this picture reminds me of me and my uncle. my dad was never really there for me but he was almost like a father. always viewed him as one and i think if he did have his own child he would make a great father.

Sad Boi Vibes

produced by @jolst and @sainttomorrow <3
out now on youtube through biteki & static:
https://youtu.be/DWpNablizm0
https://youtu.be/nEK_a4oFms8

music video:
https://youtu.be/95Kayd1Rpiw

hope u enjoy :)

lyrics:
i let my soul drift away just to feel something again
i sold my conscience for free, nothing to see but a man without his skin

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

plenty people consider hitting my phone again
i don’t mind but i’d rather just be alone again
findin peace in my soul life ain’t that innocent
if i wanted em to be, things would be different
quiet nights in my attic, now the static is loud
i just wanna see my dad again and make him proud
tired of the recycled life i’m bottling up
smoked a little bit too much and now i’m throwing up

whats in the water, i wonder...
sink to the river, discover
see my reflection in ripples
i think i need you a little
more than i’d admit
i find it hard to reminisce
feel my stomach start to twist
and now i’m back with those i miss
woahhh

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

enter the forest, forget life
i’ve done this shit for the last time x2

enter the forest, forget life

enter the forest, forget life [p. jolst x saint tomorrow]

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enter the forest, forget life [jolst x saint tomorrow]

JayyMarii - Lucky

I love you all! please go check out Lux and Guardin!!
@lux_45
@guardinmusic

LYRICS-

Yung van:
Call me back I need you right now
On the ground as the rain pours down
Where'd you go when i needed you 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Call me back as the rain pours down
On the ground I need you right now 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Where'd you go when I needed you 
I called you but I can't speak
But I can hear you breathing
I'm wide awake cause I can't sleep
and I can only think of you

guardin:
think too much, i'm so lost, where my head go?
 trippin' now, blankin' out to the echo
all i fears finally here, movin' mad slow 
pacing now, trace your frown when i let go 
falling back into the depths of my own mind
 i'd be lying to you baby if i said that i was fine 
i've been rearranging furniture & finding stuff inside 
like the crystals in my pockets that you probably left behind 
i don't wanna be without you 
baby i am not okay without you

FOLLOW MY MAN LUX!!!

you were my best friend w/ guardin (Prod. Lux45)

Thank you all so much for supporting me! i couldn't be more thankful and happy with everything i have been given! I want to thank David Kiernan for the artwork and @leansipper !! Shout out to @cozyboycries for mixing song #7!! Love you all so much <3
<3 Acid Castle <3
Everyone who is on the EP----
@1800entity
@guardinmusic
@prodbyvessels
@artax666
@leansipper
@lilheartbreaker
@prod-trash
@lilhappylilsad
@tothegood

dear death, i miss you (Prod. lil heartbreak)

i let you be my everything w/ huskai (Prod. 1800entity)

death's last kiss (Prod. Artax)

text me when i'm sober w/ guardin (Prod. Vessels)

i wonder if you think of me (Prod. 1800entity)

@qawikamri 
@guardinmusic 
@cpt_sad

LYRICS:
i guess we're soulmates when it's not hard.
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-soulmates-lyrics

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Soulmates (w Guardin, Yesterday)

produced by @prodreaper
mixed by @nick-grivell

i break fast, move slow
don’t ask, they all know
their fake laughs, won’t change
walk past, no names
blades and, roses
my heart stays, frozen
i lay back, breathe deep
i flip through my TV.

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities
i miss the way you smile through the pain
inside your photos
you haunt my dreams

watch the raindrops rolling off the tattoos
on your shoulder
since you left me I’ve grown colder
breathing heavy like theirs boulders on my chest

its real
but all of the rest 
don’t care how you feel
so i think its best
this blood I’ve spilled still goes to waste

i get that membrance of your face
while I’m walking in the downpour of this rain
outside your place, I’m breathing your name

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities

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Blades & Roses -(prod. reaper)

ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＬＥＴ　ＧＯ

//私はコントロールを失う//

s/o to two of my favorite people 
@convolk
@hatefulbeats

lyrics
--------
guardin
-----------
this is the last time you'll see me
believe me
or not
i don't really care
drove by in my van & she wasn't even there
i'm fallin' apart while you're playing with his hair
probably gonna fuck but do you even dare
a lot of people say i'm losing control
i think i know where i should go
fuck sleep i don't ever wanna let go
don't let go

convolk
-----------
under the bed
the pillows and sheets
get out of my head
i wander the streets
it's easy to see
the blood that we bleed
i'm not meant for you
you're not meant for me

i guess this is it
we’ll cry til we’re sick
i'm hitting continue
and you’re hitting quit
i'll go one way
and you’ll go the other
this is the last time
we’ll speak to another

photos of you
i threw them away
but i cant throw away the memories
at least now we’re done pretending
after all the times we said things
ok

follow hateful

photos of you (feat. convolk)(prod. by hateful)

prod. by @guardinmusic

lyrics
--------
i see them looking at me
from right outside of my window
i see the monsters that creep
they lurk when i'm sparking my indo
holding the smoke till i choke i won't breathe till they exit my airways
coping by hoping tomorrow is better i dwell in the stairway 

fuck it i just wanna drive
i love the feeling of feeling alive
do you ever contemplate suicide?
falling asleep on his shoulder while i
cry in my pillow alone in my bed
smother the sounds of the voice in my head
losing my voice so i speak with a pen
writing agendas so i can pay rent

this is my life
this is not shit you could cut with a knife
no tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds
i've been breaking & smoking all night
why do i write all about me?
why can't you see all the things that i see?
am i alive? is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?
get out alive or just live in a dream

sorry i suck
i'm full of shit i do not give a fuck
i've got disorders in folders inside of me tucked
undiagnosed but i know i am fucked
up in my head
writing about it again & again
it's getting hard to write songs about flowers 
when showers are cold & my phone's always dead

i think that i'm fine
when i'm alone in my
bed with my bong packed tight
my throat's been sore all night
sip that water quick
before you might get sick
tacks and thorns will prick
my words will never stick

shadow

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Mix: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Master: @scottysplash
Production: @lilbuckethead
Cover art: @iamdavidkiernan (on twitter)
Shout out @qawikamri & @producedbyaidan for helping me extend the beat and go show love to everyone who helped make this song possible (if ya got some to share) <3


Lyrics-

Yung van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life

Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Time
But I don't really care 
Said you had my back then you left me in the air
Flying all alone made me feel like I was scared
I'm drowning in your problems
Baby I can't solve them 

Running away
Running away
Running away
Running away

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

9TAILS:

says she wanna die with me
but thats just a lie
depression is like a virus
i see that shit in her eyes
shes up alone every night
weed is packed in the pipe
window open at night
smoke blowing by the streetlights

take me over like a virus
anti virus with the heisman
saw the bate no biting
calculate my timing

im out the door before you tell me to go
i had you blocked before i seen what you wrote
i got people to meet i got places to go
and she play the detective like murder she wrote

i dont have time for the games like its pay to play
feel like kobe how i fade away
keep you a bit behind thats screen delay
i know all your tricks no david blaine

u cant make me stress ya
u cant make me stress no
ask me whats been on your mind or else youll never know
we all will eventually die speak up before we go
put your plan back into motion hit me with the blow

tryna bring the heat like a tanning bed
get in line like its wonderland
break it off like a pencil lead

Yung Van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

Virus w/ 9TAILS (Prod. Aquinas)

taking naps i cant even afford

with some beautiful guitar work by my friend @the-gnarly-neighbors

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmBDiyk9YO8
lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-morning-light-w-the-gnarly-neighbors-lyrics

blackheartemoji

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morning light (w/ the gnarly neighbors)

music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IC7Ak_JNOWA
hosted by sad chill </3

@prodreaper

i cant feel a fucking thing
keep my eyes up to the rain
death is callin out my name
it's not too late to call again
the sky starts fallin on my face
but i'll always pull up to the same old place
marijuana rolled up, hit a gram to the face
said it's never been so good to fucking feel so dead

it could never be the same
put the double barreled to my brain
next to my 40 oz and pack of cigs
i'll paint a picture with the parts that remain

what would you do
if we could go back and maybe change some things?
if only you knew
that i'd do it all again just to get to where i'm at
sometimes ur eyes turn blue
and sunshines look fine without
or anybody that i knew
yeah, weeks go by where i don't think about you

Follow me <3

sometimes ur eyes turn blue (prod. reaper) </3 music video in description </3

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO
---------------------------------

www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJpmpm9I-Zc

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domynoofficial

lyrics
————————
i just wanna feel good
i just wanna get better
i know said i’d quit
but that was last september
if i keep this up
ill be dead by december

i can’t even live w/o that rush
yea i can’t even live w/o that cup
with u im dead
without u im empty
i took too much
but i swear its not enough 

yea i want u so bad
oh u make me so mad
i should leave u the past 
but i know that i cant
i been starin at the mirror
i don’t really like what i see
see my vision getting clearer
now i gotta make it burry

how u sayin
let it go?
when u all know
i just wanna coast
fall back
right in to the door
always do the most
needa smoke
roll me up some dope
then i swear ill go
u wont see me
ever again
i hope u know

dead by december 
will u remember me?

produced by domyno

dead by December [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

new music every two weeks

I wouldn’t be here without you all 💙

you were my best friend w/ guardin (Prod. Lux45)

yung van

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