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Kintsugi

Lyrics:

I'm told that there's no chance of me coming back
They just say all that shit to scare me but I'm staying on track
And I know they pray for the moment that they get me to crack
I can slice and bleed and bend, they'd rather see me in half
I'm poorly written in most stories you've told
Replace my virtues with some vices
Hatred's feeling less cold
I'm fucking evil to your friends and sentiments don't get old

I'm always controlled

I feel guilty for the way that I act
I'm always pouring out my heart in hopes you see me intact
I just do it for some help but all you saw was attacks
My response to you was to show off that I had relapsed

kintsugi

Drawing

Lyrics: 
I dig a new hole everytime I try to speak
they're justified in always calling me a freak
I dreaded all this every day of every week
I know I'm better now 
but what's there to believe in
if I'm open you miss it in commotion
drops in the ocean of your favorite potion

y'all know all your reasons and feed them
you breathe to see me bleeding
I'm seething and chiefing some weed to wane this feeling
I hate it and love it
I'm patient with some shit
I'm breaking enough
is this something that's fun 
If I weren't always evil in your eyes
tell me what you'd have here to despise
you fill all the blanks you find with lies

take it how it is
learn to live with my misguidance
hate the world you're in but you'll be happy you survived us
we all break
you'll always win again
my friend, just stay and play pretend

Weird

Lyrics:

Your grand lifestyle's feints hiding guilt
Nailed to stilts in your crowd
Point my head to the clouds
Now endowed, you can fail em and you're still kept round
Double down while you can till they all find out
You wanted my harassment
You blast my every action
Your girlfriend wrote your posts, hope you're proud of all the acting
I'm posed to be your poison
Abusers live in factions
I'd love to see them scramble
I'd live to catch y'all lacking

I'm going numb
I guess my head can't take it
Make me shake when I'm off medication
Bless the weight, fuck a fate
I'm no patient
Thought I escaped him, it's just baked in
Fun, I know my worldview's breaking
I see the people and behaviors I would take in
To you I've always just been something that you'll break in
When done discard you don't care you'll replace it

I know more of your predation than I knew you
Ooh
All you'll be to me is trauma that I pushed through
Simply paint me as a fiend in their eyes
Sit and watch from afar as you scar me twice
Told that I'll be running
Everybody wants to find an angle where I'm bluffing 
I won't risk it all for nothing
I'm fatally invested in my trials meaning something

What's the point of the fight
I'm broken and right
You're just enabled by your fans but police won't care bout your side
Is this what you wanted?

Paralysis

Lyrics:
Hear the atmosphere 
They told me once 
Should've been clear
I'm not welcome here 
I hate myself from living fears 
I thought i veered
I ran and ran they're always near 
You're never clear 
Accept it and live

Live with guilt and all your shame all despite the fame
compliments just foreshadow betraying any trust you gain
you frequent a mask for the pain and I did the same
your actions attached to your name make your work in vein

I hope you know I didn't do this for no reason
you're the type of person to attack me to get even
and hey, you fucking made me this way
cus all I think about is how I'm getting betrayed

Fear the atmosphere
you ran and ran and now they hear
you're never cleared
might hate yourself throughout the years
you're cloaked in drear
and erroneous fears
endowed by your peers
i can see it from here

Atmosphere

Lyrics:

either lost track of the gamut or back then i didn't understand it
I see a power play and panic
reminded how I'm abandoned
I can't take this pressure
it's something that I'm damned with

my actions waste advantage
and I can't fucking manage

realized the power of my words and i froze
some others would've lied till they rose
eyes surround you, what's your platform pose
think I locked up because i didn't know
talk about symptoms on tracks, not the causes 
you said i sought attention everytime I broke and lost it
spoke on a problem that i had and you would cause shit
I became a victim of my friend and now I live on damaged
And no one seems to understand it
I'm moving feeling I'm too manic
I break down when my head's not managed by best friends
(abandoned)
I know they see me now as less then
they think I've got the worst intentions
I'm cut off from the first impression

Sequence

Lyrics:

I'm losing, I'm livid
I'm loving, forgive this
I wish you the best life
I hate me, I hate mine
I run out and break down
I'm fucked up, unheard sound
I lack worth, it all hurts
I can't breathe
I fall first

I'll just leave
I'll just leave

I see so much to hate myself for
Ignore the bleeding be yourself more
Won't see what you talk about health for
Call it misleading, you need help more
They fell short

Wings

Lyrics:

God please, teach me how to grow

I got bad habits and good ideas
haphazard when near ideals
subpar, that's the default feel
thusfar I don't know what's real
I imagined my friends hid hate
I'd create what I thought they'd say
Inundate me to altercate
is this really my fate?

I told them that I'd change
I molded to the pain
Land lower than I aim
It always ends the same

I'm never getting saved

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Kintsugi

Ivory Rasmus