written composed and performed by @itstheblame
featuring @ihateshinigami
engineered mixed and mastered by @irvmusic

SO DEAD - EP

pick me up w/ shinigami

Let go 
I just wanted to be let get go 
Tie myself to the bedpost
I just wanna feel special 
I just wanted to be let go 
I just wanted to be let go 

I was just ready to get it and leave 
Maybe you know what your doing to me 
You know I never admit when I’m wrong 
Just like those times you swore you weren’t home 
I wanna know if you got it or nah 
Yes I am still breathing you proud of me now 
I’m calling and calling and calling it off killed all my dreams I’m coming back home 

Sorry I 
Never meant to go that far 
Only wanna hear you say 
We’ll travel to the stars someday 

prod @lonnellsuave
art @filthy.hands

Let Go (Prod. Lonnell Suave)

@xscapexgoatx

I’m a failure, so cold
This weather, just like my soul

Let’s take it back now
it’s in the background
It keeps repeating
in my head
All the things that
you had said
My self-esteem
Will it’s dead 

These scars that lay right on my chest
They hold me down
Destroying my progress, my meaning
in time I’ll start the grieving
It’s too late don’t save me
It just wasn’t, meant to be

And it’ll be a long time
Till I learn to love myself, again

scapegoat - Failure (prod. curtains)

colling ave (lq demo)

_THrob
https://soundcloud.com/rob-hightshoe-witt

tothegood
https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

Lyrics
I've come to terms that I'm not fine
Fall asleep alone tonight
Haunted dreams of what we could have been
Guess forever really has a fucking end

No I can't believe what you said yah
All your remarks of all i did was wrong got me wishing that i was dead yah
Remember all the nights, when I played in bed a cried and you told me I'd be fine 
Here we are again this time

_THrob
Made me promise I'd be fine
But we both know thats a lie
Grit my teeth in my sleep every night
Wake up wishin I had died
But we both know I'll never change
Ill be alone in the end
Wishing you had never left

Wasting all day, wasting away
But we both know that I'll never change
Thoughts of you in my mind
Getting me high
Darkness in my mine
Stress building up
I think its my time

saw you in a dream last night feat. _THrob (prod. tothegood)

You said your home is my heart but now this home is empty </3 (prod. blade901 & cxld blxxd)

prod. @irby314

lyrics:
nowadays everything just seems to hurt me
feeling like life as a whole has done me dirty
not getting love from anybody
yelling all my thoughts and feelings straight into the void
I want a connection that's everlasting
people only care about me in passing
now I'm sitting all alone wondering if I did something to cause things to be this way
broke friends keep dreaming about what they could be
while rich friends don't seem as happy as they should be
I can't find any inspiration
my apathy strangles me
it's getting too hard to breathe 
I'm constantly getting upset about shit
something will bother me, I'll forget about it
then still feel upset
even though I don't remember what it was that made me feel that way
surrounded by all this stupid immaturity 
going online, seeing dudes pushing 30
still posting on facebook about metalcore bands they listened to back in 2008
seems like all of my friends who make music are glowing
I'm lagging behind
they never send me opens
I feel like a failed artist 
but I guess making music's just a dumb childish hobby anyway
I've taken too many blows that weren't softened
and been used as a punching bag way too often
by people who notice things in me that they hate about themselves
dumping their shame onto me
I do it too, just not to people's faces 
but behind their backs because that way's the safest
most of my hatred stays hidden
just lurking in the shadows where no one can fully see
my life is the worst that its been and I hate it
but every single time I try to escape it
I just end up reverting back to my old ways
it seems like people rarely actually change
I'll only cheer up to ultimately feel sad
a drug binge right after getting out of rehab
all of those addicts are so far gone
I don't have hope for anybody much less myself
I regret not having a life that's fulfilling
like going to work in a government building 
saving money to buy a house
with a backyard to unwind in at the end of the day
spend my weekends hanging out at a cottage
reminiscing with old friends about college
instead I'm here by myself feeling embarrassed 
with nowhere to be and nothing to say

Stream on Spotify

government building (prod. irby)

mixed and mastered by https://soundcloud.com/davidentendu
produced by https://soundcloud.com/blvkstarboi
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I wanna get away from all these people
Wanna find myself alone with the trees
Stop trying to force me into something like you
Your mind can barely comprehend what’s not seen

So busy judging me, her and everyone
Think you’re better, you’re just bitter over someone
Act special, mistake you for almost anyone
You’re so fake, all you say will never have a sum

Living your life stuck in all these screens
Never really fit into their scene
I get so tired of their shit, take my life from me
Better off dead, it’s better in my head
Where I can get away and pretend I don’t exist
So far it’s better than this

I wanna get away from all these people
Wanna find myself alone with the trees
Stop trying to force me into something like you
Your mind can barely comprehend what’s not seen

unseen (prod. blvk s t a r)

her favorite color (prod. ryder johnson)

june

i'm sorry about last summer (nightcore remix)

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@rhettwellingtonmusic & @mattbooher
itstheblame@gmail.com
AT FAULT - EP (2019)
SO DEAD - EP (2018)

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