held//numb

An original song about my Uncle and friend Ciaran O'Briain, one of the last Lighthouse Keepers in Ireland. 

Mizen Head is regarded as the most southerly point of mainland Ireland, but Brow Head is the actual the most southerly point. It is situated at the end of Mizen Peninsula and is in the district of Carbery in County Cork.

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I Am the Keeper

First track of newly releasing album: Greatest Hits: 25th Anniversary Deluxe Edition Reissue (disc) 3

Everything Lives!

Faded Polaroids

Verse 1
Leaves are turning.
Sidewalk cracks.
Your coat still hangs.
I don’t reach back.

Verse 2
Radiator hums.
The glass is cold.
Your name is etched.
The ink grows old.

Pre-Chorus
The city rusts
in copper light.
I lose my color,
fade from sight.

Chorus
Faded Polaroids
on the kitchen floor.
Edges curling—
they don’t hold us anymore.


Fall is coming,
colder every night.
I keep the ghosts,
but I can’t make it right.

Pre-Chorus
The city rusts
in copper light.
I lose my color,
fade from sight.

Chorus
Faded Polaroids
on the kitchen floor.
Edges curling—
they don’t hold us anymore.

Nights grow longer,
days grow thin.
I keep your picture,
light wears dim.

Pre-Chorus
The city rusts
in copper light.
I lose my color,
fade from sight.

Chorus
Faded Polaroids
on the kitchen floor.
Edges curling—
they don’t hold us anymore.


Faded Polaroids

Light Breaks Through

Verse 1 
The streets are empty, 
the windows are dark
Every step feels heavier
 than the last
I carry the silence 
like a stone in my chest
Waiting for a sign, 
but nothing comes back

Pre-Chorus (quiet shift)
And I can’t tell if I’m fading
Or if the night’s just overstaying

Chorus (uplifting)
But the light breaks through, it always does
Shadows fade when it’s just us
We are stronger than the fear we knew
The light breaks through, it always does

Verse 2
The clock ticks slowly, 
the years disappear
The world keeps moving 
but I stay here
The walls remember 
every word I’ve said
But I’m still alive, 
I’m not finished yet

Pre-Chorus
And I can’t tell if I’m sinking
Or if the world is slowly blinking

Chorus (uplifting)
But the light breaks through, it always does
Shadows fade when it’s just us
We are stronger than the fear we knew
The light breaks through, it always does

Verse 3
Hold on, hold on, 
the night won’t last
The dark is heavy 
but it breaks like glass
Hold on, hold on, 
we’re almost through
There’s a brighter sky 
waiting for you

Pre-Chorus
And I can’t tell if I’m sinking
Or if the world is slowly blinking

Final Chorus
The light breaks through, it always does
Shadows fade when it’s just us
We are stronger than the fear we knew
The light breaks through, it always does
Yeah, it always does


Light Breaks Through

The Break

**Description after the lyrics**

Verse 1
You paused before you turned—
Long enough for me to yearn
I felt the words behind my teeth,
I waited long for you to speak.
But both of us, afraid to fall,
Let nothing rise, we said it all.

Chorus
We almost said it, both of us—
A word, a touch, a wait for trust.
But fear stood taller than the need,
And silence got the final lead.
We almost spoke. We almost stayed.
What stays is what we never said.

Verse 2
We never fought, we never lied—
Just watched the light begin to slide.
You waited for me, and I did too,
Hoping the other would break through.
Maybe we were two of a kind—
Good at silence, just a little blind.

Chorus
We almost said it, both of us—
A word, a touch, a wait for trust.
But fear stood taller than the need,
And silence got the final lead.
We almost spoke. We almost stayed.
What stays is what we never said.

Bridge
I don’t blame you. I don’t blame me.
We just played it safe too easily.
I hoped you'd reach, you thought I might—
It turns out we were both not right.

Final Chorus
We almost said it, both of us—
A word, a truth, a wait for trust.
But timing failed, and fear rang true,
And silence got the best of two.
We almost spoke. We almost stayed.
Is that what we were meant to say?

Still…
If you’re hearing this someday—
I wish I had somehow found a way.

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We Almost Said is a quiet ache turned into song. It isn’t about what happened, but about what didn’t—the words that stayed locked behind teeth, the closeness that never bridged the small gap. It moves on hesitation, on pauses that became endings, on the way two people can hold the same yearning and still let it slip away.

It’s tender, not bitter. More sigh than shout. The refrain of “almost” is its heartbeat: love nearly spoken, closeness nearly claimed, a truth nearly shared. And in that space between, the song finds its power—not in explanation, but in what lingers unsaid.

We Almost Said

No regrets, we can change a lot in our lives. If to take time for it. And we have time for everything.
Lyrics, melody, performing: Aili Avi (28.9.2025)

Sul on aega/You have time

Esta canción es una oración de arrepentimiento y vida nueva. Inspirada en Lucas 13:1–9, habla de la misericordia de Dios que nos da otra oportunidad para dar fruto y de la urgencia de convertir el corazón antes de que sea demasiado tarde.

1025 No Esperes, basada en Lucas 13_1-9

I fly away every time you look at me, I tell you that I fly away
I lie awake every time you look at me, I tell you that I lie awake
So take a stance, and come closer, kiss me over, I had given you everything

Oh, I lie awake I told you I’d lie awake
Every time you look at me, I fade away

I find a way, every time I look at you   
I say that I have found a way to stay
        

fadeaway

Written between 2022-2025.

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Light Breaks Through

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