Hamartia/Shampoo

Drought

This song kicks off "LifeLongLove" -- a collection of songs that will unspool the saga of how JackBrown met a girl half a lifetime ago and how he almost blew a perfect thing. The chronicle starts here. Chapter 1:  Where Do I Begin?

Setting: A walk-in closet. Smells like leather & old Polo. The big anniversary party starts in about an hour.
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i’m gonna tell a story and it’s a good one too 
i think the time has come 
to sing about me & you, you & me 
how we came to be 
i wanna tell the tale and put all the good stuff in 
but where do i begin? 

after all this time it’s hard to remember now 
just how this whole thing started 
how it came about so long ago, many years ago 
we’ve got an old love story that needs a fresh new spin 
so where do i begin? 

so i’m thinking back to our early days 
but the memories are in a haze 
what was i like before we met? 
well, it’s been so long that i forget 

i know that it’s not over, our best is yet to come 
but i think it’ll do us good to remember where we came from 
i’m going back, way way back 
i’m gonna tell our story and feel it all again 
I’ll be smart and use my art to chart out my heart 
and I’ll start with the part before you come in 

that’s where I’ll begin 
so let’s just dive right in 
now it’s time to 
begin . . .

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Next Up Chapter 2:  Reminiscing about the first time I ever seriously considered the possibility of . . . you know . . . love.

Where Do I Begin? (Chapter 1 of LifeLongLove)

This is Chapter 2 in my collection of songs LifeLongLove.

Setting: The big anniversary party starts in about an hour and I should be getting ready but here I am reminiscing about another party long long ago. I see myself holding a 16oz. red plastic SOLO cup that's half full of flat beer. Smell of smoke from the bonfire. My buddy Ray  (I'll tell you all about him some other day in my “Flashback” playlist) displays a rare moment of seriousness by posing some surprising questions . . . 
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i was 17 when my best friend came to me and said 
“do you think that some day you’ll fall in love? 
will you end up getting married, pushing babies in a carriage? 
can you ever see yourself all grown-up?” 

and i said: i don’t think about it but i could live without it 
who says that’s how life is supposed to go? 
i know you believe that “love is all you need” 
‘cause you listen TOO much to the radio 

you’ve heard too many love songs 
they’re filling your head 
you’ve heard too many love songs my friend 
i’m not ready yet 

i won’t be tied down 
i won’t lose myself 
my life won’t be bound 
to someone else 

think of all those cheesy movies and silver screen beauties saying, 
“now that I’ve found you, my life’s complete” 
we know it’s fabricated or at least exaggerated 
they’re selling the same old lame fantasy 

you've heard too many love songs 
they can’t all be true 
you’ve heard too many love songs, my friend 
it's fine for you 

but i won’t be tied down 
i won’t lose myself 
my life won’t be bound 
to someone else 
i don’t wanna drown 
in some wishing well 
my life won't be bound 
to someone else 

i sound like i’m a cynic but hang on just a minute 
it was all a future scene that i couldn’t see 
i never said ‘never’ but, love? come on whatever 
it was last thing on my mind when i was 17 
when i was 17

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Next up:  Chapter 3 in which I continue rummaging around my past looking for clues as to how I got here . . . Ah yes, college. In the dorm. The first rumblings of romance.

Too Many Love Songs (Chapter 2 of LifeLongLove)

This is Chapter 4 of of my collection of songs: LifeLongLove. 

Setting: Our guests arrive in less than an hour -- but I’m still strolling down this romantic memory lane. I'm remembering another near-miss when i dated a songwriter. The following went down in the music building on campus. I can practically smell the rehearsal room we were in - old baloney sandwiches, instrument polish and dust on the strings of the out-of-tune piano. 
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you just looked in my eyes and said, 
“it seems like something’s wrong” 
so now you’re off to write 
another heart-breaking song 
and i’ve seen this before 
you get bored so you start this tug-of-war 
this phenomenon is a little odd 
it’s . . . it’s relational sabotage 

i just looked in your eyes 
and the penny finally dropped 
yeah, it’s taken awhile but now I'm catching on 
you tear things apart, you make it hard 
so you can suffer for your art 
but it’s a crock, yeah it’s a con 
it’s relational sabotage 
‘cause you’re the type 
who needs some drama every night 
yeah, you go and pick a fight 
so you can write about love gone wrong 

oh you sing about pain and rejection and hurt 
but all your inspiration leaves me in the dirt 
and it’s easy to see 
it’s not me who’s to blame for this misery 
you bring it on and then camouflage 
your relational sabotage 
‘cause you’re the type 
who needs some drama every night 
yeah, you go and pick a fight 
just so you can write about love gone wrong 

now you wanna make up 
well that’s tough ‘cause i have had enough 
i swear to god, you gotta stop 
this relational sabotage 

okay, alright 
you want some drama here tonight? 
you can write another song 
about love going wrong 
because now i’m gone 
go and write another song 
about love going wrong 
because now i’m gone
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Next Up -- Chapter 5:  Crushed.  No more near misses.  When it hit it hit like an asteroid cratering into the earth.

Then I Dated A Songwriter (Chapter 4 of LifeLongLove)

This is Chapter 5 in my collection of songs called LifeLongLove.

Setting: The shop was called “The Asteroid”. Out of this world. The smell of cheap incense. Posters and stacks of CD’s like some kind of altar. Racks of vintage vinyl LP’s waiting to be flipped through. The power&possibility of it all was intoxicating.   (note to younger listeners:  in the olden days you actually had to go to a PLACE to buy music)
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i walk through the door at the record store 
and i see her there 
the girl who runs the place has such a face 
that i stop and stare 
she’s so attractive 
one look and i am crushed 
she’s radio-active 
rock & roll pixie dust 
she could change my life from Lo-Fi to stereo 

oh no -- she is way too much 
oh no -- don’t wanna say too much but 
one look at her and i am crushed 

i try to catch her eye but i’m feeling shy 
and i blow my chance 
so i look for my disc but i have to risk 
just one more glance 
she’s so attractive 
i sneak a peek and i am crushed 
she seems distracted 
i don’t how we’ll hook up 
but if it’s meant to be, i’m gonna meet this dynamo 

oh no -- she is way too much 
oh no -- i can’t say too much ‘cause 
my tongue is tied and my heart is crushed 

she walks up to me and i get to see 
her pop-rock smile 
the cd in my hand is her favorite band 
she says, “I like your style” 
she’s so attractive 
one word and i am crushed 
we interact 
and i think i see her blush 
now it's the first time in my life 
i feel like i could play Romeo 

oh no -- girl, you are way too much 
oh no -- forgive me if i say too much but 
one look at you and i was 
crushed

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Next Up - Chapter 6:  What's It Gonna Take?

Crushed! (Chapter 5 of LifeLongLove)

This is Chapter 15 of my collection of songs called Flashback.

Simple really. We grow close. We grow up. We grow apart. And, hopefully, grow up again.
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lyrics

little Jackie Brown is the new kid in town 
heading out to his first day of school 
somewhere on the way he meets a boy named Ray 
they're 2 second graders trying to be cool 

though he says he don't care 
Jackie's feeling pretty scared 
'til Ray tells him, "it'll be alright!" 
by the time class ends, Jackie's got a new friend 
had the best day of his life 

but now it's over, it's over 
and he can never go back again 
'cause when it's over, it's over 
he can never go back again 

(tick tock tick tock) 

10 years go by and it's graduation night 
Jack's new adventure is about to begin 
Ray says, "we've been through so much, 
That we can never lose touch..." 
But they never see each other again 

'cause when it's over, it's over 
they can never go back again 
'cause when it's over, it's over 
they can never go back again 

never go back 
they can never go back 
those days together, well they're gone forever 
we can never get 'em back again 

well little Jackie Brown was the new kid in town 
about a million years ago 
now his kids like to say, 
"dad, tell the one about Ray, 
the boy you used to know" 

but now it's over, it's over 
and he can never go back again 
'cause when it's over 
we can never go back again
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credits
living room Garageband demo

Little JackieBrown (Chapter 15 of Flashback)

This is chapter 6 of of my collection of songs: LifeLongLove. 

Setting: The Uptown 2 train, I'm packed in with the other commuters, tourists and oddballs 30 feet underground -- but my head is in the clouds. 

Yeah, we had a great interaction in the record store (Chapter 5 #Crushed) and then . . . radio silence. The next time I saw her it felt like everything had cooled off. She seems so guarded. So many questions I wish I could ask. 
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(i wanna say. . . ) 
hey - what’s it gonna take to win you over? 
hey - what’s it gonna take to get through your defense? 
(i outghta say . . . ) 
hey - how do i get your heart to open? 
what’s it gonna take for you 
to give a guy like me a chance? 

if i climb a jagged mountain 
plant a flag upon its stony peak? 
if i sail a stormy ocean 
make the trip across with lightening speed? 
well would it be enough 
to make you think i’m tough 
how do i crack the code? 
well i just got to know 

hey - what’s it gonna take to win you over? 
hey - what’s it gonna take to get through your defense? 
hey - how do i get your heart to open? 
what’s it gonna take for you 
to give a guy like me a chance? 

should i chisel out a sculpture 
carve a heart of granite just for you? 
do i have to paint a tragic picture 
pour my blood onto the canvas too? 
well would it be enough? 
to make you think i’m tough 
how do i crack the code 
‘cause i’m on overload! 

what’s it gonna take for you 
to give a guy like me a chance?
 
(WOW!  - look who just walked onto this train! i kid you not…OMG!?!)
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Next Up -- Chapter 7:  Somebody

What's It Gonna Take? (Chapter 6 of LifeLongLove)

This is chapter 8 of my collection of songs Flashback. 

Setting: We had been best friends for more than a decade, from the first day of 2nd grade to the night we graduated high school. We were practically inseperable. When we were little kids we used to sneak out at night and meet at Twin Sister Hill. We would lie on our backs for hours and gaze up at the summer sky. But that was a long time ago and things had changed the way they always do.  And now, we were about to head off in different directions. 
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lyrics
by the time that morning comes 
i'll be gone without a trace 
i'm boosting up a rocket 
taking off to outer space 
'cause i've been stuck here in your shadow 
and it's all i've ever known 
it's my turn now to try to make it on my own 

'cause i don't wanna be the guy who keeps hanging on 
when the past dries up and our glory days are gone 
there's nothing you can say 
that's gonna make me change my mind 
i'm heading out into orbit 
i'm gonna leave this all behind 

---so it's goodbye i'm taking off tonight 
---i'm gonna climb into the sky like a satellite 
---goodbye i'll be a tiny speck of light 
---stealing through the night almost out of sight 
---‘cause if you're shooting star then i'm just a satellite 

yeah, we've got so many memories 
both the good ones and the bad 
and i won't forget the past 
and all those crazy dreams we had 
but our picture perfect plans 
didn't turned out like we thought 
and now we both carry scars 
from the battles that we fought 

---so it's goodbye i'm taking off tonight 
---i'm gonna climb into the sky like a satellite 
---goodbye i'll be a tiny speck of light 
---stealing through the night almost out of sight 
---‘cause if you're shooting star then i'm just a satellite 

we can't hold on too tight 
but it’ll be alright 
maybe i'll swing back around 
and see you again, till then... 

---it's goodbye i'm taking off tonight 
---i'm gonna climb into the sky like a satellite 
---goodbye i'll be a tiny speck of light 
---stealing through the night almost out of sight 

goodbye to favorite places 
and all those familiar faces 
it’s my time to fly 
so keep your eyes on the sky 
you might see me passing by 
like a satellite

Satellite (chapter 8 of Flashback)

This is chapter 8 in my collection of songs entitled "LifeLongLove". 

I've met this amazing girl in the record shop (Chapter 5: “Crushed”) and then I ran into her completely by chance on the train (Chapter 7: “Somebody”) where the sparks begin to fly.  We spend a couple of amazing months together running around.  And then . . . 
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so this girl and i give it a try 
and i get to know her 
things are moving fast and we have a blast 
and we’re growing closer 
then outta nowhere she pulls back and hits the brakes 
she says “wait, I need space 
let’s take the pace slower — much slower” 

it’s a twist in the plot - oh 
it’s a bolt from the blue 
it’s the twist in the plot - oh 
from full speed to sudden stop 
what am i gonna do? 

i’m gonna play it cool, don’t wanna be a fool 
and lose my composure 
i say, “okay fine, you can take some time 
time to think things over” 
just when i thought that the romance was getting hot, 
she flip-flopped, the temp dropped 
it got a lot colder — i got her cold shoulder 

it’s the twist in the plot - oh 
it’s a bolt from the blue 
it’s the twist in the plot - oh 
from full speed to sudden stop 
and it all comes as a shock 
what am i gonna do? 

i didn’t see it coming 
i couldn’t see it coming 
i should've seen it coming 
you pull me close then push me away 

it’s a twist in the plot - oh 
it’s a bolt from the blue 
it’s the twist in the plot - oh 
from full speed to sudden stop 
and it all comes as a shock 
you tie a such a tangled knot 
what am i gonna do? 

does this mean we’re through? 
CTRL - Z undo? 
is this the end of me & you?
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Next Up -- Chapter 9:  Twisted Game.  It's all so convoluted.  And the emotions are running MUY CALIENTE.

Twist In The Plot (Chapter 8 of LifeLongLove)

I wrote some songs!  Here are 14 of ‘em. They are my attempt at using guitars and some original high-energy rock music to tell my story . . . one "chapter" at a time.  I sincerely appreciate YOU taking a listen —and please don’t forget to the check out “Behind This Track” button for the lyric’s, stories and other tasty tidbits.  Thanks! - JB, Jan. ‘25
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Where Do I Begin? (Chapter 1 of LifeLongLove)

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