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Kintsugi

@onewoolong
a fun track woolong and i did

lyrics:

i taught myself to feel indifference when dismissed
break their norms, they wont be standard in a bit
what's the climb worth if you land in the abyss
half the people talking shit are rarely missed
just live as you see fit

sentiments of apathy show up on the paths i lead
(i dont need their help, i just need myself)
i hope you know the crowds you feed
i know we're all above the greed
(you dont need the wealth, focus on your health)

numbers dont always mean praise
numbers dont always mean pay
hey, wait
this'll drop off someday
when's it too late to change
fate's made
id rather make tracks i like
i'd rather be things i love 
i'd rather be myself always than realize someday that i wasnt myself enough

rough,
they're loving what this does to me
i broke in front of company
is this a suiting front?
ill take my leave from all your fees
things just werent the same for me

ive just accepted they dont love me still
fuck up, no frills
dead on this hill
take a pill, take a week
you dont feel it right now, that's what they seek
im an object, im costless
enthralled by mystique
all for cheap thrills

when do we get to grieve this?
it's needless
vitriol's ceaseless
leave bad friends and rise up, you're believed in

freak, freak, freak
you're oblique with the grain 
always drained
always stressed
all the pain feels the same

fighting every ending can render you prey
but hey, ive accepted ill move on someday
know the games defended are sources of pain, but play
im sure you feel strong that way

Vitriol w/ onewoolong

Lyrics:

Your grand lifestyle's feints hiding guilt
Nailed to stilts in your crowd
Point my head to the clouds
Now endowed, you can fail em and you're still kept round
Double down while you can till they all find out
You wanted my harassment
You blast my every action
Your girlfriend wrote your posts, hope you're proud of all the acting
I'm posed to be your poison
Abusers live in factions
I'd love to see them scramble
I'd live to catch y'all lacking

I'm going numb
I guess my head can't take it
Make me shake when I'm off medication
Bless the weight, fuck a fate
I'm no patient
Thought I escaped him, it's just baked in
Fun, I know my worldview's breaking
I see the people and behaviors I would take in
To you I've always just been something that you'll break in
When done discard you don't care you'll replace it

I know more of your predation than I knew you
Ooh
All you'll be to me is trauma that I pushed through
Simply paint me as a fiend in their eyes
Sit and watch from afar as you scar me twice
Told that I'll be running
Everybody wants to find an angle where I'm bluffing 
I won't risk it all for nothing
I'm fatally invested in my trials meaning something

What's the point of the fight
I'm broken and right
You're just enabled by your fans but police won't care bout your side
Is this what you wanted?

kintsugi

Paralysis

Lyrics:
Hear the atmosphere 
They told me once 
Should've been clear
I'm not welcome here 
I hate myself from living fears 
I thought i veered
I ran and ran they're always near 
You're never clear 
Accept it and live

Live with guilt and all your shame all despite the fame
compliments just foreshadow betraying any trust you gain
you frequent a mask for the pain and I did the same
your actions attached to your name make your work in vein

I hope you know I didn't do this for no reason
you're the type of person to attack me to get even
and hey, you fucking made me this way
cus all I think about is how I'm getting betrayed

Fear the atmosphere
you ran and ran and now they hear
you're never cleared
might hate yourself throughout the years
you're cloaked in drear
and erroneous fears
endowed by your peers
i can see it from here

Atmosphere

Lyrics:

either lost track of the gamut or back then i didn't understand it
I see a power play and panic
reminded how I'm abandoned
I can't take this pressure
it's something that I'm damned with

my actions waste advantage
and I can't fucking manage

realized the power of my words and i froze
some others would've lied till they rose
eyes surround you, what's your platform pose
think I locked up because i didn't know
talk about symptoms on tracks, not the causes 
you said i sought attention everytime I broke and lost it
spoke on a problem that i had and you would cause shit
I became a victim of my friend and now I live on damaged
And no one seems to understand it
I'm moving feeling I'm too manic
I break down when my head's not managed by best friends
(abandoned)
I know they see me now as less then
they think I've got the worst intentions
I'm cut off from the first impression

Sequence

Lyrics:

I'm losing, I'm livid
I'm loving, forgive this
I wish you the best life
I hate me, I hate mine
I run out and break down
I'm fucked up, unheard sound
I lack worth, it all hurts
I can't breathe
I fall first

I'll just leave
I'll just leave

I see so much to hate myself for
Ignore the bleeding be yourself more
Won't see what you talk about health for
Call it misleading, you need help more
They fell short

Wings

Lyrics:

God please, teach me how to grow

I got bad habits and good ideas
haphazard when near ideals
subpar, that's the default feel
thusfar I don't know what's real
I imagined my friends hid hate
I'd create what I thought they'd say
Inundate me to altercate
is this really my fate?

I told them that I'd change
I molded to the pain
Land lower than I aim
It always ends the same

I'm never getting saved

Around It

produced and written by me

lyrics:

i lost friends, means to ends and munitions
i'm still suck on whether i made all the right decisions
life's a mess, i've corroded from attrition
the path i put myself down put a hold on all my vision
i left morals neglected
now fiend for correctness
i know my intentions
dont care for retention
had years to correct it
i stressed it
i waded through all of these thoughts cus i'd break if i left it

i can make a hit by myself
show some greatness in stealth
put my worth in some work
i dont care if it sells
i got urges to quell
yall just turn on yourselves 
i dont need to get attacked when there's no news you can tell
bitch
fell your own friends
and make light of all the trauma they spread
it's better said as you just wanting some bread
and some attention
you need it
lose this and you'll bleed it
you feed in and bet on every outcome giving credence

sorry to digress again
i'm too stressed, it seems evident
go feed on their relevance
i just want my life back

i lost friends, means to ends and munitions
i'm still suck on whether i made all the right decisions
life's a mess, i've corroded from attrition
the path i put myself down put a hold on all my vision

i left friends who'd leave me out cus it seemed like they want that anyways
what? now you save me space? huh, guess you're saving face
bet you couldnt change and you just worsened
let you get to me and now they see a different person
i meet every need to feed the greed that you let furthen
fans brought out the worst in you and now you're left deserted
act new like you earned it
shocked when you get burned
all yall mourn the consequence
then never fucking learn

where you're gonna go

i know all your ammunition
hate that for me
love myself and hate my story
bent for allegiance
bent from grievance
i don't need these expectations
sanction me
i'm so worth breaking
passion to bleeding
mask the fiending

i dont need all of this taken from me
like what?
i messed up to you and you seek blood
wonder what they see in you that stuck
cruelty overshadowed all your bluffs

Distillate

with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

it's not lost on me, i just needed space

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

they got queer kids in their crosshairs 
and their deaths never make the news
i live every second building upwards
and i'll use that just to ensure that you lose
tell me that the dreams dead cus you want it to be
i failed the way they designed
couldnt feel safe with myself 
tried to improve it with time

peerless, led to crosshairs
would my death ever make the news?
we lived every second building up hatred 
i can see it in all of your views
wishing that a dream's dead cus you need it to be
fell out of what they designed
trauma wont dictate my path
removed for how i align

with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

saw the patterns before everyone else
i gave em warnings, didnt matter, i'd offend when i'd tell
i can feel subtext from miles away
doesnt matter, to this day i'm still turned into prey
with no chance

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

Excuse

i just wanted you
to stay with me

i gotta run away to see something new
and reach better days in worlds built askew
i gotta run away to see something new
and learn to readjust to not depend on you

you
you lied

leave me out to rot in here
there's no time to let me clear the air around us
you're the best thing that happened to me
now we're the worst little tragedy
you're the worst thing that happened to me
my whole life started to feel like tragedy
without you

I Just Wanted You

felt a bit of panic when i first met you
no clue what was happening but just pushed through
thought you're cute and kinda nice
and we got mutuals too
good fit and good hair 
that seems so usual for you
so i took all of the chances cus
i'm not good at starting shit
and you seemed to catch onto it
we're seeming like a perfect fit
not looking to disarm me
in fact you do the opposite
you make me feel empowered, 
wanted, 
needed, 
and more positive

i'll go out to los angeles
and see our friends in person
but if only you were going
i'd still go cus it'd be worth it
pack a bag and book a flight at the last second
hate that purchase
hear your voice in every silence
what you'd tell me when i'm nervous

see our future for a purpose
i need you through my lifetime
wonder how i worked without you
you've been a main lifeline
love in every second
calmed in every section
your honesty is spreading through my soul like an infection 

you make me hurt less
hope i'm worth my urges
nervous for the first move 
bravado's never courage
impulsive little lifestyle
i probably deserve it
told everyone about us
and how, to me, you're perfect

i know it's awkward i feel so strongly
i know you hated distance 
and that shouldnt feel this shit
but i'm still all hurt
and that hurt's all me
i always misread you
and i'm sorry
i said i love you
and you were silent
i'm sorry if my freaking out hit you like violence
our friends are all heart
when will they all hear?
and when they do will they think that i dont belong here?

you could hold me down like aero 
actions point it out like arrows 
bedroom popping just to deal but i'm no clairo
got my obscolescence sealed
say that shit's fair though
where though?

i'm freaking out and steady getting more paranoid
easily annoyed, blank void i cant ever voice
told myself that all my fuck ups made have been a choice
i'm to blame for all the pain felt over all the noise
realign with my mind for a second
and everytime i do i see my substance being lessened
i always reach out when i'm feeling my depression
i'm lower quality, just feeling the compression 

hero
since we split my tank is stuck on zero
tell me if you're waiting while i'm here so
i'm not broken if we never go back
i'm not fine
heal me, i'm breaking
grieve connections more than weekly
i'm faking every smile when you see me
i'd fix it if i ever got to go back
it's not time

would i mess it up again?
what's all this effort in the end?

Purple

i'm drowning in my blood
the barriers i built are dust
and no one here can stop them now
no one here can stop them now
hands pull me to the earth
and part of me knows it's deserved
cus i was never stopped till now
i was never stopped till now

you move with your fear
and i push with my hope
i won't let you hurt them again
i won't let you hurt them again

if i hear you're near 
i'll make sure that you choke
i won't let you hurt me again
i would drop it all for revenge

i'm rising from the mud
becoming more than what i was
can fire burn a phoenix down?
can fire burn a phoenix down?
they crowned a man who runs
can't face the truth of what he's done
but walls he built won't stop me now
all he's done will hit the ground

i see all the people you hurt
so how can i relent
i'll protect them with no silver lining
you feign innocence with your words
but i know what i saw, and what you did to me
you're lying

you move with your fear
and i push with my hope
i won't let you hurt them again
i won't let you hurt them again

if i hear you're near 
i'll make sure that you choke
i won't let you hurt me again
i would drop it all for revenge

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memories i can't replace

2019 it seemed everything was different
and i know those years were different
all the shit that i was living
i was ignorant
i got info all at once
i couldn't sit with it
so i would run, run, run, run, run, run
i couldn't live with it
i grabbed the gun, fun
mom, your son is giving into it
and wishing i could undo all the shit i said 
the only option seemed like painting walls red
i don't care who i helped

i'm done
i can't be helped
i'll run
and force release
it's all i want
went through hell
and for what?
i stood ground till i was shunned

i dont need a pill to feel okay and 
that's because now i dont talk to you
look, i think of how you spoke to me
like "who the fuck you talking to?"
i guess you like it when your friends don't leave the house
babe you're married to your hand
i was married to my outs
shit,
no job but i'm working
i got cash in my jeans
i know why yall are mean
nothing's changed since your teens
i was pushed out of the crowd
and i'm glad they let me out
called irrelevant
but that just means my name is out their mouths

vistaril before we'd call
you never loved me like i loved you
y'all don't care at all
i wish it wasn't so impossible to let you go
i just walked away and didn't really let em know
and when you never hit me up i'll know i'm acting fair
this ain't a friend group , it's a ladder
and i felt the tears
you lost faith,
or did you finally just let it show
that i've been worthless in your eyes cus i'm letting go

i wanna talk about what's hurting not just laugh it off
i wanna talk without a filter, but you'll fucking scoff
i wanna love myself and be me till it's all i know
please don't hit me with facades
i just wanna grow
it was always gonna end
at least i had you as a friend
i went through more than i could ever show
i let go all of me
and put me back together
give me space

i was always alone
stuck in my head
latching onto every word that filled me with dread

need

avi by// /https://twitter.com/raptors___

LYRICS///
and i dont even want to fight
and you're not really tryna hide
you don't need an alibi
you don't need an alibi
it's not like I said goodbye
and it's not like us to drift apart
maybe we should spend the moments we have together
even if you're under pressure
I don't want to change 
and I don't want to deal with this pain
  
by my side
you're fine
so just lay with me
and I'll show you a new world

and i dont even want to fight
and you're not really tryna hide
you don't need an alibi
you don't need an alibi
it's not like I said goodbye
and it's not like us to drift apart
maybe we should spend the moments we have together
even if you're under pressure
I don't want to change

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Alibi

cover art by///https://twitter.com/Raptors__

LYRICS///
you've been noticing 
all my little flaws in my pursuit of temptation in spite of laws
and I didn't mean to leave a footprint
or the fanta misplaced half empty in the fridge
but don't get scared if things are amiss
life's mostly average but you've got a secret friend
just live in bliss
take it step by step 
like i did on the ledges

and you're allegedly getting scared now
at least that's what I heard from the talk in the lounge
but that's fine
I'll leave a note to change your state of mind
and you don't have to worry,
love I can be cleanly even when I'm in a hurry

apparently things have settled down which seems so reassuring
I just want you know that I'm not doing this to start hurting
It's just that I want a normal life
and your personality seems to compliment mine
mine
just know I have nowhere to go
but for now I'll call your unlocked windows home
I'll meet you at the bar tomorrow
acting like I don't know who you are
and that's fine as long as we're not far apart
not far apart

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Secret Friend

AWESOME AVI BY https://twitter.com/ariwannii GO FOLLOW THEM

LYRICS///
feelings flow like an ocean when you're around
they come down, surround and drown me
and I'd love to help you when you're down
but for now 
all I can do is sit outside your window tonight
and hope that you haven't found the mistakes in my ruse
the little clues I've left saying that   
I want you

all i see when I close my eyes is you
and the insides of your room
the layout, the payout of being in and out everynight
I feel like a cloud drifting into the sky that's your life
but it's our time
and I won't lie
I just want to make this right
or at least bring into light 
what I feel
what I've felt for you
for the longest time
you've been on my mind
no, this can't beright
this can't be right

feelings flow like an ocean when you're around
they come down, surround and drown me
and I'd love to help you when you're down
but for now 
all I can do is sit outside your window tonight
and hope that you haven't found the mistakes in my ruse
the little clues I've left saying that   
I want you

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Clouds

AMAZING ART BY https://twitter.com/pizzzatonix !! Go follow em!

Lyrics//
play with me everyday like it's your past time
with pretty words, it's not may but you're a valentine
oh it's time
I'm unravelling and pulling strings like a puppeteer in his prime
I tend to look at our relations and love it
you're like a drug with a nice smile
can't get enough of it
oh I can't enough of it
and when i do I feel i go through withdrawal
 your personality on paper is on par with the pretty pictures you draw

maybe you don't think the same
and maybe you'll feel that way for the rest of days but I'm gonna move on,
maybe move you past your second thoughts or at least try but I thought I was right for what you sought

I spent hours thinking about you and in this thought I realized it's fine if you don't wanna be mine
I can just make sure that we don't drift apart 
and that when you feel down you know you have someone who has your back 
and that you still have their heart

SAMPLE WAS FROM https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ahSmNv0P7lA

I essentially took it apart and put it back together. just select small regions, copy and paste drum hits so that they're nearly perfectly on beat, and then consolidate all of the clips and loop. 

das how u make usable samples/loops yes

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Is It You

juicy icon is by: https://twitter.com/ariwannii !!

LYRICS///
I'm dancing through violet twilight
dreaming things as elusive as they're lucid
but you see
this is my life
and in the things I want come the world
but this light pulsing through me is so surd
and so this feeling furls

I'm dancing through violet twilight
dreaming things as elusive as they're lucid
but you see
this is my lie
and in the things I want come the world
but this light pulsing through me is so surd
and so this feeling furls
this is my world

Azethoth (ver. 1) (deadmau5 contest entry)

about how i feel as a shitty hormonal 16 year old ayyyy

amazing avi is by: https://twitter.com/chay

Lyrics//
im burning bridges with a blind man's precision
it's not my decision but it's my consequence
i guess i'll move on and rue myself for leaving behind old friends
but that's life, 
that's life
right?

what am i anymore?
what am i anymore?
what am i anymore?
what am i?
what am I?

i feel like i look frigid anymore
and i feel like im stuck fitting in the norm
im not nice enough for myself
i cant take breaks for my health
and im drowning
im drowning

so save me
save me
because im drowning
im drowning

in it all

this feeling furls, sprawls, and drives me up the walls
and im done with it all
im done with it all

I really poured my heart into this song and i hope that you enjoy it

thank you so much for 1k <3

Our World

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As They Burn

wonderful avi is by https://twitter.com/Ishu_tani ! 

Lyrics//
look at me
let me show you what you shouldnt be
im a walking disaster
with my heart sown on my sleeve
oh, you dont believe?
you dont believe in me?
well ive had this dream for years and im only sixteen
so im gonna get what i deserve whether it's now or in the future

these words arent passion they're pain
and it's driving me insane
im trying my hardest to please
but things havent felt the same
and for better or worse
you feel no remorse anymore

this song was made using snippet's of bob james' "westchester lady" which i recommend ya check out here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V56yeZtqQTs

❤ enjoy the track(s), and have a great day! ❤

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Is It Me

avatar is by https://twitter.com/ariwannii and i! <3

lyrics: oh im not holding back
when we first met i had a heart attack
and your loves a certain kinda trap
that once i get stuck there's no chance of coming back

i compensate and quantinize,
you fill the void and conjugate with my broken lines
and im sat by your side wasting time
but in the moment its like im truly alive

sample is from: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Amzp7W0RkPA
it's a great song, i really recommend checking it out :)

Not Holding Back

i was really sad when i wrote this but i think im feeling better

lyrics///
no i cant feel
no i cant breathe
and i cant see anymore

put your trust in me
and im left to bleed
so out it pours
im just dying on the floor

call me a fool
call me a freak
let me be
let me free

I dont wanna live as i am
but i dont want to die before i catch onto
life's rhymes and rhythyms with clear-cut precision
right now its blurry streaks
i face it everyday;
nothingness is my peak
but is that unique?
maybe i should feel good as is
think about the small things in life
find a new way to live
ill give it a try
ill give it a try

i dont know if i wanna give up
i dont know if i should even let go
  

I dont wanna live anymore
but i dont have the courage to die
maybe this'll end tonight
ive always been too scared to try

if i cant get it right
then what's the point of the fight?
to be knocked down again and again?
this just doesnt seem like
i can possibly win, ill just repeat the cycle
and end up close to the start again
but maybe thats life

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Blurry Streaks

I'm working on a new album

lyrics///
ive been running away
from my problems
ive been lost in the fray
and ive fallen down
so pick me up off the floor
show me something that i feel i could live for

its a worthless world i live in
im a kid with a far fetched vision
ive been dealing with this friction
and it's destroyed me
crafted my apogee

ive been running away
from my problems
ive been lost in the fray
and ive fallen down
so pick me up off the floor
show me something i feel i could live for

its a worthless world i live in
im a kid with a far fetched vision
ive been dealing with this friction
and it's destroyed me
crafted my apogee

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Friction

Absolutely incredible avi art by https://twitter.com/chubchow!

this song's basis was very inspired by the strings in Clear Tamei by Iglooghost, i highly recommend checking that track out!

LYRICS///
you're all i want
you're all i need
and all you want is to watch me bleed
but that's fine
i fuck up all the time

because im better off changed
than wrong in your eyes
and i'd rather be what you need
i'd rather you let me bleed
so watch me burn 
make me learn
to be what you want
what you'd liked to see
make me bleed
make my current self recede
make me all you'll ever need

All I Want

ART BY https://twitter.com/Pizzzatonix GO FOLLOW THEM

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LIVING IN A DREAM

made for episode 6 of Lord Bung's show Confinement!

Episode - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vcq1lLCgk7E
Lord Bung - https://twitter.com/Lord_Bung

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Avarice (From Lord Bung's Confinement Series)

avi art is by twitter.com/Pizzzatonix !!!

LYRICS:
What do I want from you/
What do you want from me/
Am I your everything/
Or am I worth pennies to you like I think/
Either way, try and keep it together/
Hold me by the feathers/
And push me in the dirt/

I don't really care if it hurts, I just want you/
It wont satisfy me if your efforts wont leave bruises/
I don't lie and I wont soon/
so cut the "caring" rouse/
it's losing it's charm/

Shotgun drinks that i've never seen/
Lose balance, but gain self esteem/
Play all your cards just to impress me/
It doesnt matter either way, I would've stayed/

BLEEDING COLORS

FEATHERS

lyrics: 

got ur emotions under my skin
tear my arms apart just to see what's in
inside your mind
aside from the things you said, id be better off dead
than to listen to my heart
i fell apart for u and the things we are
either way, i adore u
the way ur eyes light up when the light hits right
the red sweatshirt that never leaves ur side
ur smart as shit, but im happier to call u mine

FELL APART

watch ep7 of confinement or i will eat you https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GiB-dlLTUUQ

Ira (From Lord Bung's Confinement Series)

may or may not be a track off an album im making

lyrics:
I used to punish myself for existing
Thought friends were waiting for the day i went missing
I pushed them back with my thoughts
Convinced that I was hated, i just reaped what i sought
Imagined anger in jokes
So everytime they poked I shot back unprovoked
It's not the way that i am, but that's what self hatred can do to a man 
Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
Let alone a kid who thinks his life lacks reason
Let alone a loner losing all his day-ones
Every day I wake up and rue what I have become

what i've become

kind of a throwaway track i made a while ago
i lost the file for it so i thought i'd just upload the export i had while i'm working on the album :)

all you expect

Chances

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Chances (feat. Boogalu)

original track by @prodcrumley, @yso_blank, @youngteam, and @onewoolong

one 1 (ivory rasmus remix)

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22 y/o nb gay artist n musician 

all vocals, lyrics, and instrumentals are by me unless mentioned
(i will credit any samples that are major parts of the song tho)

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