Head Bashing

weekly underrated,,

bad vibes

first playlist, tupid spotify why can’t all these be on there ;(

ihatemyself:p

хуй

Daily Drops

Wasting My Time

trolling myself :p

Damaged

horrormovies x kaneda7 corpse dancing

prod me

weight all on my shoulders and i can't balance my head
and i dont have the energy so i just lay in bed
baby tell me everything you need so i can catch my breath
and to be honest lately ive been feeling kinda stressed
i told you once and i'll tell you again
i was blaming myself cos im been losing some friends
when you ask me how i feel its better just to pretend
wish im always 17 maybe this is the end

noises playing in my ears
run my fingers through your hair
girl you know you look so pretty when youre pretending to care
i can tell that you dont like me i can see it in your stare  
anti social anti fun nothing left for me to care
going through phases and phases
you know i have this feeling when you come around i hate it
i dont need your love i dont need to be your favourite
tell me everything you want to tell me just dont fake it
what is your motive? 
i dont even know how to react
everything is blurry when im looking in my past
all the time that i wasted
i'll never get it back...
and i still see you when i close my eyes :(((

phases and phases

https://open.spotify.com/album/7jsLbJhaBDuL6nJIO47x4j#login%3Fflow_id=a6de5c8a-3b42-4e66-baf8-ed0e31fe3850%3A1680259362 where i got from

Collapsing

NEET and DethTech - Collapsing

cant look at you
rotting dead body tissue
can you feel anything?
stupid cant even talk right
making a fool of myself one more time
i want to kill my mind
try to end my life not the first time

so useless i might aswell be dead
never gonna leave my fucking bed
i'm worthless feeling so jaded 
waiting for my pain to come to an end

were falling in
skeleton bodies
sitting here just bleeding out slowly
giving in to the pain i suffer
would rather die than find another

so useless i might aswell be dead
never gonna leave my fucking bed
i'm worthless feeling so jaded 
waiting for my pain to come to an end

carve out my fucking flesh
you make me feel like death
you did this to me
its all your fault

so useless i might aswell be dead
never gonna leave my fucking bed
i'm worthless feeling so jaded 
waiting for my pain to come to an end

might aswell be dead

9.7.23 demo

and i cant take this shit no more
my blood spills out all on the floor
you promised everything to me
but all you did was ruin me

you have lips like razor blades
your words cut through my fucking veins
kiss my neck and bring me pain
my love was always in vain

darling take me back to before
i cant even look at your face anymore
darling i'm losing my mind
you make me want to fucking die

i've had enough of you
nothing you said was true
ran off to some fucking guy
the moment we were through
and i cant take this shit
hope you find someone who loves it

don't go don't go
darling youre all i know
please go please go
you make me feel so alone
don't go don't go
darling youre all i know
please go please go
better off with no home

darling take me back to before
i cant even look at your face anymore
darling i'm losing my mind
you make me want to fucking die

im just ur problem

lol
https://soundcloud.com/izumirawr/might-aswell-be-dead

might aswell be nightcore

no love

iLiner

Sew my heart
Sew my heart

Why do the simplest things make me so stressed out
Tell you that I love you baby can you please respond now
You know the way that I am but you don't help out
All of this anxiety is gonna make us burn out

Sew my heart

Yelling empty curses into broken glass
I cut out all my problems make them stainless
I'm just throwing away all the strength I have left
All the blood that I spilt
And all the tears I have wept

Dethtech

You only ever sought to waste my time
With your putrid thoughts and petty lies
Done it all before, its by design
Your past will haunt you until you die
Sewed myself back together
No looking back, not ever
Blessed to have the misery severed
From now into forever

iLiner

Why do the simplest things make me so stressed out
Tell you that I love you baby can you please respond now
You know the way that I am but you don't help out
All of this anxiety is gonna make us burn out

sew my heart w DethTech

(he is cloaked to me
the voices give me nothing)

losing myself for you was my one mistake
delusions dragging me down, can't bury my fate
leaving everything behind 
you'll never see my face again

this is the fucking end 

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

i love when you enjoy my pain
fucking slash my wrists for you baby
bleeding out, its beautiful
that you don't care about me at all
don't change for me now darling
my disease is my love for you
no drugs could help me get through

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

dying 4 ur luv

my love my illness my end

substance abuse

You can find this song on every platform 
Here’s the link to some of the platforms: https://linkfly.to/60112Zcz5XI

You can also find my instagram in that link ⬆️

Blasphemous

You just sit and watch around the fucking bend bitch
I do everything to keep your attention
Use this knife to draw the blood
Expose my heart show you my love

My love don't mean a fucking thing
I cry for help but no one hears my screams

So try to make me feel like I won't give up on myself
I had to drop the drugs cause they don't help
Stare into the mirror and I mutilate myself
Spill the blood on the floor
I kill myself for you but you still want more
What the hell am I still trying for
Cut off my limbs smash my head on the door

On the door

I can't stand the sound of silence in my ear
I been running from everything that I fear
Always think I'm safe but the voices they are near
I can't have a thought with your voice in my ear
Dig myself a fucking grave
Place your bones down where I lay
Your blood runs dry as I touch your face
My love don't mean a fucking thing

My love don't mean a fucking thing
I cry for help but no one hears my screams

So try to make me feel like I won't give up on myself
I had to drop the drugs cause they don't help
Stare into the mirror and I mutilate myself
Spill the blood on the floor
I kill myself for you but you still want more
What the hell am I still trying for
Cut off my limbs smash my head on the door

prod: sxzu

self titled snuff film

idk how to mix lol

the verdicts out on you
you liked the things that you put me through
cant even look at you
already gone before its due
u live a lie
play dead for me tonight

you play pretend cause its all you got
lie to my face baby make it stop
losing myself for another shot
it goes (it goes)
youre fucked (youre fucked)
no one believes you now

distracted by your eyes
its hard to even see through ur lies
skins torn from flesh and bone
hours with you just makes me groan
ur fucked up bliss
always faking a kiss
with death on ur lips

your face in the dark
dead from the start
my ears keep ringing
with all ur remarks
just make it stop
this is the 3rd time
youve staged ur death
i'll make it ur last

Pseudocide

What the fuck do you expect me to do
When I'm so fucking caught up on you
Give me calls around 2
Put my head inside the noose
No I don't wanna tell the truth
Cause it's worse than anything you could believe
I'm just drowning in your arms no I can't even breathe
And I said I got a problem it's a bone to pick with me
Because I got some fucked up thoughts that I don't wanna see

I don't wanna think about it
I can't help when I'm alone in my bed
And you told me don't think about it

I don't wanna think about it
I can't help when I'm alone in my bed
And you told me don't think about it
I'm grasping onto every word that you said to me

Just leave me please
The rekoning
My eyes they bleed
There is something I can't tell a soul
Keep it buried in my mind I hold

I don't wanna think about it
I can't help when I'm alone in my bed
And you told me don't think about it
I'm grasping onto every word that you said

prod. Dead Yami

cheap lobotomy near me

featuring @dethtech

i won't see angels when i die
let it happen, let me lie here
i'm done trying to be like you
keep pretending like you didn't steal my heart
you'll take all i have and take all my memories

these blood stained eyes can't see your face
i can't stop the blood

when i'm dead ill write to you in dreams
roses dying, light the cigarette, i'm a bloody mess
i should've known our love would end in tragedy
i watch the tears fall from your eyes, i'm so heartless

buried deep beneath your skin
lies the hurt that broke you
clawing from within
god knows the height i've left to fall
all i can see is you've gone cold

when i'm dead ill write to you in dreams
roses dying, light the cigarette, i'm a bloody mess
i should've known our love would end in tragedy
i watch the tears fall from your eyes, i'm so heartless

i can't sleep when im with you
she had the wings of an angel
but that girl was a devil in disguise
i saw her wings were broken
so she just stood there as i died

i wont see angels when i die, they'll laugh as i fall

i wont see angels when i die, they'll laugh as i fall ft. DethTech

@hannevig

art by @heptaknot

lyrics

You're my poison and my cure
Imma stay with you even though it hurts
I try my best why does nothing work
What a sad response guess I am the worst

Why does nowhere feel like home
I been thinking I might die alone
Fucking hate this life I chose
Where the hell should I even go from here
I'm so lost and scared
All these thoughts impaired
Don't even act like you fucking care about me

I can't take it anymore
You left I close the door
What was that for
Everything I do feels poor
I gotta work more
I'm such an eyesore
I wanna live my life again
Give me back the time I spent
It's to soon for things to end
I wanna feel alive again
Give me back my innocence
Fill the void with sedatives

Just watch me throw it all away
I don't wanna be here for another day
All it does is piss me off
Why does nothing go my way
Watch me go and fall apart 
I won't see another day

Why does nowhere feel like home
I been thinking I might die alone
Fucking hate this life I chose
Where the hell should I even go from here
I'm so lost and scared
All these thoughts impaired
Don't even act like you fucking care about me

I can't take it anymore
You left I close the door
I don't wanna be here for another day
Everything I do feels poor
I gotta work more
Watch me go and fall apart 
I won't see another day

prod. Dead Yami

ipas and energy drinks w hannevig

Teenage Lovers (Sped up)

✦with my brotherrr @777evil!! out everywhere next month thank u for listening <3✦

lyrics
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and now im watching from the sidelines, real life
and ive been feeling like i might fly super high
yeah now we're partying here all night, get by
no i dont want to feel ure so cold like ice 
yeah she told me that we might die, why mind
and ive been looking past the highlights online
and everythings gonna be alright just fine 
no i dont wanna be at seaside tonight

and now im watching from the sidelines
tonight 
i feel like i’m not in real life
most times 
but will i ever be on headlines? 
blurred eyes 
is it all in my head? 
i know that you want me dead 
no i don’t want more friends 
they’re just fucking with my head 
i just wanna make it out with the ones that make me feel real 
i don’t need to say a lot cause i know that i’m the real deal

SIDELINES

SIDELINES w/ EVILMIKU (ghosteen)

[LYRICS]
i don’t i don’t really like to open up no 
and
i don’t i don’t wanna get out of my head no
okay how do i look? 
i hope im looking good 
and like what’s the move?
and who the fuck is this dude
i hope that you don’t mind 
cause i cry like every night 
i hope that you don’t mind 
cause i cry  like every night

i i need to look for a way 
i i need to find an escape 
i need to find a way out of this motherfucking nightmare 
i’d commit suicide but my momma still right here 
i i need to look for a way 
i i need to find an escape 
i need to find a way out of this motherfucking nightmare 
i’d commit suicide but my momma still right here 

they call me a burnout
like what does that mean?
i’m so happy that you’re here now 
she said come follow me 
i hope that you don’t mind 
cause i cry like every night 
no don’t take me home 
bitch i’m trying to die tonight 
can you leave me alone 
cause you’re kinda killing my vibe 
no don’t take me don’t take me don’t take me home 
i’m tryna die die die die tonight 

i i need to look for a way 
i i need to find an escape 
i need to find a way out of this motherfucking nightmare 
i’d commit suicide but my momma still right here 
i i need to look for a way 
i i need to find an escape 
i need to find a way out of this motherfucking nightmare 
i’d commit suicide but my momma still right here 

i hope that you don’t mind 
no don’t take me home 
bitch i’m trying to die tonight 
can you leave me alone 
cause you’re kinda killing my vibe 
no don’t take me don’t take me don’t take me home 
i’m tryna die die die die tonight
no don’t take me don’t take me don’t take me home 
i’m tryna die die die die tonight
i i need to look for a way 
i i need to find an escape

FLUOXETINE09 [nma1nc]

with cold skies a new day dawns
embrace my lies, one last time

while we wasted away, watched as it burned
all this false hope makes me sick to my stomach
and i won't ever find a cure

i don't think this is what i'm made for, get me out of this mess
i killed myself for you and still you're just an ungrateful bitch
keep telling those lies and hope it all goes away
but honestly darling i can't fucking cope

the flowers in the bed are starting to die out
bury it all behind, don't care if you're dead or alive
a dull razor wrote my end and left it vacant
ill never feel the same about you anymore

memories forgotten, our bloody stains
cover the trees beside our graves
everything i said to you was exactly what i meant

youcantmakemewritethis

i can't escape this feeling of fear
the flowers bloom, a sea of lunar tears
it's not the same as it once used to be
we forgot what made us whole

the flowers in the bed are starting to die out
bury it all behind, don't care if you're dead or alive
a dull razor wrote my end and left it vacant
ill never feel the same about you anymore

the bitter sweet end to everything i once loved

Coom Anthem

dont got voices in my head
but i got a feeling every1 wants me dead

i dont wanna go home
no babe i dont wanna go home

break my bones b4 i die
i dont wanna i dont wanna cry

i dont wanna go home
no girl i dont wanna go home

drive my car dont get hurt
any second ill end up in the dirt

i wanna go home
i just wanna go home

feeling low without no feelin
yea u know ive been dealing
never much bothered me anyway

well ive been okay
i have no right to complain

got u, im doing fine in school
dont need “help” no more

i want this to last forever
i dont want to die
i wanna live forever
forever with u

forever w/ u

lyrics:
it's the end and it's all your fault
i don't care what happens today
cause i'm not scared and i would die today
someone take me out i'm feeling wide awake
feeling wide awake so someone take me out
i'm feeling disillusioned i wanna die right now
i'm spitting on the mirror cuz im ugly
fuck stupid world so ugly

it's the end and it's all your fault
it's the end and it's all your fault
it's the end and it's all your fault
it's the end and it's all your fault

wide awake

sample at the end by foolz


and now that i've finally given it all
oh darlin baby i don't give a fuck
no i don't wanna love
i wanna cry and fuck shit up
and everybody's sayin
wagon kid is losing it
well i don't think they're wrong
oh baby darling im outta luck
i dont need a hug
i wanna die and kill someone



and everybody's sayin
why is it that you're so sad sad boy?
well baby i dont know what it is
i dont think i dont live
i just drag my body until the week ends and
I still wonder if she thinks of me
well yeah, i know im a creep
gotta go gotta leave
i want a twelve gauge stuck in between my teeth

some nights i stay up so long till the morning comes 
i gotta say my brain is going numb
i need a girl to love
and now im falling further down i need to call my mom
and yeah i did the math
im never coming back
i say fuck the world i might be going mad
im fucking sick of it 
the way i feel like shit
and i dont care what you think you can drink my piss

I DONT GIVE A FUCK!1!

i pay the price
so i take a cut
i'm just beside myself
i give and take for granted
~~
hate, repackaged 
history, revised
your pain is pleasure
your shame is pride  
~~
we burn your eyes
poison your mind 
soil your soul 
nothing to do with nature
~~
hate, repackaged
history, revised
your pain is pleasure
your shame is pride
~~
blame incited
pay your vows
break the silence
or fear hell

the bitter sweet end to everything i once loved

izumi is dead