Produced, Mixed & Mastered by Rosesleeves
'Finches' Additional Vocals by @0noahh
'Control Is a Virtue' Drums by Mario Tomaselli

Pixie

prod written by vocals by Me
art by 8 4 8 5

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OMEN

instrumental by @emorave
vocals/mix/chops by me 

[ Lyrics ]

SELECT MY HEART
AND TRY TO SEND IT THRU THE SCREEN

ITS LOST WHEN SENT
UR NEVER GETTING WHAT I MEAN

ITS EITHER YOU
OR THOUGHTS OF HARMING ME
THATS FILLING UP MY DREAMS

AND IT NEVER ENDS, I THINK
IM HERE 
JUST WAITING FOR 
THE BLEEDING TO STOP

( Stop )
( I Think )
( Bleeding Never Ends )
( Stop )
( You’re Harming Me )

U SAID U LIKED ME
BUT U DONT 
CUZ IM A PSYCHO

YOU CHANGED YOUR MIND
LIKE WHAT YOU SAID
WAS JUST A TYPO 

IT MAKES SENSE
CUZ I COULD NEVER BE UR TYPE

I TRY TO TELL MYSELF TO STOP
BUT THINK ABOUT U EVERY NIGHT 


IM NOTHING NEW 
U PROBABLY GOT A QUICK REPLACEMENT 

MY WORDS ARE WASTED
YOU FORGET MY FUCKING STATEMENTS

I KNOW THESE THINGS
BUT STILL YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE

AND WHEN U ASK ME WHY I CARE
ITS SOMETHING 
I JUST CANT DESCRIBE

( Im nothing new)
( Im nothing new )
( My words are wasted )
( On you )

[ @spazzteamonline ]

select my heart

Life Number 9

Produced by Rosesleeves
Additional Vocals by Noahh

Lyrics-
(They hate it when I kid
I’m not joking need my fix bitch
Tired of the playing
Under the hex of a witch yes
I think I'm finally sick yes
Ay, yes, ay)

They hate it when I kid
I’m not joking need my fix
I told them I’m a poet
Laughed until they were in stitches
Tired of the playing
Under the hex of a witch yes
Been a two three years
And I think I'm finally sick yes
Juggling a soul now I don't know where it is
Energy is dark carry the wind of the finches
I remember nothing when I look at all the pictures
And I know they’re lying told me that they wanna live yeah

Don’t look me in the eye and tell me things you told another
I’ve lived it all before it don’t apply already been there
Tell me what I mean not in the arms of a lover
Wondering if they cared
Crushing up a memory
Break in to expose the details
Some things should be kept inside
They’re fit for breaking people
Watercolour sunsets
Running out of pigment
Living in the grey
Should’ve warned me that it’s lethal
Stuck in between these four walls
I’d never say it’s your fault
The sinking lasts for hours
But I’m trying my best to live more
Don’t know if you’re upset
Or if you’re just faded
We spend all our days
Tryna work out how to be painless
Nothing til I’ve made it
Tired of being faceless
Just wanna be first in line
Before the day I’m braindead
Can’t live with the one time
Not ‘bout being famous
Tryna reinvent the ouroboros I was born in

They hate it when I kid
I’m not joking need my fix
I told them I’m a poet
Laughed until they were in stitches
Tired of the playing
Under the hex of a witch yes
Been a two three years
And I think I'm finally sick yes
Juggling a soul now I don't know where it is
Energy is dark carry the wind of the finches
I remember nothing when I look at all the pictures
And I know they’re lying told me that they wanna live yeah

Finches

produced, mixed and mastered by blackwinterwells
art photographed by phillip ly
thank you for everything, everyone

i/o +blackwinterwells

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPIRhrhSVjo
Produced by Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
With one mistake
A flap of the wings
Blown out of the water
It changed everything
It kept on spiralling bigger and out of control
And it just worsened and worsened until it ate me whole
Reduced to a monster
Falling down for you
A million nights alone
A lost state without a home

And I tried to wipe your tears
But it’s too late you’re caught up in fear
I would die for you to be right here
Your paranoia ruined us it’s clear
Opal eyes I could stare at for years
And I could lie spotlight on a deer
I think you hated me when I said I hate it here

I don’t think you could change if you tried your hardest
You lived with all the pain push real ones furthest away
(Away, ay, ay
Away, ay, ay)
Your deep red it stained weakened all my heartstrings
You can’t stop the rain when you made it come your way
(Your way, ay, ay
Away, ay, ay)

You’re in my brain now don’t think I could change it
Stuck in bad patterns and I can’t even say it
Yeah I was told a few times and I know it’s dangerous
But knowing how I am, I’ve tried before and I’m
Still inside I can’t open up
Tryna change my life cause I’m sick of us
Just going round in circles
I’m the horse that fell over every hurdle (ah, ah)

And I tried to wipe your tears
But it’s too late you’re caught up in fear
I would die for you to be right here
Your paranoia ruined us it’s clear
Opal eyes I could stare at for years
And I could lie spotlight on a deer
I think you hated me when I said I hate it here

I don’t think you could change if you tried your hardest
You lived with all the pain push real ones furthest away
(Away, ay, ay
Away, ay, ay)
Your deep red it stained weakened all my heartstrings
You can’t stop the rain when you made it come your way
(Your way, ay, ay
Away, ay, ay)

(Away, ay, ay
Away, ay, ay
Away, ay, ay
Away, ay, ay)

Music Video

Opal Eyes

Produced by Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
Talk to me
I’m sorry I rarely know what to say
My comfort’s in your poetry
Your trust in me
More than I know what to do with
Sleep on the brink of day
Star chasing with you
You can’t seem to see them
I’ll catch so you don’t have to
I’ll be waiting for you
You would do the same thing
If given half the chance

And I could smile through the pain
Yeah I could cover up
Pretend I feel nothing
Cause what’s done is done
All is good in love and blissful ignorance
Yeah I retreat and hide away
Disappear without a sound
And I could last some time
I know I wouldn’t be found
All is good in life and the way I see things

(And I could smile through the pain
Yeah I could cover up
All is good in love and blissful ignorance
Yeah I retreat and hideaway
Disappear
All is good in love and blissful ignorance)

Don’t ignore the gut feeling it was right and you know that
Don’t think about it too much you’re always gonna feel bad
It’s a part of you and you can’t get the time back

I need you when
I know it’s all gone 
All things I pushed 
Kept em for you 
I can’t look past
I hate this life
I need restart
I can’t restart 
There’s no more healing 
I can’t just feel it 
I was your lieutenant 
Can we go back to winning

And I could smile through the pain
Yeah I could cover up
Pretend I feel nothing
Cause what’s done is done
All is good in love and blissful ignorance
Yeah I retreat and hide away
Disappear without a sound
And I could last some time
I know I wouldn’t be found
All is good in life and the way I see things

All is good in love and blissful ignorance
All is good in life and the way I see things
All is good in love and blissful ignorance
All is good in love and blissful ignorance
All is good in life and the way I see things
All is good in love and blissful ignorance

Love & Blissful Ignorance w/ Noahh

Produced by Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
First light, most nights
It felt so young
It’s all, a game
More than just fun
Still learning about who I am and what I want
I’m not over a thing so maybe it was love

Think you’re stuck in my bloodstream forever
Deluded myself when I was jealous
Been some time, given myself the headroom
Still wish you were coming to bed soon
Pass out and these days I see nothing
What we found was endless, I was hoping
It sounds to me as if I miss you
Still wish you were coming to bed soon

I’m still so new to it
Only saw in retrospect
I might be wrong but I
Was so attached to it
It was everything I wanted everything I’d known
Being realistic only put me here alone
Told me to give it time yeah, It’s been a while now
So I can say that, the fire don’t go out
I been on the journey just goes back around
Never found the answer in another’s mouth
Love was war something to die for
I took my path you destroyed yours I guess I saw something you never saw

Think you’re stuck in my bloodstream forever
Deluded myself when I was jealous
Been some time, given myself the headroom
Still wish you were coming to bed soon
Pass out and these days I see nothing
What we found was endless, I was hoping
It sounds to me as if I miss you
Still wish you were coming to bed soon

Love runs out
You let it out
Everything
Comes back to you
Love runs out
You let it out
Everything
Comes back to you

Think you’re stuck in my bloodstream forever
Deluded myself when I was jealous
Been some time, given myself the headroom
Still wish you were coming to bed soon
Pass out and these days I see nothing
What we found was endless, I was hoping
It sounds to me as if I miss you
Still wish you were coming to bed soon

Love runs out
You let it out
Everything
Comes back to you
Love runs out
You let it out
Everything
Comes back to you

Bloodstream

Produced by Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
I tried to let go
I thought you felt me
Guess your heart was empty
But the pain lasts it’s still here
Yeah the rain never quite cleared
You’re not like anyone that I’ve known
In the good dreams and bad dreams
You’re still there what’s happening
Losing you was my one fear
You disappeared and I’m stuck here

Swept it all off
Like you weren’t involved
Called me when you’re crying
My part to console
Nights they were rough
We both got so cold
Couldn’t help the lightning
My god
The storm just never quits
Tried to catch my breath
Surely something has to give
Circles in my head
The wind is so relentless
Done with growing pains
But they’re never done with me
I think I’m losing my head
You’re forever out of reach
It feels like selfish games
But I cannot pass the blame
You’re faded everyday
Watching as you wilt away
And I can’t stop the rage
You made me hate everything
You made me hate everything
Still haunt my daydreams
I’ll never know but maybe it was worth saving
I played a role but I knew I never faked it
It’s been and gone know I can’t try again later
Try again later

I tried to let go
I thought you felt me
Guess your heart was empty
But the pain lasts it’s still here
Yeah the rain never quite cleared
You’re not like anyone that I’ve known
In the good dreams and bad dreams
You’re still there what’s happening
Losing you was my one fear
You disappeared and I’m stuck here

Rain

merry go round ft. mint「cozin + kojo」

i also did the flutes and the metallophone thing at the end and some other stuff

invrgaveup (tmo+ku+cure)

prod by @7snss

lyrics
Ahh
Spazzexclusive
I can't recognize myself 
Tonight i’ll break my promises 
ahh
I’ll be there in my own abyss

I-i-i-i  can't recognize myself 
Tonight i’ll break my promises 
I’ll die here in my own abyss
Your words they will just never miss
Can you just keep up with me 
Feel the pressure constantly 
Makes me fall onto my knees 
Help me cause i can’t be free


I-i-i-i  can't recognize myself 
Tonight i’ll break my promises 
I’ll die here in my own abyss
Your words they will just never miss
Can you just keep up with me 
Feel the pressure constantly 
Makes me fall onto my knees 
Help me cause i can’t be free

I can’t be free
I’m in my own abyss
Ohhh Ohhh
Mint
It’s like i’ll never see the sun again
Only shadows haunt me in my brain
there’s no doubt i’ll never make it out
I’ll never make it out (my soul shattered)

I can’t collect the pieces
I will never be the same
Ohh ohhh 

(I can’t recognize myself)
I can’t recognize myself
(I’ll die here in my own abyss)
(Can you just keep up with me)
I can’t keep up (ahh)
(I’ll die here in my own abyss ahh)
Your words they will just never miss
(I can’t recognize myself)
Tonight I'll break my promises (ahh)
You make me fall onto my knees
(I’ll be there in my own abyss)

I-i-i-i  can't recognize myself 
(I can’t recognize myself) 
Tonight i’ll break my promises 
I’ll die here in my own abyss
Your words they will just never miss
Can you just keep up with me 
(I can’t keep up)
Feel the pressure constantly 
Makes me fall onto my knees 
Help me cause i can’t be free

I-i-i-i  can't recognize myself 
(Your words they will just never miss)
Tonight i’ll break my promises 
I’ll die here in my own abyss
Your words they will just never miss
Can you just keep up with me 
(You make me fall onto my knees)
Feel the pressure constantly 
Makes me fall onto my knees 
Help me cause i can’t be free

I can’t recognize myself
Tonight i’ll break my promises 
I’ll be there in my own abyss

help me [prod. senses]

Feel a way (prod. 6astard)

i understand you ft cip prod cpr

𝔥8 𝔪𝔢 𝔰𝔲𝔪𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔢𝔰 (ಥ_ಥ)
prod @powerdolls
mixing @blackwinterwells

Finches

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