Short breath tight chest my back hurts
the world is all above me and I'm trying my best
Ashes I fall back down I'm crashing
you know me well lights flashing
you see what cameras cant capture
my actions fueled with with passion
(yeah, yeah)

Stop trying so hard nobody cares
why is everywhere I walk it feels like everybody stares
fuck I'm not that self obsessed but I'm so fucking depressed I've got anxiety
I aint trying to hide it but I got problems that all reside in me
the world is all above me and I'm trying my best
Ashes I fall back down I'm crashing
you know me well lights flashing
you see what cameras can't capture
my actions fueled with with passion

The higher I climb doubles the length of the fall
I told you my secrets but you couldn't keep them at all
I run I run I run away I can't get away
from all the pain inside my brain I'm going insane
Please help me, nah I'm just kidding because you can't help someone like me

Stop trying so hard nobody cares
why is everywhere I walk it feels like everybody stares
fuck im not that self obsessed but I'm so fucking depressed I've got anxiety
I aint trying to hide it but I got problems that all reside in me
the world is all above me and I'm trying my best
Ashes I fall back down I'm crashing
you know me well lights flashing
you see what cameras can't capture
my actions fueled with with passion

Paper Towns (bloom)

rose gold lenses cover my eyeballs
hold me closer until your tears are all gone
im used to it so you can use me 
you need a shoulder lets watch a movie
yeah use me just use me
use me and then be through with me

ive become dependant on the caffeine the weed and my ability to fake laughing
i dont go outside like im supposed to but even if i could i wouldnt hope to
i started lying to my family to get back their support
i cant feel a thing no more

she said - "its cool dont act strong, i can see you're hurting baby you look stressed tell me whats wrong? whats got you all inside your head? i'm already in your bed, I won't leave you here alone! Trust me, nothings gonna take me away..."

rose gold lenses cover my eyeballs
hold me closer until your tears are all gone
im used to it so you can use me 
you need a shoulder i need therapy
use me
use me
use me...

i'm used to it, use me (smokerose x iof)

**** https://fanlink.to/nothingwasbetter ****

nothing was better

When I wake up I aint checking on my phone
Rolling up bud just to get into my zone
Feeling something like Edward Norton,
I was hulked out but it didnt last long
Gotta put my pants on when I walk out
Slipped and I fell but I feel alright
Smoking so much now I feel a lil light
Got a couple on my line but they like light 4's
I've been fucking with these thots I dont like these whores
Now I've become a manslut with a lowered bar
I'm a piece of meat scratch me hard and play me like guitar
So many flows can't put that on a resume
Mister Incredible style's impeccable 
Fuck it I'm gorgeous I might rock a cape
And I'll start a new era and mix it with bape

I'm just having fun a finger in the butt
All she talk about is shit and I dont give a fuck
I ain't like that I wanna fall in love 
but I can promise you that its not this one

FLOWERBOY on fleek white girls like me
She tried to speak all that came out was
Fuck me please and play me like guitar...
Play me like guitar, play me like guitar
Play me like guitar hero
Play me like guitar
Play me like guitar
Play me like Guitar Hero

Your moms a milf and she like me
she bought the lease for this type beat
My skin opaque the sun hurts me 
I close the blinds and suck her blood
She a snake all throat and venomous
left a mark with her fangs I'm serious
Played by the game or get played by it
That pain inside is now emptiness

She said she like guitar so play me like guitar ho
Play me like guitar, play me like Guitar Hero
Play me like guitar Play me like guitar
Play me like Guitar Hero Play me like Guitar Hero

GUITAR HERO (tydavid)

Whispers of Steel

This ain’t just bass — it’s a resurrection. Trial By Fire is the rite of walking through flames to reach the sacred light. Sub-bass trials. Halftime grooves. Born again through rhythm and smoke. GOD mode activated

Trial By Fire

CAPSLOCK

didn’t mean for it to be this way,
you walked out shut the door right on my face

it’s like I never existed, I’m a ghost
I know you couldn’t stand to watch me deteriorate
I always thought that you would stay 
but you had too much on your plate

I guess we’re afraid of what we could say to each other
then something that was never said
cus we call these moments everything
you always loved my hollow cheeks

cus I’m dancing with forever,
knowing that it would turn back and never work out
so we push and pull each other
watch the skin tear and I rebound back

you medicate with things that made me worse
strapped to the bed, it’s not fair that it hurts
the guilt came like wolves to my skin
how they wait at my home for me to return

didn’t mean for it to be this way,
you walked out shut the door right on my face
you hate how I lose my days to sleep
I lost count of many it's been

cus you left flowers on my desk
yeah, maybe I was always gone
you left wounds they always seem to return
pulling out stitches, god it hurts

but   dear you know I have to open the door
taking the first steps, I hate how you mourn
concrete veins, blind tounges, heavy eyes
I don’t get how your heart still lies

I was fearless way back before I was cursed with you
how words cant be put to paper of how much you helped me through 
it took me years for me to brave myself on my feet 
but now you’re gone its as if it was all for nothing

we try to stretch our skin between the gap of our love
how miserable we fail, falter, become so weak
becoming frail, we always seem to break
we let go and never talk of this again

NEVER SAID

Never understand me
I don’t, don’t see clearly
Cut off, won’t you don’t see
I sink, sink so deeply 

cut off where I was from, yeah I don’t really know much 
about my past cus the drugs just blurred it, 
yeah im hurting,im lurking but I don’t feel im worth it
You’re talking back to me with a blunted point of view 

but I don’t understand this you gotta speak clearly
My mind is filled with poetry but I can’t put these thoughts down to paper
I spit this out right now,
yeah my heads just a mess I feel manic all the time

So you put your fingers straight into my chest 
wrap your bones around my ribs pull them tightly and then I cant breathe
Every time I speak it’s like your name is wrapped around my lungs
Panic overload I think my brains just gone numb

I say this doesn’t feel real,
You say im insane and look at me with eyes that could kill
You say I didn’t wanna steal
It’s just about survival you know

Yeah tell me how it feels to look into my eyes
When you say you don’t recognize me and you don’t want
Anything to do with me anymore yeah
Im used to that shit when I say I wanna quit the drugs

Remember you call me at 3 am,
Stuttering your drunk you say you wanna kill yourself again
I cant deal with this, I cant take it
Your best friend was dying and I couldn’t help

Im watching depression consume me
As my anxieties got me all kinds of fucked up
Tearing at the seams, so im tearing at the skin
Watch the blood pour down to my ankles yeah I’ve lost within

YOUR EYES COULD KILL

produced by @whiskerprince
mixed/mastered by me

lyrics:

you were the one i wanted
ill never find no one like you
my bedroom feel so haunted i
dial your number and hope i might get thru
i hate when i get this lonely
i choke down a x**** before i come unglued
i know that you need me too
hope that you need me too

i cant afford therapy
i cant escape reality
i smoke until my lungs hurt
losin all my sanity

i cant take much more of this now
and you dont really have to go now

i tried to stay sober but fuck it wont lie
as soon as you left i laid down and i cried
i drown in depression im losin my mind
but please dont feel guilty i just wanna die

and i cant be saved anymore
i cant be saved anymore

cause you were the one i wanted
ill never find no one like you
my bedroom feel so haunted
i dial your number and hope i might get thru
i hate when i get this lonely i choke
down a x**** before i come unglued
i think that you need me too
do you need me too?

(i cant sleep without you next to me
feel so lonely i drown in ecstasy
take me home let me down easily
i dont wanna live without you see
my emotions overwhelm my head
too much empty space inside my bed
please just come back you dont have to
but if you dont i might just end up dead)

available everywhere

sanity (whiskerprince)

I can rock some Prada, Dior on me a Rockstar
glass heart in me so my shawty she can break me and its not hard
picking up the pieces like the pieces that I dropped far we're gonna go far

I throw ripples in time with my steps so much energy I have to get out of my chest
Rip through a wormhole looking like murphy, some of these rappers way to wordy
6th grade white boy hanging with the nerdies, learning from my mistakes and opposition on my own
Always on my grind just as soon as I am home in a shelter, flow like butter yo shit sound like Hellen Keller
Psycho, she let her Tamagotchi die
Robbed me of my heart, you see these tears you make me cry
She was codependent way before we met, I'll be overseas not alone smoking gas from a private jet

Watch me drowning you cant save me
I know I break easy, really I've got so much that I'm dealing with
you would not believe me cause its not easy to live life freely

I can rock some Prada, Dior on me a Rockstar
glass heart in me so my shawty she can break me and its not hard
picking up the pieces like the pieces that I dropped far we're gonna go far

I can rock some Prada, Dior on me a Rockstar
glass heart in me so my shawty she can break me and its not hard
picking up the pieces like some pieces of a broke heart
Gonna go far, gonna go far 🖤

GLASS HEART 💕 (kori)

i died and rose from the concrete <3

@die-young-die-young