songs that are infinitely important to me

soothing

ill always be here

You WILL Cry listen to this all the way through [no pranks]

to recognizing and getting better

subtlety,
i will make
a million of you

trapped inside your body

it’s a cold,
cold,
world

the odder mirror,
who your scream hears


the reflections offer little,
when it’s screened and sheltered
dimmed and darkened

how’s the light here then?

how’s the light caved in?

and
which of you will choose
to waste your time?

you’re one of mine
you’re one of mine
you’re one of mine
you’re one of mine

I will leave the door open for you at night, no matter what is let in

say there is the issue,
when I tell you that I really missed you
let’s put all your doubts aside
I wish I could maybe
catch your eye
even for a little moment
And I’m dying to be noticed
But you don’t want me anyway

you don’t, you don’t, you don’t want me anyway

could you tolerate an offering?
called the operator hollering
strangers in the backyard
drinking in the back you are
shaking in the backyard
breaking both my hands for you

don't want me anyway

dahlia's lucky numbers

left all the writings at home
of all the words that you know
theyll make their way back here
dont ask me how i know
leaves feathered out
complimenting your reflection
distorted all
ebbing eyes unrecognizable
its almost there

feather

ive run out of things to say

6 of 9
~
the train, I made it just for you
one year later, I still don't think that I can do it

turn the light out in the hall
it's been 3 weeks but I'm not sure if I can catch my breath
I think that it's been long enough
only waiting for the woods to stab me in the chest
but how do I walk thru the world without shame
but how do I walk thru the world without shame

I think I hate you
you don't expect me to let go of you
you wanted too much
guess I never wanted anything from you

if you really loved me, you'd want me dead
you wouldn't miss me, you thought I said
I love you too much to do all that
but I'm not the person you think I am
don't think I want a sudden death
but i'd never show you who I am
if you really knew me, put it to rest
if you really knew me, you'd want me dead

Sudden death

guitar by me

in a dream,
someone there with you

through a screen,
somehow i never knew

and the feeling that the sun lost all its love lingers on and on - a memory turned sour

sun rays, clean face,
saying i wish i was her

these days all i can think about is the past

no more time left,
wishing i wouldnt hurt

its no use trying to get it back

january

"to you

talked to you all night over the phone.
we were together, all alone
do you still love miso?
talked to you all night over the phone.
we were together, all alone.
And you cried when you got so drunk
so I listened to you when the brew boils,
and a rude truth is silenced for the night.

Kpop drama queen, at the age of 16 you
got the world ahead of yourself.
always sad, like i couldn't tell.
How's your family? And your little baby brother?
And your mother?
You know I'm happy for you, for making it this far. (x4)"

released on: 26 October 2020

I will leave the door open for you at night, no matter what is let in

jacob travels