Gaslight

Sideways

Sun (Summer Version)

A song for the people who help navigate you through your depression and help you feel refreshed 

Good as New

1991 is for the moments we can never get back but will always hold close. A reminder of what it was like to love without fear and live without hesitation. A love letter to the past. 

1991


I’ve been gone, but every night
I fall asleep holding your light.
Even in dreams, I hear your voice,
Soft as the sound of the world’s best choice.
The bed feels colder without your touch,
And that’s how I know I love you so much.


The days apart only make it clear,
Every mile is a measure of how much I need you near.


Moonshine, I’m on my way,
Counting the hours, chasing the day.
Our little home is waiting there,
With your smile glowing everywhere.
Every turn, every road I take,
Is for the love that we create.


I imagine the keys in the door,
The sound of your footsteps across the floor.
The way your eyes will find my face,
Like the first time, in a brand new place.
And when your arms wrap me in tight,
The world feels softer, the world feels right.


No call or screen could ever replace
The gentle warmth of your embrace.


Moonshine, I’m on my way,
Counting the hours, chasing the day.
Our little home is waiting there,
With your laughter filling the air.
Every turn, every road I take,
Is for the love that we create.


Every day I’ve been away
Showed me more than words could say:
I miss you deeper than I knew,
And all that proves is how much I love you.


Moonshine, I’m coming home,
No more nights of feeling alone.
Our little world, just you and me,
Is all I’ll ever want to be.
Every mile has led me through
To this one truth: my heart’s with you.


Moonshine, I’m on my way,
The lonely nights all fade away.
Our quiet home, our sacred place,
Where every breath is your embrace.
Each mile I drive just shows me true,
My only home is love with you.


So tonight, no distance, no phone—
Just you and me, in our heart, our home.
And when the morning sun will rise,
I’ll wake to love inside your eyes.
No greater gift I’ll ever know,
Than every day, to call you home.

Back home

The alarm clock’s ringing but I don’t care,
Got your sleepy smile tangled in your hair.
The sunlight paints us golden through the blinds,
And I’m so thankful, love, that you are mine.
So precious so sweet, my beautiful moonshine.


Your eyes are the morning I wanna see,
Your kiss is the coffee that wakes up me.
Don’t need the world, don’t need the news,
All I need is lying here with you.
Just tender kisses and warming hugs.
All I need, so thankful, just lay next to you


Let’s stay lazy forever,
Wrapped up in this songs together.
Sharing melodies, and our lips so sweet,
Hearts in rhythm, soft heartbeat.
Time can wait, let’s drift away,
In your arms is where I’ll stay.


You sang a song so soft, so cute,
And love, I melted right into you.
Like an angel whispering through the air,
Every note said I’ll be there.
We trade our favorites  beneath the sheets,
You hum the tune, I sing the harmony.


Your laughter’s the sunrise I long to hear,
Your whisper’s the music that pulls me near.
No clock, no rules, no plans, no rush,
Just your voice, your kiss, your touch.


Let’s stay lazy forever,
Wrapped up in this songs together.
Sharing melodies, lips so sweet,
Hearts in rhythm, soft heartbeat.
Time can wait, let’s drift away,
In your arms is where I’ll stay.


If hunger calls, we’ll rise and go,
But I’ll still be singing soft and low.
Every little kiss, each breath, each sigh,
Turns this bed into paradise.


Let’s stay lazy forever,
Making each small moment better.
No place to be, no world outside,
Please make this day last forever,
Just your love and endless time.
If this is life, I’ll take no more
I found my heaven on our bedroom floor.

Sunday morning


Yidan, my dear, my love, 
this one is for you,
Yidan, my girl, my sweet love,
once more once more
in the eternity, I love you, I  love you so


I used to wake with an empty hand,
Chasing dreams across the land.
Thought you were hidden behind the stars,
But you were waiting, not that far.
Not in the sky, not on the moon,
I found your smile, it came so soon.
Now every night, I hold you close,
The search is over, I’ve found my home.


Across the street, I found your face,
Your gentle love, my resting place.
Those lips I dreamed, I’ve kissed at last,
The lonely miles are in the past.
No more journeys on my own,
I’ve found my heart, I’ve found my home.


Yidan, your name’s my sweetest song,
It’s been your voice I’ve craved so long.
Every “goodnight” now feels so real,
Every sunrise shows me what I feel.
I drive for hours just to be near,
But every mile’s worth it, my dear.
The road was long, but now it’s clear,
I walk with you, no more fear.


Across the street, I found your face,
Your gentle love, my resting place.
Those lips I dreamed, I’ve kissed at last,
The lonely miles are in the past.
No more journeys on my own,
I’ve found my heart, I’ve found my home.


All of the nights I wished on stars,
Led me to where your arms now are.
The waiting taught me how to see,
The greatest gift was meant for me.
And now I know, through all I’ve done,
My journey ends — you are the one.


Across the street, I found your face,
Your gentle love, my resting place.
Those lips I dreamed, I’ve kissed at last,
The lonely miles are in the past.
No more journeys on my own,
I’ve found my heart, I’ve found my home.


Yidan, my girl, my sweet love,
once more once more... 
in the eternity, I love you, I  love you so...
So here we lie, the night is kind,
Your hand in mine, your breath on mine.
And when the morning sun will rise,
I’ll see forever in your eyes.
No more searching, no more roam,
With you, my love, I’m finally home

Our Journey

Accept The Evil Within

Don’t Matter sheds light on mental health. Many of us suffer from depression and anxiety but we don’t have a platform to talk about it. I wrote this song to share my story in hopes to inspire you to share yours too. Join me in spreading awareness.

Accept The Evil Within

J. Ash Dusk