Mama im sorry I still makes mistakes but im trying my best I still wanna be great
I still remember the hospital wasn’t asleep because I was awake and afraid
When I got home I had still felt the same and thought I was alone so I pushed you away
When I got home I had still felt the same and thought I was alone so I pushed you away

How did you feel when you looked round for help and you aint seen no one but yourself
How did you feel when you blamed everybody but you really did it to yourself
Cannot communicate but talk to everybody but you say that there’s nobody left
Cannot communicate can’t talk to anybody but you talking to anyone else
Now you in a spot where you can’t be helped
Now you in a hole that you can’t dig out
It felt like you were in hell
But its getting worse for now
I shoulda looked when they asked for help

Cover

🩻-merry new years eve party people-*deleting later* (different beat)

for the better

too good for you

cursedbyuu:
the thought of yu stuck in my head
sometimes i think that im better off dead
because i can do anything right without yu
i cant imagine a life without yu
im here all alone 
oh im here all alone
i got the thought of yu stuck in my head
sometimes i think that im better off dead
because i cant do anything right without yu
oh I really think I need yu


#36#:
walking down the road
i can see the light
choking on my blood
but i won’t put up a fight
quite normal to me
should be for youu
see the gun it’s inside my drawer
too poor just to buy some bullets for it
maybe slit my wrist but it would take too long
maybe i have to go along with it

why am I forced to live a life without yu w/#36#

nothin but bones

girl crush (og)

follow https://soundcloud.com/absenceofmyskin
lyrics:
you hold me inside your arms
i'll never be the right one
everything's a joke to you
for me im trying so hard 
could you just please console me
im begging you on my knees
please put your ego aside
and be there just once for me
i should've showed you the way out
stayed here for too long now

b there 4 me demo

weeping torture

u were telling me that there's been times where I didn't mean what i said
the only time it happened was during an argument we had and I didn't want to think about that time
so i just preferred to put an end to the conversation because I wasn't going to make you believe me if we were going to get into that topic

i could call you a whore or i could kill you with my knife

heavyrain