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I walked her home, for the last time

remastered 9.21.17

thank you so much for 100k plays

Sample: Turnover - Disintegration

street lights

Lyrics:
Every day I just feel so much, god fuckin dammit i just bleed so much,
I know i plead too much but i need your touch, cause without it I wont be someone


Wake up I wish I was dead, you were there when noone cared,
now my lifes full of despair, shaking and scared, i wasnt prepared,
THESE DEMONS ARE ALL IN MY HEAD


NEVER EXPRESSED, IT'S ALWAYS CONSTRAINED,
THESE THOUGHTS ARE JUST HAUNTING MY BRAIN, I JUST CANT EXPLAIN
All of this pain, going through each and every single one of my veins


The past is done, I cant change that,
I think it's time for me to just face facts,
All red is gone, my heart aches black,
I might just go and blow my brains blank, 


 why cant It just end? 
STOP, STOP IT, JUST GO AWAY, PLEASE!


pain...pain...pain..pain....pain...pain..NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME



I CANT ESCAPE, THIS IS MY FATE, 
WHY CANT THINGS JUST BE SO SIMPLY EXPLAINED,
WHY ARE YOU FADING, FLOATING EVADING, GOING ESCAPING,
YOU KNOW I CANT TAKE IT,
I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE, I JUST WANNA LIVE WITH EASE,
I JUST WANNA LIVE AND BREATHE, I JUST WANNA LOVE MY QUEEN.


Original beat, Aestral- Miran

Pain (prod. aestral)

Vocals By @emilyraymondd & Lund
Production & Lyric By Lund.

Lyrics:

Emily:

I brought you light 
But You'd rather live in the dark
We always fight 
Don't even know what is the cause 
Still asking why 
Fuck it babe What is the point 
your feeding me lies
And im tired of playing the part

You broke me down 
I'm nothing but marrow and bone
Rott to the core
Chewed up and spit on the floor
I'm leaving now
Can't take this shit anymore 
And if your holding me down
Then why am I outta control

(Verse written by Emily)

Why cant you see 
the heart on my sleeve 
your tearing me apart babe 
loosing my sleep
why cant you see 
your everything i need
I'm loosing my mind babe 
i cant compete



Lund:

You brought me light 
But I'd rather live in the dark
It's my own fault 
that everything's falling apart
I know it been hard
I'm sorry for what i have done
but baby please don’t leave 
cause then i won’t have anyone 

you gave me love 
but i  just threw it away
i promise that I’m gonna change 
cause baby i need you to stay
I’m feeling hollowed out
tied of living this way
you have my heart
so baby 
please dont walk away

Hallowed Ft. Emily Raymond

@lilhappylilsad @kuroimetsuyu

yt: https://youtu.be/SLIKZXjkIu8

i thought that i had told myself
not to fucking fall in love
now i fucking find myself
singing to you in my songs

im sure im gonna hurt you girl
so you better stay away
know that youre at loss for words
i just dont know what else to say

i dont wanna be
the reason that you bleed
girl you better leave
yeah im trynna make you see

youre better off alone
at least youll still be free
while im smoking weed
for the scars im trynna heal
x2

while i find myself x3
ill never find myself

find myself (prod. kuroime)

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

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LYRICS:
Living in a place so cold
getting used to being alone
every minute checking on my phone
See no sun i see no sky
I've forgotten how to cry
6AM I'm craving for a smile

Same old road nothing for me to follow
left my bed im stepping on my shadow
hurts like hell, I guess I'll take some pills

A bit of joy from faces I will borrow
place it on a blade and cut away my sorrow
fool myself cause ignorance is bliss

A migraine, knocked on my door for some company
Am I insane, asked myself so i am probably
It's Sunday, so more time for me to waste inside
I've lost my way, but tonight again I'll let it slide

Living in a place so cold
getting used to being alone
every minute checking on my phone
See no sun i see no sky
I've forgotten how to cry
6AM I'm craving for a smile

Broken glass form last month reminded me I must be dead
A little fly disturbs my sleep, I guess I could call it a friend
I put my dreams inside a bottle to pretend I never dreamt
I'd try to save myself but my body feels heavier than cement

Living in a place so cold
getting used to being alone
every minute checking on my phone
See no sun i see no sky
I've forgotten how to cry
6AM I'm craving for a smile

Spotify

Walls Tell The Best Stories (Prod. williguess)

no samples.
Lyrics:
all alone on my birthday
Almost 18 that’s my death day
Without you by my side I feel nothing
When I see your fucking face it’s a cry day.
You stabbed me in the back I felt everything
Baby don’t lie to me no more
She was cheating on me this whole time 
Dropped my body to the floor
All these people hitting me up
When I’m sad and lonley
Posting on my snapchat story,baby hold me
I’m just gonna give it all up
Box wine in this cup 
Man I’m boutta get drunk.
So tell me where I went wrong
Laying in my bed while I’m listening to sad songs
Tired and I can’t fall 
Im restless up at night
And I need you back.
I need you back.


inspiration - from n,n and jay on the "hopes up" snare thingy. pay homage

deadbeatteen - i'm lost without you.

@xam @itsyungvan @lilrodger

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1c9HI3TRRmxnR0nafNgs6i
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/im-sorry-feat-yung-van-single/1464245907
YouTube: https://youtu.be/gcre0V8UAhU

[Intro]
I’ve been thinking why i keep waking up
I wanna sleep i’ve had enough
I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Verse 1: XAM]
Stuck inside this mind of mine
There is no escaping this
Am I wasting my time?
What do I live for, why am I alive?

I’m lonely but I’m not alone
Don’t worry when I’m on my own
I’m not gonna lock the door
I don’t do that no more
One day I wanna grow old

I’m sorry
From the bottom of heart
I should kill myself today
And come back to life
And start again

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

[Bridge]
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
You've got me feeling like a lost cause
For everything I said
I'd rather hang inside my living room
Because I'm better off dead

And now I know why
You had to leave me all alone again
Because I didn't know how
To treat you like a queen and not a friend

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

i will forever regret the life you gave

listen to my friend @le_play </3

shaun, for you

yøu used tø be my little angel (ft. le play) [prød. cøzy]

track 2

prød. by my friend @bl4ckgu1ch

written by cøzybøy <3

please, just stay </3

INTRO
i want to kill myself today
beretta pointed at my face my love

VERSE
i want to kill myself today
beretta pointed at my face my love
scared that death will never come
tell my friends what i’ve become

homie please put that away
fuck i miss you everday
question god again
because i’m lonely

BRIDGE
now swaying in the street
trippin off a tab
who am i supposed to be?
now that you’re gone

CHORUS
to call from hands on above
to lean on
would it be good enough
for me? no

RAP
sobbing on the ground
they had to scrape me from the pavement
god damn cozy why the fuck
you gotta feel shit

backwoods, weed smoke
can’t calm the nerves in him
pop a xan
take me to a couple levels lower than

subzero, no hero
callin up the hotline
stay alive
one night
maybe i’ll be better by
tomorrow
morning
wake me if i’m still breathing
even if i’m bleeding out the skin
like a fuckin heathen

god damn god damn
never say his name in vain
specially when the vein exposed
he dont wanna see the pain

fuck that shit you know i’m piecing through the memories
throw it into words
cuz that’s the shit you’ll never see

video <3

the wørst day øf my life was the day yøu tried tø kill yøurself [prød. bl4ckgu1ch]

This is actually the most recent song I made for the project. I literally just recorded this probably a day before I announced the project. It's something very simple and chill. Great for relaxing or if you wanna be a little bitchhhhhh and cry. I went for an ASMR kinda vibe with this one. I wanted to make a song that you could just turn on and vibe too. There's an obvious lack of lyricism in this song, but that was intended. Like I said, I wanted an ASMR vibe to this song, something you could throw on and let it play in the background forever and vibe to. I wanted everyone to focus on the song as a whole and not just the lyrics. Idk if that made any sense but it did when I recorded this LMAO. And btw, ivri is a girl. Ocean just changed the pitch on her voice and made her sound like that. Her OG voice is super nice tho so yall should totally check her out! 10/10 would let her sing me to sleep.


ivri's socials:
Instagram: www.instagram.com/ivsounds/
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCoknULsUx5faE8QN6lL2jpg
SoundCloud: https://soundcloud.com/ivrii

Anima Vestra - I Don't Wanna Know How It Feels (Feat. ivri)

prod @oceanonthebeat

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

you wanna ride that guy over clout go head
text me i'm the problem with his hands around your neck
text me i'm dramatic while you open up your legs
for a guy who doesn't care about you he just wanted sex

you're in love with the feeling of feeling used
tell me you hate me like bet that's cool

you don't want the drama you would rather have abuse
you're the reason that i hate myself for trippin over you

i fell for a girl to fast and that's facts
i got problems with attachment i'm losing my fucking grasp
its gettin harder to trust people it all feels like an act
i was starving for a light and now i'm blinded what is that?

i can't trust a soul
i can't feel at all
i can't feel your heartbeat
please don't say you love me

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

i cried every night now i sob
i got problems with lovin then movin on
i got problems with stayin all by my lonely like
nathan i miss you like come and hold me tight

i can't help that i can't help you
you want him now he might break you
he might relapse he might reuse
he might love you he can't change you

i can't help that i might love you
you're real nice but i can't trust you
you won't date me i can't make you
walls to strong no way i'll break through

i deserve better (prod. ocean)

prod me <3

lyrics:

i can feel your heartbeat when you fall asleep
there's something nice bout knowing all of you is next to me
and i don't think that there's a single place i'd rather be
honestly, i need you here with me

i need somebody, don't wanna fuck me,
just wanna love me right

i need someone to, need me to come thru,
love me and hold me tight

i need to see it, i need a way to believe it
my feelings will change with the season, make me feel guilty for breathing

and i can't write a single song i'm scared of how it makes her feel,
she hears my song she thinks i'm wrong she's scared that i won't ever heal
i try my best to show you how i love you more and more each day
but understand i'm just a man i'm vulnerable to all the pain

i love you, more than i can put in words
how come no one out there ever told me love would ever hurt

i love you, more than i can put in words
how come no one out there ever told me love would ever hurt

i can feel your heartbeat when you fall asleep
there's something nice bout knowing all of you is next to me
and i don't think that there's a single place i'd rather be
honestly, i need you here with me

i need you

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Artwork by Cevori

Can You Lie To Me?

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