...Lept into darkness
To escape thought
...Or to erase it all
But then awakened
Alarmingly naked
And Lost
Total Insaneness
I thought I had escaped this
...Place where I fought
And sloughed deeply anguished
This is not okay but how do I say this
I've got a lot
to appreciate
...that does not take away 
what I lost
And who I lost and what it cost
It was a lot
And I still see their faces
every day
It's a lot
In every way
And it fills me with pain 
That words don't explain
Since eulogy came
Though mine unattained
Still seeking the rain
Or tender embrace
...A canopy
Not Insanity
It's damaging
Examining
This famishing
Brandishing 
Of death
On a human being
I once knew them musically
...Lets call them Anna Jean
For sanity sake...
While my humanity breaks
But to be honest
I fake it to make it

...Smile placement

Grief (Anna Jean)

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