cover photo by lauren (@1polaurbear on instagram)

lyrics:

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

I've been feeling lost in my own hometown
the way they talked then aint the same right now
they didnt like me then now they're all so proud
fuck that i dont think that i should stick around 

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

mirror (prod. lee)

produced by eric godlow

lyrics:
she gon tell me "I need you"
I can't believe you 
who you tryna fool? 
dont you know that you're see-through
i think that she knew
stop playing confused
they gon say they love me but i know that its not true

2x

she been waiting for a phone call back
but i dont even bother she gon pick up mad
fuck all that, im in my bag
ima take the first flight and i aint coming back

i dont think that we can figure it out
cuz you believe anything their talking about
but not a thing that comes out my mouth
and i dont get it but fuck you, im out.

i dont think that we should talk anymore
cuz you only hit me up whenever you're bored
i dont like that. i'd rather be all alone
and you hate that cuz you still call my phone

she gon tell me "I need you"
I can't believe you 
who you tryna fool? 
dont you know that you're see-through
i think that she knew
stop playing confused
they gon say they love me but i know that its not true

2x

confused (prod. eric godlow)

produced by xmichaelwarren

lyrics:

Tell me "can you hold on?"
Don't think I can go on
Don't know where I belong
Stuck around for too long
I'm not someone you should lean on
I think you should wean off
Don't know what you needed
I can't fucking keep up
2x

This not the place I want to be
I hate it when you talk to me
I don't need your company
I hate it when you come at me
Can't believe you were a friend to me
Now you turned into my enemy
Cuz you don't know what you meant to me
I don't care what you been telling me
I don't want that many friends in the first place
They gon try to tell me what to do I'll do it my way
I don't fucking listen I don't care what they gotta say
I don't give a fuck if I'm the person that they all hate

She been calling she been asking if I'm coming back
Said she been crying she been tryna keep her heart intact
I'm not the one that she been looking for and it's too bad
I had to leave because I'm scared that I might get attached
I been up for way too long I been losing sleep
There's just so much going on that I've been feeling weak
I don't think I could forget what you said to me
That when I'm not around you said you feel incomplete

Tell me "can you hold on?"
Don't think I can go on
Don't know where I belong
Stuck around for too long
I'm not someone you should lean on
I think you should wean off
Don't know what you needed
I can't fucking keep up
2x

wean off (prod. xmichaelwarren)

produced by toren

lyrics:

I ain't really wanna wake up
Caffeine in my cup to start my day off 
Gas inside my lungs to make me feel like im okay bru
pop another pill instead of blowing all my brains out
the caffeine in my system ain't what's keeping me awake now
i'm done acting like i ever gave a fuck
when i look into the mirror idk who i've become
i just know that when i look you're not a person that i love
im done, lights out, my fingers itching on the gun

wake up (prod. toren)

sorry for the wait 

Lyrics:

Don’t make it complicated
Gotta go do my thing no matter if you hate it but it’s not up for debate now fuck a conversation 
I don’t care. It’s not my fault that you have grown complacent 

but Lately I been wishing it was over
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied
Yeah I been wishing it was over 
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied yeah I been wishing it was 

Shut up, don’t tell me to hold on 
We’ve been stuck here for too long 
How can I tell her to move on?
Bitch get out my crib put your clothes on 
I cannot trust anybody or love anybody like fuck everybody 
I don’t want to talk to that bitch bout her hobbies 
You say that love me but what it’s about me 
I don’t wanna talk it out
You never wanna tell me what the fuck is wrong
You never wanna tell me what’s going on
So I don’t give a fuck about your missing calls 
I don’t even think that we could get along
I don’t like your friends tell em “fuck them all”
Yeah, one last ride and I’m getting off 

cuz Lately I been wishing it was over
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied
Yeah I been wishing it was over 
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied yeah I been wishing it was

complicated

complicated (prod. joshwa)

lyrics:

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

that’s okay

I changed my mind, I don’t need you
You piss me off when I see you
So here’s a little letter dear you
I hope you like being left in the rearview
I’m not better just know that I tried
and if you hate me just know that it’s fine
Cuz I hate me too there’s no need to lie
I couldn’t keep you around I had to leave you behind
So goodbye and farewell
I think I’ll see you again
somewhere down there in hell
I hope you pray for me now
I hope you pray for my health
I know you hate me but I hope you’re wishing me well
I hate you now but I loved you
You say that it’s not true
I put no one above you
Where no one could touch you
It’s true that I loved you
But now it’s just fuck you
I might go and find somebody else just know that it’s not you

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

That’s okay :)

dear you (prod. yelvy)

produced by nvr,frvr.
mixed by @naomisgrave & @jades714

Lyrics:

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

Yeah, I don't care what they want from me
Got me a laptop not a damn degree
It don't mean a fucking damn to me
I get it if you're not a fan of me
I might fucking sell my soul away
for like 10 bands and a place
Tell em im sorry, had to make em wait
I had to a take a mf break
Running on like no damn rest
Give me a second to catch my breath
and I fuck up when I try my best
Put a hole straight through my chest
Say what they want
Let them stare when I walk
Let them listen when I talk
Have em wishing I would fall

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

broke fetish

and we're back

lyrics:

I got nothing left to say to ya
It’s nothing but a game to ya 
There’s no one else to blame but ya 
Cuz no one’s gonna change for ya
2x

Yeah I got nothing for you and I’m tryna be rude but
you’re making it hard for me so fuck you too

Pipe down lemme talk my ish
I been quiet for a minute let me up my shit
Say they hate me but they’re liking all my pics
Oh you’re proud of me now? Shut the fuck up bitch
Yeah, lights out
Don’t wanna talk I’d rather hide out
And I know you don’t wanna talk now
But you’re talking too much you better pipe down
Got nothing left to say
Hold on lemme take that back
I got a few words for you, where the fuck you at?
You wanna runaway? Tell me what the fuck is that
Go and get away that’s the way you always act
So I can’t stay here no more
I’m tired of getting ignored
Like why do we do this for
I’m getting real fucking bored
I’m way too tired for this
I got no damn for the petty shit 
Like can you just take a hint
I think it’s bout damn time that you call it quits

I got nothing left to say to ya
It’s nothing but a game to ya 
There’s no one else to blame but ya 
Cuz no one’s gonna change for ya
2x

nothing left to say (prod. joshwa)

lyrics:

I’m tired of waiting, losing my patience
tired of the same old communication
we just go back and forth with the same shit
you can save your breath for a new conversation 
can you take a hint like I don’t wanna talk no more
I’ve been stressed out enough tryna hold my own
Think I’ll crash right here on the stone cold floor
cuz this place ain’t for me, no it’s not my home
2x

and it feels like nobody loves you and everybody hates you
Is everyone around you tryna change you?
Got no one but yourself, who’s gonna save you?
The person in the mirror really ain’t you
I don’t wanna stay here I don’t wanna go there
It feels like I belong nowhere
You can pretend but I know you don’t care
I tried to play by your rules but it’s not fair
I don’t need you I don’t need them
I just booked a flight I’ll be gone by the weekend
I been tryna get my head straight I’m trippin for no reason
Don’t know what to do I think I’ve fallen off the deep end
Yeah they don’t even care that I’m upset
I’m pissed off, barely getting started I ain’t done yet
I haven’t gone to sleep, I watched the sunrise and sunset
I think I’ll go to sleep soon cuz bitch

I’m tired of waiting, losing my patience
tired of the same old communication
we just go back and forth with the same shit
you can save your breath for a new conversation 
can you take a hint like I don’t wanna talk no more
I’ve been stressed out enough tryna hold my own
Think I’ll crash right here on the stone cold floor
cuz this place ain’t for me, no it’s not my home
2x

crashed (prod. joshwa)

more music otw

lyrics:

oh girl i wish that you knew
that its just always been you
you had me so damn confused
i didnt know what to do
i should be honest with you
knew i was falling for you
spend all my hours with you
you had me calling for you
x2

you had me calling for you
and i just tried to play it cool
but i just look like a fool
and you just came out the blue
just tell me what you want
and ill tell you what i need
you're everything i wanted
its obvious to me
yeah i was stuck in denial
and didnt talk for awhile
can admit to it now
but it was weighing me down
now i cant focus on nothing but you
and i dont care about no one if they aint you
now i cant think straight
you're always in my headspace
im thinkin bout you all day
i hope you're doing okay

you (prod. joshwa)

one more to go

lyrics:
don’t even talk to me
I don’t want your time, don’t want your company
you’re too busy switching sides, it don’t mean nun to me
you’re just so damn suffocating, make it hard to breathe
don’t even talk to me
2x

Just stay quiet don’t say a word
Don’t try to talk to me now cuz you were silent before
And I don’t pick up the phone cuz ima settle the score
You make it complicated, I don’t wanna do this no more
Yeah I been on the same shit but you been on some lame shit
I don’t think you ever gave a fuck so why you changing?
the way you come around now let’s me know you ain’t shit
I don’t think we’ll ever get along and that’s the main thing
You don’t get it, you’re the problem
You can never solve em
How you talkin down on me knowing you’re at the bottom
You’ll do anything to flaunt sum
Bet you thought you got one
You can find me on the top floor, tell em all that I won
I’m never hearing you out
I know you’re hearing me now
You tried to figure me out but now you’re stuck in denial
You weren’t here for awhile but now you’re stressing out
Don’t bother sticking around, don’t ever try to fucking

talk to me
don’t want your time, don’t want your company
you’re too busy switching sides, it don’t mean nun to me
you’re just so damn suffocating, make it hard to breathe
don’t even talk to me
2x

switching sides (prod. joshwa)

lyrics:

I don't give a fuck bout nun
I'm gone in like 3 2 1
To the next place
To the next thing
I don't give a fuck bout them
x2

Yeah, I think you should care less
These people not worth your time or your last breath
Yeah, it don't even make sense
Cuz you care about them but they care bout your damn bread
Toxic, bitch I'm counting money till my hands break
Yeah, I don't give a fuck about a handshake
I know you don't give a fuck about me, that's a fake face
You don't got to say another word, keep the damn change
Yeah, I let the phone ring
Like 3-4 times till I feel like fucking moving
Like who you fooling
You can try to play it cool but I know you're fuming
Yeah, I don't wanna waste my time on something that don't mean nun to me
Yeah, I don't wanna waste my high on someone who's gon take my time and leave
I got to shut off the phone
I got people calling that I don't even know
Now you're talking too much, better lower your tone
Bitch I'm good by myself keep it under control

I don't give a fuck bout nun
I'm gone in like 3 2 1
To the next place
To the next thing
I don't give a fuck bout them
x2

apathetic (prod. okayjml)

produced by vercettiprada

lyrics: 

only call me when you need sum
I’m not returning a call bitch I never need them
I said fuck em only need me and my money
I don’t need a threesome
you busy hatin on the net, I don’t think you bitches ever been loved

I done made bout 50 bands chillin in my bedroom
Plan on making 50 more chillin in the same room
I know that’s something you can’t do
Honestly baby I can’t lose
I know I said that before but now it’s sum I can prove

tell me where the fuck you at
where the fuck you been
tell me what’s the word
told me chase that fucking bag
Put in that work
And the world is yours
Told you that I never lack 
But I fucking did 
Bag up on the floor 
Yk imma bring it back
Stuff it in my bag
Bring it back home

call failed

back in business

produced by elavy

lyrics: 

tell me what you think about when you're laying in bed
tell me all the things you ever wish you could've said
tell me everything you'd like to do before you're dead
tell me that instead
tell me your regrets

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me what you want
what would you do for it?
something that you lost but now you're used to it
no matter the cost
just tell me what it is
get anything you want, if you got life to give
I'm stuck and I can't get out
can't remember my way in now
the ceilings caving down
can't remember when I last heard a sound
too late for saving now but I'd rather swim than drown
my heart is pacing now
be quick cuz I'm fading out

tell me would you self yourself for some cash flow
a little dinero, you don't gotta say no
you want it, just say so
no need to aim low
don't worry bout a halo baby
you're not an angel

tell me your regrets
don't hold 'em back
tell me what you wish you said
no strings attached
searching for something you need, something you lack
I think I understand why you still can't relax

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me your regrets

I would fuck up my life for some money and change, for some rings and some chains
for some people to “love” me and scream out my name til it drives me insane
oh to be a somebody with numbers and fame, would it be such a shame
now if that’s what I wanted would I be to blame

go and get it uh
go and get everything you want
go and get everything you ever needed
everything you been conceding

you don’t gotta hide ur greed
you know ur secret is safe with me
you don’t gotta lie to me
rather have money than company

that’s what I tell myself
blame it on someone else
anybody but you cuz it’s racks over mental health

only care bout ur wealth
sick in the head doesn’t matter if you have some bread
just fill up ur pockets with money fuck over ur friends
you said that’s what you wanted you filled up ur wallet and left with a feeling of dread

greed

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

produced by thom 

I’m sick but thanks for 5K 



lyrics:

and I’m not stuckk like when I started
got away from that apartment
used my pain to line my pockets
now they’re gone and no one’s watching me

just wanna know if you’re proud of me
but I know I’ll never get that
just wanna hear that you’re proud of me

you know I will always try my best
I’m doing more when I feel like less
there’s so much that I wish I said
but you’re not here now

I still don’t like to cry now
don’t like to cry now

and I’m not stuckk like when I started
got away from that apartment
used my pain to line my pockets
now they’re gone and no one’s watching me

just wanna know if you’re proud of me

are you proud of me?

excuse my absence, i went on a side mission
produced by c m b


lyrics:

yea
gotta keep it grounded
grateful I’m not in an office
dropped out without a plan
sold a fuckin grant
I ain’t want an option
momma said put that brain to use
momma I ain’t got a brain to lose
not even a single tightened screw 
promise I can make a way for you
a way for us
a way for me
a way for them
never betray a single friend
a proper way to make a cent 
refrain from losing all ur sense

they’re tempting waving around 
dollar signs and big amounts
a lot shit I’ve dreamt about
I’d take the bait but I’m too proud
I’m ego driven, egotistic 
treat me like I’m someone gifted
like a finger of mine was never lifted
I put in my hours, you never listen
I don’t really do shit
I wake up and make a lil music
I got up and got me some muscle
don’t matter if I cannot use it
my body still weak as hell
my mind is weak as ever
knowing that I’m weak as fuck 
and beaten up
I got what I wanted, it ain’t enough
I’m-

thinking bout it
thinking bout it all


gotta keep it grounded
grateful I’m not in an office
dropped out without a plan
sold a fuckin grant
I ain’t want an option
what if I put my brain to use
what if I was too scared to lose
luckily I’m delusional 
and promised I could make a way for you
a way for us
a way for me
a way for them
never betray a single friend
a proper way to make a cent 
refrain from losing all ur sense

I remember as a little kid
I wanted to be famous or something
obviously that never happened

word vomit

joooooooooooo
warm up 

produced by jayc

lyrics: 

lately I’m on autopilot 
walk in saks and I spend like 5
I’m VA till the day I die
I don’t even talk to my blood no more
me and my bros to the gawdamn gold
me and my bros till the end on soul 
ain’t no bag that I gawdamn sold

they tryna fly me to LA to NYC
I ain’t ever leaving the raq
half a mil in my pocket no brag
indie money, I’ll pay for my tab 
pretty girl like my vocals
that pretty bitch get no photos
I ain’t fuckin that bitch on camera
I can’t trust that hoe, not loyal
ain’t no soul that could take my swag
big crow wings on my gawdamn back
me and my boys in the paint like shaq
if u dick ride better suck my sack

autopilot

more music otw
produced by tiresss

lyrics:

we don't gotta talk at all 
we can stay as quiet as you need 
can you show me that it mean sum? 
show me that it mean sum 
love you so bad I wanna be ya 
can you show me that I mean sum? 
show me that I mean sum to ya 
to ya to ya to ya‬
‪
I've been busy tryna show you everything I got everything l'm made of, everything I'm not‬
‪and if it's too much for you 
I'll turn it down a notch‬
‪or get up and shut it off‬
‪I might just throw it all away for you

if I did it, everything I’ve done don’t matter 
why would I throw something served on a silver platter?
they brought it straight to me
you wish you had it
and I’m too afraid of cameras
lights flash and I’m a phantom
don’t treat me like a star I’m just a fan of em
there’s a million just like me to be a fan of

don’t take it like I’m bragging
bitch I made it happen 
six figs on the tax, trap money off a passion
pockets got me saggin
full of trauma, baggage
vocal sound addict
two name manic

and I’ll see you when I see you
I hope it pan out
and I hope you never fan out 
I did everything I said I’d do
Can’t no one say I depend on you

and you know I know
your every word breaks my bones
can you talk to me until my skin runs cold
just to see ya, sleep with one eye closed 

we don't gotta talk at all 
we can stay as quiet as you need 
can you show me that it mean sum? 
show me that it mean sum 
love you so bad I wanna be ya 
can you show me that I mean sum? 
show me that I mean sum to ya 
to ya to ya to ya‬
‪

we don't gotta

happy new year
fun song for soundcloud
don’t got it in me to clean up the mix
enjoy

produced by tiresss

lyrics:

think it’s better if we keep it private
if it’s way too much, we don’t gotta
I don’t mean to cause a stir or a problem
if a bitch mad, I don’t even bother
we don’t gotta slut out, keep it proper
fake love and the hoes get wilder
too grown for a gawdamn roster
too young to make more than a doctor
making more money and I just can’t count it
told the label that you can’t just buy it
if you wanna check me, come try it
imma need a damn duffel for a wallet
they done hit me with a “I’m so proud”
so quiet but your name so loud
still don’t feel like I really made it
but I can say I never sold out for nun
still tryna make me feel bad for what
if we go our own ways, it ain’t bad for us
they done told me grow up now they sad for nun
you can tell me you won’t lie, there’s no man I trust
I can’t put my faith in you either
got a problem wit it, put me on a t-shirt
boy i got it as the main not a feature
if ur tryna take the swag, just take it
like who the fuck am I without brakence?
take my own lines and my cadence
you ain’t gotta hide, embrace it
lay it all, leave it on the pavement
build a penthouse from a basement
you can build an empire with some patience
you just gotta find a way to face it
think it’s better if we keep it private
if it’s way too much, we don’t gotta
I don’t mean to cause a stir or a problem
if a bitch mad, I don’t even bother
keep it real hush, keep it quiet
keep it on mute, keep it silent
we don’t gotta tell a soul, keep it private

private freestyle

lazy song


I don’t wanna talk no more. I’m out the door
All these conversations got me fucking bored 
I can never feel thing I’ve lost my soul
I cannot stay no more I’m out this hoe
2x

Knowing that I try best and doesn’t show 
Nothing about this is motivational
I was going up but felt like I just froze 
But I keep it going cuz I can’t let it go

I don’t get it 
Always showing me so much affection
I don’t understand why give me so much attention 
Checking up on me why you always so damn attentive 
Why you do it when you don’t have incentive 

I don’t wanna talk no more
Not picking up the calls no more 
No idea why I do this for
I just do it cuz I’m fucking bored 
2x

I don’t wanna talk no more. I’m out the door
All these conversations got me fucking bored 
I can never feel thing I’ve lost my soul
I cannot stay no more I’m out this hoe

2x

talknomore (prod. eric godlow)

shoutout eric godlow


So stuck, so stuck  I could barely move
And my heads mess I’m just so confused 
I’m a loser yet i hate to lose
I’m just trippin like I forgot to my shoes
2x


Thought I had it was all in head
I go up and I’m crash it’s so sad
Don’t have shit I don’t have nothing left
I’m not worth it don’t waste your breath
Stay up and I rip myself apart 
All the lies I tell tearing at my heart 
Can you stay and just watch as I fall apart
Passed out on the floor it’s work of art 

It’s a work of art
I’m stuck, don’t think I’ll be going far
I’m sick and I’m puking in the fucking car
And I’m trying to get better don’t know where to start
In the back I’m with Godlow
Feel like shit cuz I’m empty and hollow
And “I do what I want” that’s my motto
So stuck, so fucked on the down low

So stuck, so stuck  I could barely move
And my heads mess I’m just so confused 
I’m a loser yet i hate to lose
I’m just trippin like I forgot to my shoes
2x

stuckk (prod. eric godlow)

show love to @angryapple shoutout julian and ponch.


do this, do that, boy you’re testing my patience 
same old questions are so irritating 
bored out my mind got me down like a basement
my head is spinning, don’t think I can take this 

can’t take this much longer, always a bother
don’t wanna talk so you know I won’t call her 
no new friends, no new friends
lonely fucker til the end
I won’t be hurt no more, not again
keep my circle small as I fucking can 

I’m really fucking stressed right now, I can’t relax
Life is hitting like a truck, it hurts so bad 
Ain’t no way I’m slowing down, I’m going fast
cuz I was gone way too long and now I’m back
 

do this, do that, boy you’re testing my patience 
same old questions are so irritating 
bored out my mind got me down like a basement
my head is spinning, don’t think I can take this

cant relax (prod. angry apple)

lyrics:

*moaning intro*

if you keep asking, I’ll keep saying I’m okay 
I have no reason to be doing what you say bruh
do what I want and I’ll just worry bout you later 
Focused on myself and now she’s thinking that I hate her
Just give me time and I will get us outta here
I need your help cuz in my head there’s only doubt I hear
I keep it pushing it don’t matter how bad I feel
Cuz I don’t think I could take this for another year


Wish that I could give you the world, I hate this
Gotta get outta here, I can’t take this
Waiting for my time to come, I’ve been patient
I’ll keep it moving til I end up on your playlist


if you keep asking, I’ll keep saying I’m okay 
I have no reason to be doing what you say bruh
do what I want and I’ll just worry bout you later 
Focused on myself and now she’s thinking that I hate her
Just give me time and I will get us outta here
I need your help cuz in my head there’s only doubt I hear
I keep it pushing it don’t matter how bad I feel
Cuz I don’t think I could take this for another year

meantime (prod. lil biscuit & dxnny fxntom)

be nice to speckles

lyrics:

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
2x

All this talkin “dontcare”
I was “stuckk” n stressed pullin out my damn hair
“blah blah blah” they like to talk when I’m not there 
I don’t “talknomore” but if I do bet it’s so rare
Stranger “danger!” Idk her she’s a hater hater
So damn “empty!” Have no anger anger
“Can’t relax”, I’ll do that later later

I don’t like to talk cuz it’s always some fuck shit
I’m in my mode got no time for discussions
Stressed out til my body can’t function
I’m tryna focus stop causing disruptions 

I do not care what they say about me
Cuz they watch how I move cuz I’m smooth on my feet
And they hate and they hate they can’t do it like me
So sad cuz you just can’t compete

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush

speckles (prod. eric godlow)

brought to you by some cool cats and the vanishing act

Lyrics:

In my bed I’m wasting time and shit (oh my)
At my desk, I’m fucking tired as shit
And I’m so confused I want this shit to click
And I’m under pressure I can’t fold for shit

And I’m been running running running circles all through my head
Overthinking always gets me upset
Hypercritical it’s tough to accept
Pour my heart out onto lyrics cuz it’s all I have left

I’m so confused so confused
They Say I’ll be star somewhere by the moon 
Saying that I’ll make it, it’s too fucking soon
Just know I’m so afraid to fucking lose

Fucked up worried bout the little things
But I’m too smooth like I’m 7 with the strings
And you Hate my music but I’ll sure make you sing
Ima Rockstar with a hand full of rings on me

I don’t get I don’t get it I don’t get it all
They keep sayin I’ll go up but I feel like I’ll fall
Every time they say my name it’s some cool shit
I can’t help it thinkin it’s just some bullshit

In my bed I’m wasting time and shit (oh my)
At my desk, I’m fucking tired as shit
And I’m so confused I want this shit to click
And I’m under pressure I can’t fold for shit

And I’m been running running running circles all through my head
Overthinking always gets me upset
Hypercritical it’s tough to accept
Pour my heart out onto lyrics cuz it’s all I have left

wasting time (prod. cmb)

enjoy
i know the mix is awful but oh well
the worst one yet

lyrics:


I know that I’m not okay, I’ve been better
And I still smell your scent on my sweater
And I can barely keep myself together
But it’s okay I had no plans of being here forever 

Don’t think I have much time left so I won’t be here too long
I know you hope that I’m wrong

It’s the same old me with a new list of problems 
And I’m stressed out tryna find how to solve em
I go up and I fall like the leaves in the autumn
And it’s getting to my head and that’s not very awesome

I wish I could see myself through your eyes
Cuz when you talk bout me you make me seem like I’m a great guy
So I can’t help but think that they’re all lies 
But I’m tryna get better so I can think otherwise 

It’s the same old me with a new list of problems 
And I’m stressed out tryna find how to solve em
I go up and I fall like the leaves in the autumn
And it’s getting to my head and that’s not very awesome

I know that I’m not okay, I’ve been better
And I still smell your scent on my sweater
And I can barely keep myself together
But it’s okay I had no plans of being here forever

okay (prod. ripfxsh)

sorry not sorry. exiting 2020 entering 2021

thanks for a great year!


Q and Ponch on the intro.
kenna (@kenaede_) and jades on the outro


lyrics:

*a conversation about nuts needing strangulation and snapple*

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

I fucking hate this place 
Get me out get me out I have no reason to stay
I have some old friends who gon say that I changed 
But they waited til now to even mention my name at all
So fuck them And I don’t care what they think
It’s a shame. it’s their loss that they ain’t like me until now
But it doesn’t matter I don’t think I need them around anymore

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

This is my perfect victory, that’s right I win

sns (prod. idly blare)

lyrics:

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed 
2x

I don’t hit up my friends cuz I don’t wanna be rude
They got their own shit that their going through
so I’ll just play some music and buss a lil move 
It’s 4 am I’ll just dance in my room

[skit by jades]

Idk what to do anymore 
Might as well be dead on the floor
But I’ll settle the score
I’m not letting you win that’s for sure 

[skit by jades]

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed

jades

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