I wrote this song circa 2014, a little over a year after moving to NYC. Once the excitement wore off, I saw the city’s struggles & felt that rushed feeling of doing everything and anything to strive for success - & I felt it’s effects on me. It was like someone was sitting on my chest for years & I felt lonely even though there was literally millions of people around me at all times. I wrote this song within 15 minutes. It’s one of the saddest songs I’ve ever written, but personally one of my favorites. Not many people know this, but no matter how much I liked NYC, for almost the entirety of my 8 years there, I suffered from severe anxiety. If anyone is struggling with anxiety or depression, please know that there are resources out there whenever you want or need them & that you are not alone. Many people in this world love you whether you know it, feel it, trust it or not. It gets better; stay strong.
Recorded at: Better Company Studios 
Cover photo by: Adam Exha
Edited by: me
Font by: @totaloliviamove

Lyrics:

Sirens wailing through the night
No one looking to the left and right
When crossing the street anymore

Shadows walk by you
No I'm not used to
Not one body smiling back

Smoke cloud mushrooms blow through the sky
Walk past destruction without another glance by
At what the fuck is this place in my mind

Shadows walk with you
Yes I am used to
That as the only comfort

I wish I knew what love was about
What it feels like and what my life was without
The darkness creeps closer each and every day
Threatening to pull me under from the sunshine in the way

Shadows

04 Wasteland

Pearl

Behind the Curtain

Feel the ground that you walk upon

Wolf In The Woods

Fake Moon

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Lyrics:
I'm calling out another you
No pushing down - we're pushing through
The outrage, the elegy
It's different now, but nothing new
You follow me - I follow you
Into the night in circles

No recall of a last round
All along buried face down
To be found in a dried out sea
I see the low from the high ground
I'm putting out old fires now
Letting go adolescent dreams

I'm calling off another me
Wounded pride - jealousy
Hard to hide like blood stains
All in all gravity
Made us fall, made us fall
Through the clouds in circles

No recall of a last round
All along buried face down
To be found in a dried out sea
I see the low from the high ground
I'm putting out old fires now
Letting go adolescent dreams

Letting go adolescent dreams

Adolescent dreams

I see the low from the high ground
Putting out the old fire now
Letting go adolescent dreams

Old Fires

This track is a duet between Holly Martin and Harry Keyworth. Holly's vocals drench the warm rich production of Harry Keyworth bringing you a dreamy pensive sound to daydream to

ON & ON by Harry Keyworth- Holly Martin

Far Again

We play pretend
Long mornings in the bedroom 
Another day that doesn’t end
And we’re stuck inside of the cycle 

I said I’d dry your tears if you want it
It’s been the worst year you’ve ever had
Don’t wanna hear my name you can’t stand it
But I can’t stand to see you laying on my floor

Walking slow start walking fast
As I see your name in the sidewalk
It’s not like me to keep holding back 
It’s 3AM and I can’t stand being sober

You said you’d dry my tears when I need it
It’s been the worst year I’ve ever had 
Don’t wanna say your name so I’ll scream it
Lose my breath as I pass out on the floor

Tell me you’ll pinch me if I’m dreaming 
Wake up just like before
Tell me you’ll hit me like you mean it
It’s not like I’ll feel it anymore
It’s not like we feel it anymore 

I said I’d dry your tears if you want it
It’s been the worst year you’ve ever had
I Don’t wanna hear your name I can’t stand it
But I can’t stand to see you walking out my door

Another day that doesn’t end
It’s 3AM and we're stuck inside of the cycle

Cycle

When I Was a Ghost (feat. Molly Sirvatka)

PLEAD

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