Behind Blue Eyes

“I Don’t Know How To Love (Anyone)”

She asked me if I loved her
If I ever could
My lust had made a promise
Beyond my will to make good

I pride myself as mindful
Being self-aware
But there’s always a place inside
That pride will spare
	And right then I saw it laid bare

I don’t know how to love anyone

No man is an island
But many plateau
They grow into tailored suits
But to men they never grow

I want for more than an island
But have I plateaued?
I look a full man in a suit
But this man has got a hole
	And, oh Lord, now I can’t not know

I don’t know how to love anyone

Should I strike out in anger?
Should I curl up and cry?
Should I lock my heart up?
Should I continue with my lie?

Oh, let me be a gentle man with a gentle dream
I want to learn to love someone who in turn loves me
Let me be selfless, caring, patient with my love
Let me learn to love someone

I’ve been living my life in anger
I’ve done nothing but curl and cry
I’ve never tried to give my heart up
I don’t want to continue with this lie

Oh, I want to be a gentle man with my gentle dream
I want to learn to love someone who in turn loves me
I want to be selfless, caring, patient with my love
I’m going to learn to love someone

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Music by Corey Ball
Lyrics by August Lysy

I Don't Know How To Love

"Just Tell me more" is the result of a fruitful collaboration with the MTM team, who trusted me to write one of their superb musical creations. "Just Tell Me More" is above all, the beginning of a real musical friendship with a fantastic team, very professional, dedicated to good music and good sound.
Once again, thank you to MTM Team for their trust, and their kindness which illuminated this project.

Lyrics and melody: Richard Gonfrier
Singer: Richard Gonfrier
Music: Freddie M. & Steven D.
Production: Mastering True Music
Single cover: Delphine
MTM - Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/masterigtruemusic/tracks
Song: Just Tell Me More
All copyright MTM & Richard Gonfrier

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Just Tell Me More - MTM feat. Richard Gonfrier

Tempting September

'The Abbott Of Crossraguel Abbey'
In 1570 the Dunure Castle was in the hand’s of Gilbert, the 4th Earl of Cassillis, who had the reputation as a greedy man with a fiery temper. Gilbert’s Uncle had been the last abbot of Crossraguel, and after his death in 1564 the abbey lands passed on to him. This was all to change in 1565, 
when the King appointed one Alan Stewart as the lay commendator to the abbey. This allowed him to gain control over the lands, buildings, and the duties paid to it. Obviously the Earl was not amused at this usurping, and 5 years later after a great deal of political fencing , 
the Earl had Stewart kidnapped and thrown into the Black Vault of Dunure Castle. Here the poor man was roasted on a spit over a well stoked fire, until he agreed to sign away the lands to the Earl. Stewart was eventually freed and outlived the Earl, who was killed after his horse fell on him.

Whether there is any truth in the story is unclear, but the tale lived on in legend. It is said that on dark nights, when the wind blows gently through the ruin, the hideous shrieks of the abbot can be heard, as he is he is roasted alive deep within the Black Vault.
Of course there are two side to this story. The poor Abbott being roasted over the spit on the one hand and his tormentors quite happily watching till they got what they wanted on the other. 
I have attempted to cover both sides of the coin in the musical interpretation.

Lost Footprints In the Sands Of Time

The Abbott Of Crossraguel Abbey

Virtual jam session with Roy Roy who is on slide guitar. Hope you enjoy! Song originated and written by Roy Roy. 

Roy Roy's Soundcloud site...
https://on.soundcloud.com/1GuUM

Spring Is Coming (Roy Roy And J.J. Terrell)

Everyone's Doing It

Part of the collaborative Mixtape album: Free Hands In A Blender
soundcloud.com/themysteriousdecibel/sets/free-hands-in-a-blender
FREE FOR DOWNLOAD

Music: Composed, written, mixed, mastered, and performed by: Mahan Mahan
https://soundcloud.com/mahan-mahan

Vocals/Lyrics: Written and performed by: The Mysterious Decibel

Vocals mastered by: Mark McClellan

Lyrics:

All grows dim, time is winding down
My cheeks stay hovered over a puddle of brown
The voices outside of this cramped little box
These choices i've made to breed these cramped up blocks

The shit bubbles burst and trap all the flies
A concoction so twisted, Only someone like Bill Nye
Can decipher all these lies
Can scythe all of these cries
as this pit of stench boils in the middle of July

Out there the souls, eager for pressure to burst
Through their minds like a submarine tank submersed
Parades gather in the grass for the show to start
While these waves slowly rip my brain apart

A wetness caresses my hang lo mein
This water is rising am I going insane?
It tickles my demons but it feels so ripe
There's always a bit of shit at the end of the pipe!

I'm in a fecal position where the turds capsize
In a fetal position where my sanity dies
This suddenly doesn't seem so real anymore
As the septic tank thickens with the sludge of war
Where the turds capsize
In a fetal position where my sanity dies
This suddenly doesn't seem so real anymore
As the septic tank thickens with the sludge of war
The slimy hand of stench, Pulls me right down
In a puddle of madness, many shades of brown
NO NO NO NO NOOO!
Get a little taste of the waste in the swamp!

The Mysterious Decibel X Mahan Mahan - A Septic Journey (FREE DOWNLOAD)

Supernatant

Bandcamp

Epitaxial

Embellished

(lyrics)
Wendy had a rabbit, kept it in its cage
used to feed it peaches, now it won't behave 
say her friends dont like me, say that im a creep 
i told you they were lying you left me in my sleep 
wendy wendy oh won't you listen
I'll move either way and you'll find it suspicious 
I think of your name in the day and the night 
I want you to stay Imma hold on you tight 
yea that's right 
ooooooooo 
that's the sound of you leaving in the night

wendy demo

Composer/Songwriter. Proficient performer of piano, bass guitar, double bass, cello, 6 string , 12 string , drums, triangle (shall I include tambourine too?🤣), vocals, lyrics. 99% of the tracks on this page are original songs. None of my performances on any of my tracks, whether solo work, or collaboration, have any editing whatsoever. Effects and equalization? Of course! But no editing, no software, etc. Quite a substantial amount of these tracks are with The Eclectic Collective. We are like family and have been playing together on a daily basis since approximately March of 2022 as the Eclectic Collective. Before the band bore it's name Eclectic Collective; Josh, Ken, Stephen, Tez, and  CG Maness were doing some occasional collabs. At any given time we are all simultaneously working on about 15 different songs. And when we feel they are done cooking in the oven we release them.  We release a song every week on Fridays at 4AM UTC

Members of The Eclectic Collective :
The Beautiful Dark 
Entheogenic Psychonaught (Josh Clary)
J.J. Terrell
Llanpsych
K2 and the Three [and the Four]
TexMex Shaman
Mistermark
CG Maness