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2025-10-31

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would anyone notice if im gone?

lull

asking for a friend

Big Mistake

Feeling very somber this un-sleepable night. Thinking about loved ones lost; Grandpa, Eli, Lexi, Old friends, total strangers. People we've lost from wildfires, earthquakes, disease, and all manner of tragedy; old and new. This song was inspired by all of them and by my hero, Robin Williams. To everyone who has lost someone irreplaceable- though they aren't here physically, their energy, spirit, soul, and memory is never really gone. Take this time to relax and remember. -Jake

Never Really Gone

i don’t have a lot of words
one wrong move and it’s all gone
hold my hand don’t let it go
the choice is yours but there is one thing that i know

if the world ended tonight
i’d be glad ur by my side
if the world went up in flames
in your arms i know i’d be safe

every move we’ll ever make
so many paths that we can take
whether left or right i know
i’ll always carry a piece of ur soul

if the world ended tonight
i’d be glad ur by my side
if the world went up in flames
in your arms i know i’d be safe

*oooohs*

sky is falling all around
people losing track of time
here with you i know i’d find
there’s no where else for you and i
for you and i

if the world ended tonight - jordan suaste

so many expectations now set on me
and i’m not the boy i used to be
you’re so damn lucky 
you’ve got it all now you’ve got money
this is your dream
so you can’t cry aint if funny

how sometimes i miss me
and the boy that i used to be
how sometimes i miss me
and the boy that i used to be

sometimes i miss me - jordan suaste

i always wanted to be the pretty kid
told myself no i can’t eat so just pretend
your voice is too high
you’re the joke so laugh along
and now you’re too thin eat some more 
you’re not enough

no matter what i did they never liked me
i changed the way i looked and tried to hide me
i’m not a perfect fit in this society
but i’m happy with me
i’ve got all i need

i’m not the pretty kid pretty kid
i’m not the pretty kid pretty kid
i’m not the pretty kid
i’m just me

now that i’m older
i’m not as filled with envy
there’s still parts of me i’m learning to embrace
i still struggle with the way i
i view my body
i still have things i wish i wish that i could change

no matter what i do i’ll probably find something
but i’m happy with myself and now i’ve grown
but i’m not a perfect fit in this society
i’m happy with me
and  i’ve got all i need 

i’m not the pretty kid pretty kid
i’m not the pretty kid pretty kid
i’m not the pretty kid
that’s ok with me
i’m not the pretty kid pretty kid
i’m not the pretty kid pretty kid
i’m not the pretty kid
that’s ok with me

You Are Enough

Jacob Rex Ostler

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