Has Ivory disapeared? No new releases 🥲

@southbaysean waaaaah 😭😭😭😭  keep witch-hunting you fucking retard. 

What lingering guilt, relative deterioration, and grief take from a person are ones without description. What it spawns, however, are questions: how much more can I hide from them? once the foreplay—that is distance—is gone, how much more pretend can I play? Just how little do they all know? Maybe you'll understand, maybe not. After all, "that's just the way of life". I'm just a hypocrite trying to protect other people's feelings by hiding the roots of mine, all it has sprouted is an affectatious oddity, these layers only reveal the nothingness of a broken mind.

The golden seals flash a crimson streak, the cracks reveal a husk amongst the crowd and crowns of broken hearts. Covert and Concealed.

Sad Memoir: Impulsive Affectation

@onewoolong
a fun track woolong and i did

lyrics:

i taught myself to feel indifference when dismissed
break their norms, they wont be standard in a bit
what's the climb worth if you land in the abyss
half the people talking shit are rarely missed
just live as you see fit

sentiments of apathy show up on the paths i lead
(i dont need their help, i just need myself)
i hope you know the crowds you feed
i know we're all above the greed
(you dont need the wealth, focus on your health)

numbers dont always mean praise
numbers dont always mean pay
hey, wait
this'll drop off someday
when's it too late to change
fate's made
id rather make tracks i like
i'd rather be things i love 
i'd rather be myself always than realize someday that i wasnt myself enough

rough,
they're loving what this does to me
i broke in front of company
is this a suiting front?
ill take my leave from all your fees
things just werent the same for me

ive just accepted they dont love me still
fuck up, no frills
dead on this hill
take a pill, take a week
you dont feel it right now, that's what they seek
im an object, im costless
enthralled by mystique
all for cheap thrills

when do we get to grieve this?
it's needless
vitriol's ceaseless
leave bad friends and rise up, you're believed in

freak, freak, freak
you're oblique with the grain 
always drained
always stressed
all the pain feels the same

fighting every ending can render you prey
but hey, ive accepted ill move on someday
know the games defended are sources of pain, but play
im sure you feel strong that way

Vitriol w/ onewoolong

Lyrics:

I'm told that there's no chance of me coming back
They just say all that shit to scare me but I'm staying on track
And I know they pray for the moment that they get me to crack
I can slice and bleed and bend, they'd rather see me in half
I'm poorly written in most stories you've told
Replace my virtues with some vices
Hatred's feeling less cold
I'm fucking evil to your friends and sentiments don't get old

I'm always controlled

I feel guilty for the way that I act
I'm always pouring out my heart in hopes you see me intact
I just do it for some help but all you saw was attacks
My response to you was to show off that I had relapsed

kintsugi

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Drawing

Lyrics: 
I dig a new hole everytime I try to speak
they're justified in always calling me a freak
I dreaded all this every day of every week
I know I'm better now 
but what's there to believe in
if I'm open you miss it in commotion
drops in the ocean of your favorite potion

y'all know all your reasons and feed them
you breathe to see me bleeding
I'm seething and chiefing some weed to wane this feeling
I hate it and love it
I'm patient with some shit
I'm breaking enough
is this something that's fun 
If I weren't always evil in your eyes
tell me what you'd have here to despise
you fill all the blanks you find with lies

take it how it is
learn to live with my misguidance
hate the world you're in but you'll be happy you survived us
we all break
you'll always win again
my friend, just stay and play pretend

Weird

Lyrics:

Your grand lifestyle's feints hiding guilt
Nailed to stilts in your crowd
Point my head to the clouds
Now endowed, you can fail em and you're still kept round
Double down while you can till they all find out
You wanted my harassment
You blast my every action
Your girlfriend wrote your posts, hope you're proud of all the acting
I'm posed to be your poison
Abusers live in factions
I'd love to see them scramble
I'd live to catch y'all lacking

I'm going numb
I guess my head can't take it
Make me shake when I'm off medication
Bless the weight, fuck a fate
I'm no patient
Thought I escaped him, it's just baked in
Fun, I know my worldview's breaking
I see the people and behaviors I would take in
To you I've always just been something that you'll break in
When done discard you don't care you'll replace it

I know more of your predation than I knew you
Ooh
All you'll be to me is trauma that I pushed through
Simply paint me as a fiend in their eyes
Sit and watch from afar as you scar me twice
Told that I'll be running
Everybody wants to find an angle where I'm bluffing 
I won't risk it all for nothing
I'm fatally invested in my trials meaning something

What's the point of the fight
I'm broken and right
You're just enabled by your fans but police won't care bout your side
Is this what you wanted?

Paralysis

Lyrics:

God please, teach me how to grow

I got bad habits and good ideas
haphazard when near ideals
subpar, that's the default feel
thusfar I don't know what's real
I imagined my friends hid hate
I'd create what I thought they'd say
Inundate me to altercate
is this really my fate?

I told them that I'd change
I molded to the pain
Land lower than I aim
It always ends the same

I'm never getting saved

Around It

produced and written by me

lyrics:

i lost friends, means to ends and munitions
i'm still suck on whether i made all the right decisions
life's a mess, i've corroded from attrition
the path i put myself down put a hold on all my vision
i left morals neglected
now fiend for correctness
i know my intentions
dont care for retention
had years to correct it
i stressed it
i waded through all of these thoughts cus i'd break if i left it

i can make a hit by myself
show some greatness in stealth
put my worth in some work
i dont care if it sells
i got urges to quell
yall just turn on yourselves 
i dont need to get attacked when there's no news you can tell
bitch
fell your own friends
and make light of all the trauma they spread
it's better said as you just wanting some bread
and some attention
you need it
lose this and you'll bleed it
you feed in and bet on every outcome giving credence

sorry to digress again
i'm too stressed, it seems evident
go feed on their relevance
i just want my life back

i lost friends, means to ends and munitions
i'm still suck on whether i made all the right decisions
life's a mess, i've corroded from attrition
the path i put myself down put a hold on all my vision

i left friends who'd leave me out cus it seemed like they want that anyways
what? now you save me space? huh, guess you're saving face
bet you couldnt change and you just worsened
let you get to me and now they see a different person
i meet every need to feed the greed that you let furthen
fans brought out the worst in you and now you're left deserted
act new like you earned it
shocked when you get burned
all yall mourn the consequence
then never fucking learn

where you're gonna go

hated who i was and am 
i lived through a facade for friends 
now they know how i'm hurting 
that bond isn't returning
i move with the best intents 
while trudging through my old regrets
a new one isn't worth it
why'd you think i seemed so perfect

i know what you want from me 
feeding it's a want and need
no one ever wanted me
it's all that i'd see
this new urge blinds light from the tunnels end
funny then, i feel i had a grasp on how and why I'm suffering
burdened with the purpose to protect but I'm a fiend to them 
you show me grace

court

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LYRICS///
feelings flow like an ocean when you're around
they come down, surround and drown me
and I'd love to help you when you're down
but for now 
all I can do is sit outside your window tonight
and hope that you haven't found the mistakes in my ruse
the little clues I've left saying that   
I want you

all i see when I close my eyes is you
and the insides of your room
the layout, the payout of being in and out everynight
I feel like a cloud drifting into the sky that's your life
but it's our time
and I won't lie
I just want to make this right
or at least bring into light 
what I feel
what I've felt for you
for the longest time
you've been on my mind
no, this can't beright
this can't be right

feelings flow like an ocean when you're around
they come down, surround and drown me
and I'd love to help you when you're down
but for now 
all I can do is sit outside your window tonight
and hope that you haven't found the mistakes in my ruse
the little clues I've left saying that   
I want you

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Clouds

Absolutely incredible avi art by https://twitter.com/chubchow!

this song's basis was very inspired by the strings in Clear Tamei by Iglooghost, i highly recommend checking that track out!

LYRICS///
you're all i want
you're all i need
and all you want is to watch me bleed
but that's fine
i fuck up all the time

because im better off changed
than wrong in your eyes
and i'd rather be what you need
i'd rather you let me bleed
so watch me burn 
make me learn
to be what you want
what you'd liked to see
make me bleed
make my current self recede
make me all you'll ever need

All I Want

avi art is by twitter.com/Pizzzatonix !!!

LYRICS:
What do I want from you/
What do you want from me/
Am I your everything/
Or am I worth pennies to you like I think/
Either way, try and keep it together/
Hold me by the feathers/
And push me in the dirt/

I don't really care if it hurts, I just want you/
It wont satisfy me if your efforts wont leave bruises/
I don't lie and I wont soon/
so cut the "caring" rouse/
it's losing it's charm/

Shotgun drinks that i've never seen/
Lose balance, but gain self esteem/
Play all your cards just to impress me/
It doesnt matter either way, I would've stayed/

BLEEDING COLORS

FEATHERS

lyrics: 

got ur emotions under my skin
tear my arms apart just to see what's in
inside your mind
aside from the things you said, id be better off dead
than to listen to my heart
i fell apart for u and the things we are
either way, i adore u
the way ur eyes light up when the light hits right
the red sweatshirt that never leaves ur side
ur smart as shit, but im happier to call u mine

FELL APART

may or may not be a track off an album im making

lyrics:
I used to punish myself for existing
Thought friends were waiting for the day i went missing
I pushed them back with my thoughts
Convinced that I was hated, i just reaped what i sought
Imagined anger in jokes
So everytime they poked I shot back unprovoked
It's not the way that i am, but that's what self hatred can do to a man 
Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
Let alone a kid who thinks his life lacks reason
Let alone a loner losing all his day-ones
Every day I wake up and rue what I have become

what i've become

kind of a throwaway track i made a while ago
i lost the file for it so i thought i'd just upload the export i had while i'm working on the album :)

all you expect

i made this lil track today to test out my friends plugin

also, thank yall for 6k <3

lyrics: 
power trips are never victimless
this structure's limitless
you'll be irrelevant as long as you submit to it
i know i fail the crowd 
i know I've faded out
i feel that people i inspired think i let them down

original track by @prodcrumley, @yso_blank, @youngteam, and @onewoolong

one 1 (ivory rasmus remix)

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22 y/o nb gay artist n musician 

all vocals, lyrics, and instrumentals are by me unless mentioned
(i will credit any samples that are major parts of the song tho)

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