Proud of you Yung van! 👊🏻😞 i feel you there... its never easy losing some one and then to continue living life knowing there gone... 😞🙏🏻

C. C. ON THE

ft OGbobbybillions "better days"

comfort

These Times Don't Feel Right

Pick Up

Like a single sculpture of matter in Superposition
Every place it ever occupied
We’re sentients just cycling through our lives 
Like carts on a track
See, everything outside our dimension 
That’s eternity 
Eternity looking down on us...

(STZYWENDIGO)
It’s 3 A.M. outside the city 
So the clouds are all lit up 
The night was cold 
The snow was holding out
The wind sure made it tough to spark this Blunt 
My lungs are done 
And I can’t seem to keep on running with this Buzz
Now, buckle up 
My feelings tank 
I’m sinking deeper in the mud
It’s getting rough
Both inside and out
This world is foul
That means my mind is fucked
I try my best to not go climbing up then jump 
Another reason pleads 
Won’t keep me breathing 
Bleeding out my needs 
But breathe in trees to keep my feelings even 
Or just through the roof 

(HOLLOW TAMASHĪ)
Get the fuck away 
Damn I wanna run away 
Blow my brains out with a .38
Shame taking me back to my dirty days 
I dont wanna be stuck in my evil ways 
Isnt there another way? 
I'm a fuckin' guttermane 
I'm an alcoholic and it feels great 
That's another lie, bitch I feel grey
I dont mean the 5'9 
Wanna let my body hang 
Cut me wit a fuckin' blade
Nothin' gonna be the same 
How do we cope with depression mane?
She shakin' me down leave me hurt again  
Suicide on my mind so I contemplate 
Really think I need break 
Bitch you another fake 
Past hit yo ass like you hit the brakes
Do you wanna die? 
We could make the bullet slide
Through the barrel like a scar on my wrist When I suffocate 
Hoe, get the fuck away

SUPERPOSITION  (ft. STZYWENDIGO)

Lyrics:
when i lay awake inside the hole in own bed
all these thoughts come back and they come flooding through my head
i wonder what they'd do if they woke up and found me dead
i wish i could reverse all the events and where they lead

i know that i seem crazy i just probably need some help
dont listen to my lyrics cause youll know that im in hell
i promise im just kidding and im really doing well, i wear this mask like every day its halloween you couldn't tell

i would really not be shit at all without my favorite person, i just feel so bad that every night she gets a different version, of me i just spend my days distracted with a big diversion, its the only way i function when im lost in the immersion

i know i say im tired im annoying all the time
i really hate complaining about all thats on my mind, ill either keep myself real busy just to show that i can grind
or sink into the void and smoke until my brain is fried

keep to myself cause i know that im fucked
i know that i hurt everything that i touch
try to be nice but i know its not much
working all day just to bring in the bucks

dont wanna feel so i just wanna sleep
smoke on a bowl then i fall in the deep
baby i love you youre all that i need
i promise im trying to get on my feet

know youre my life so just please never leave
life is so fucked but i wanna believe
maybe the good things we just never see
im just a bitch while i cry on the beat

say i dont care what no one think of me
thoughts will not stop but thats just how it be
sailing away so that i can be free, but im dead on the shore and i float out to sea

in my lane, on my own
hit the blade its the only way to go
im not sane, but now you know
i wont complain when i know thats how it goes

Fried

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

looking for myself, in the pieces you left me

Best Thing To Happen To Me - Single

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

Prznt - Fly

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hey, i hope y'all dig this track. times have been pretty hard. As you all know, I lost my dad a few months ago. a couple weeks ago, i lost one of my best friends to a lifelong battle with depression. if my music has ever connected with you, please take a moment to go and check out @deco-slush music. If it weren't for him, I never would have released any music, wouldn't have had a friend willing to sit for hours while i struggled with software or trying to get an idea out of my head and into reality, truly one of the lightest and most creative spirits i've ever had the blessing of knowing.

I love you so much Shawn, and I always will.

up on all stores v soon

THE COLOR THEORY

old trauma, new problems

Lyrics:
im a fuckin peice of shit, why you always gotta bitch
let me sleep in if i wanna, get the fuck up off my dick
know my mind is really sick cause i like it when you kick
-in me down cause i deserve it when i cant learn a new trick

im a dog, im a ghost, im the one you hate the most
im that toxic drink youre pouring raise me up propose a toast
this ones for all of the loosers, the forgotten, diagnosed
cause im one of you but im the king i really hate to boast

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of

i recorded all my verses, but im still dead like some hearses
and im trapped inside my body i feel like i need some nurses
i feel like i need some surgery, for all the shit thats hurting me
but im a ghost im never seen, i know that yall aint heard of me

write down in chalk, all the shit that i lost
while i run out the clock, just before it gets washed
know the year has been hard, got you down in the dark
cause the future is stark, that you 'bout to embark

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of
x2

i been living with the pain, yeah
but i know ill be okay, yeah
if you march right to your grave, yeah
nothing will ever be the same, without you

graves

@sewerperson
@guccihighwaters

prod by me oobv get w the times

Down and Out (feat. sewerperson & guccihighwaters)

Prod by. me :)
mastered by soundcloud.com/cay2o
lyrics:

they whisper to me, wither away
don’t want them to see so I cover my face
i’m insecure and my feelings dont matter
stuck in a loop am I like this forever
fuck it I might be
feelin low like highkey
how you act so fuckin bland like a white tee
I dont think you understand why you like me
why you like me you ain nothin like me

ima do it for my friends and the people who don’t mean shit
cause I’m the only one who gon give what they need
shit if I ain gonna make it
then I hope whoever does knows how to treat a fuckin bag and keep they friends close too
dont know you do I have to,
crack a smile to a stranger, bet they lied too
gonna get a tattoo, 18 real soon
ima hussle till I make up back to you

I don’t want no problems
cause I ain gonna solve it
I know everyone around really hates me and it’s okay
i’m sleepin till its too late
for any of my plans to work
fuck it ima wake up when all this shit easier

spotify

nothin like me

https://open.spotify.com/track/2i9bDrY9IhCbvcDgyb8neq

produced by @splashgvng
featuring @datastarr

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
i got issues
don't want to admit that i miss you
every time you leave it's like a pistol's,
pressed against my head until i'm with you

you got issues
i know that you're broken, i can fix you
you don't think it's true, try to convince you
every time you cry be there to kiss you
i'll be your tissue

[@datastarr]
i don't care
i was hurting, i was burning
you were there
light a match
watch me bleed out
fill your head with empty threats
and words that never left my mouth
know i never ask for help
but that's why i might break
fuck sake
see it clear, carrot cake
one shot, one take
bet it all at high stakes
chasing dollars, chasing thrills
why smoke? know it kills
wanna castle on a hill

[@lottaheart]
i got issues
don't want to admit that i miss you
every time you leave it's like a pistol's,
pressed against my head until i'm with you

you got issues
i know that you're broken, i can fix you
you don't think it's true, try to convince you
every time you cry be there to kiss you
i'll be your tissue

issues w/ data star [splashgvng]

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

looking for myself, in the pieces you left me

yung van

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