it made me realize how i wasted all my time

In 2019 i was lost and then i packed my bags im gone
you can’t remind me how i felt unless you slash me with sword
hold tight yea hold tight yea hold tight to me tonight
i have an awful feeling this will be the last time i cry

so if it is please don’t remind me i wont be there tomorrow 
and i regretted when you caught my only shot my only arrow

its only fair tho
i was at my lowest point and i was acting like a scarecrow 
i dont care no

act like you know me like you know how it goes
on the daily
just a microdose 
i think im coming close
please save me


you hate me, i know I been wrong 
im sorry im sorry
full sprint i been on the wrong road
ill hurry ill hurry
hardly what you know you deserve
i wish i had all of that
car crash it hit the curb 
it could be worse-that family okay




yea, way way too quick its a blur
i can’t conjugate i slur
i told my parents im at work- work
think i need a clerk- clerk
before its gets way worse
cuz i can foresee what im talkin bout im jus waitin my turn

my stomach burns -burns
i flip and turn -turn
in my sheets
i cant sleep

hold tight (under the maple tree)

Vocals, Mix & Master by @alex-thomas-fox
Produced by @everythingmackk
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Amy Rose / safehaven.
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CqJG0Qzo-E

lyrics:
It doesn’t matter what I said to you
I didn’t mean it, I just didn’t think it through
Now I regret it, and all these words I can’t undo
Echo in my head like a ghost in the room

Late nights, replayin’ all the damage I made
Cut too deep, but I swear I never meant it that way
Tried to stitch it up, but the scars still stay
I keep losing love in the games I play

I hate the silence, it’s louder than the fight
Wish I could rewind and make it all right
But every broken promise is stuck in your eyes
And I can’t hide the truth behind all my lies

It doesn’t matter what I said to you
I didn’t mean it, I just didn’t think it through
Now I regret it, and all these words I can’t undo
Echo in my head like a ghost in the room

I never wanted to hurt you
I just didn’t know what words do
Now I’m drowning in the fallout
Praying you won’t shut me out
I’d give anything to change this
Erase the pain, rearrange it
But I’m stuck inside the mess I made
And I know I might have lost you

vails - lost you (everythingmackk)

w/ @lilbooj
produced by cxrter & mackk
📸: lil booj

lyrics:
(lil booj)
yeah it’s covered by a vast sea 
low brush and it’s all that surrounds me 
the color scheme grows fainter 
as we arrive now, i notice what remains here 
stumbled on the willow grown beggin for the time
but it’s normal, it’s orville
i’m guessing on the signs 
and it’s moving, irritate like sulfate 
and they’re not what they seem 
take a look like it’s outta line 

it’s why some might paint one sum 
i can, but the pressures all gone 
this old shift is continual, it’s over 
impression is plain, but it’s moving along

it’s our time, but I’m second guessing 
it’s those branches, cover up the satellite 
it’s alright, but it’s flipped on the other side 
i hope you understand it’s only meddling 

and it’s happy to send me on 
all the control that you have fought 
just don’t get too fond now 
it’s gonna get ripped away
when you least expect it 
i had to be there for the sabotage 
these semantics, i don’t think it’s worth dying for 
wrong method when we used up all the current ones
new measure, guess it’s permanent like promises 

face up, but the floor is gon’ obliterate
when night falls, take the maime
serve it on a new plate 
but the time in the frond is like its own life 
it reached in flood by the burning green in late july 
the same mode as when the sky is red and full of sunrise 
it swiftly made it through and forth unscathed 
we leave it for a couple days 
meet at the circle moat 
press the flowers, leave it in a grass note


time in the frond (cxrter x mackk)

i'll scream
your name
so loud
it echos away

i can't breathe
oh ur not right here with me
oh such a shame
shame

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

i want this
im watching
like tell me
how do you want love?
im nauseuos
i lost it
right before us
cant help it
im obsessed
with the way you touch
i need you
i cant help 
but feel im not enough


its all okay
maybe that was a lie
you wont ever know
i wont see your face
i do this for nothing
i wake up 
just to find out
its all the same

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

oh what a mess that i have made [muzcean]

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

ty mistral for the guitar <3

original song <3 : https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic/inside

Lyrics

I bet you like the way that I
Sit inside on a Friday night
Doing nothing with my life
While you're out partying with other guys
But I'm not wise and these aren't lies
According to you it's all in my mind
But I see the things that they post online
And it makes me sick to my fucking spine
I worry a lot about the day you leave
'Cause the day you leave is the day I leave
And I think too much about suicide
About killing time, about time I try
Something new
'Cause this shit gets old
But I love the way that she says "I love you"
And I tried many times to rewind to the days you were mine
And I tried many times to erase what we made, what have I done?
'Cause a part of me died when you left in November that night
I think he's right, beside you telling you what to say to me, why?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?

inside (guardin cover)

lyrics

I feel like the dirt
I question my worth
I wear and I tear
My favorite shirt
I hope that I can
She thinks I’m the man
I’m letting her down and
I feel like the worst

No it ain’t safe to say yet
Hung up on yesterday its
Still in my head
I’m sorry 
Hate when I’m so mistaken
Trying to savor faces 
Hoping you don’t replace me
I can do better baby
I can do better maybe

Maybe heavens worth the tests
But fuck, this smith and wesson
Has a way for testing what is next
Swallow my breath
I put the world in my hands
I feel like a mess
But she swears I’m the man
I’m doing my best
At least as well as I can
I barely stand
The fucking shell that I am

The Man (prod. wraithontheporch)

Brazz Shit

Made new plans prod by (yxngkenay)

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
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influences: aries, supachefm, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

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