but you need to. you need to let go

i wonder if this is what death is like

all that crap you hear on tv about communication and expressing feelings is a lie

accept

what does it feel like to be depressed

theres a little voice that js tells you “jump”

i'm so sorry

Flawed Mangoes X Silent Voice

I didn’t choose the cold. Not at first. It crept in slowly, like silence after an argument - unspoken but deafening. The frost doesn’t lie. It strips everything down to the bone. No warmth, no comfort - just what remains when illusion is gone.


There’s a kind of knowing that comes only in the quiet. A clarity that doesn’t shout, doesn’t explain - it just is. But to hold it, I’ve had to let go of so much.

Because every time I come close to someone, I feel it slipping. That delicate thread I’ve followed through the silence begins to unravel in the noise of being known. There’s a part of me that only survives in isolation - a fragile shape that can’t bear the weight of love, or the expectations that come with being seen.

I watch people from a distance and wonder what it would cost to stay. To share space. To let the frost melt, even if just for a while.

But I know the price. I've paid it before. That when you are with someone, you lose something else - something only solitude can give. 

So I remain here, suspended between the need to be held and the need to disappear. I do not ask for answers. Only that the silence keep speaking to me, gently, until I can bear to listen again.

And maybe, one day, I’ll step back into the world. But I will never return the same.

coldlight

I’ll lay back down , cover - The Brudi Brothers

I still come over even though you don't like me
Oh, you got colder
Oh, you despise me
Sometimes it feels like my phone haunts me
Baby, I miss my dog
Paranoid, you're pretend, we're only talking
I found a folder on my computer
Your solo pictures, instead of us together

Oh, to be, or not to be?
Oh, to be, or not to be?
Oh, to be, or not to be?
You don't listen to me
You don't listen to me
You don't listen to me

u make me want to cry real tears

what does it feel like to be depressed

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