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im feelin lost and ion know where else to go now
ion really have a place to call my home now
everybody hatin and i feel so cold now
why do everybody make me feel alone like
x2

ive got so much shit to say 
baby take me from this place
i just really cannot stay 
tears are falling down my face
i feel colder every day
know they want me out their way
ill be gone ill be okay 
i just need some fucking space
i walk by i feel them hate 
wanna die cause i relate
wanna cry i feel insane
i get high but cant escape
would they love me if i change
am i lost am i too late
soon im dead i cannot wait
please dont love me its a waste

wanna die so fucking bad
youre the best ive ever had
wanna die when i look back
cause u always made me sad
cant get over shit im done
i just make another song
nothing helps im fucking numb
ill be gone bitch pass the blunt
ive been hurting for so long
baby kill me in your thongs
ive been dying all along
let me go where i belong
get me drunk bitch get me high
give me pills and let me vibe
when its time just let me die
im so tired of this life

let me die

iTunes

let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

girl fuck who youve become
i still hate on who u were
u would always do me wrong
i was always drippin blood
baby u could never see, how u laid the blade on me
tryna fight the shit i feel, but some scars just never heal

yeah u did me wrong
so i made some songs
tried to numb the pain u gave me but the numbness never lasted long
yeah u did me wrong
w some other boys
and i tried to get me high like all the time but didnt work that long

im sorry, i never wanted u to hurt
like boy, im sorry
its behind us now lets skrrt and write our story
cause i love you and u love me please dont worry
please dont worry

shes like 4 am, wide awake and writing love notes
thats just who i am, i cant sleep girl i just want u
yr my only friend, u just get me like i get u
u fucked up back then, its okay girl know i love you 

make me whole again, i got blood all on my nightstand
im fucked up like damn, im so lost please take my hand and
let our love expand, fuck what anyone think
they dont know what we have, they dont know where we been

numb the pain (prod. lilhappylilsad)

produced by haruhi
with lil happy lil sad

lie to me (with lil happy lil sad)

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/sketchmyname

TheyTreatMeLikeIDontExist (Prod. sketchmyname)

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/prodbykamikaze

Downers (Prod. Kamikaze)

Everyone I love always leaves (Prod. Vessels)

@lilhappylilsad

music video: https://youtu.be/qSVPoTjlw-8

she told me i was nothing n it hurt
she used to make me happy n feel special with her words
i tried to shed some light on all the dark inside of her
she used to be my everything and now im off the drugs 

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

always in my bed i made her leave me here alone
screamin at her crying i would point her to the door
all i ever want is her to be here when im low
i try to act unbothered but i end up hurting more
x2

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

survive (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

Sunrise (Prod. Feelo)

If you want to support me further my paypal is: x4everunknown@yahoo.com
Thanks for the support. I love you all sm.

leave me alone

Prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodchupi
Engineered by: https://soundcloud.com/nettibeats

Prescription drugs have almost taking my life on a few different occasions. I only talk about them because they are a reflection of my past struggles. I do not condone drug use at all. If you have dealt with it or are dealing with it you are not alone. I love you all.
~4ever

Link to Download: https://4everunknown.bandcamp.com/track/still-off-the-downers

Still Off The Downers

Prod: https://soundcloud.com/eyeamperiod
Engineer and co prod: https://soundcloud.com/nettibeats

Thank you for all of the support you guys show me. I love you all so much more than I'll ever be able to explain.
~4ever

Follow me on twitter: https://twitter.com/_4everunknown_

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Itzela Maldonado