wait what. this got so much attraction randomly

I played this in front of a girl an she said she feels bad for me is that a good thing?

prod. eric godlow

cover photo by lauren (@1polaurbear on instagram)

lyrics:

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

I've been feeling lost in my own hometown
the way they talked then aint the same right now
they didnt like me then now they're all so proud
fuck that i dont think that i should stick around 

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

mirror (prod. lee)

produced by eric godlow

lyrics:
she gon tell me "I need you"
I can't believe you 
who you tryna fool? 
dont you know that you're see-through
i think that she knew
stop playing confused
they gon say they love me but i know that its not true

2x

she been waiting for a phone call back
but i dont even bother she gon pick up mad
fuck all that, im in my bag
ima take the first flight and i aint coming back

i dont think that we can figure it out
cuz you believe anything their talking about
but not a thing that comes out my mouth
and i dont get it but fuck you, im out.

i dont think that we should talk anymore
cuz you only hit me up whenever you're bored
i dont like that. i'd rather be all alone
and you hate that cuz you still call my phone

she gon tell me "I need you"
I can't believe you 
who you tryna fool? 
dont you know that you're see-through
i think that she knew
stop playing confused
they gon say they love me but i know that its not true

2x

confused (prod. eric godlow)

lyrics:

I forgot the way about 10 miles ago
Ive heard to use the stars to help and walk me home
But Its hard to see anything aside from the moon
She said Its never been the same since the town lost u
The storm hit hard way harder than most
U shouldve been inside when it got that close
I pass thru the rubble heaps and I call to a ghost
Fear can get the best of us but pride will take a soul
I fly thru the sky for 10 seconds at most
And I thought to use the gust to try and drop me home
And I tried to use the wind but found the telephone posts
I felt The clips pops thru me out the back of my throat

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

The clouds look fake again
But what’s wrong with u
Its still poison that drips down
That’s what they’re telling you
So what ur telling me
Is that its you vs everyone else
I think u think too much
I know I do it too
And it forced my to change shells
And I wish we didn’t have these fucking arguments
But we dont talk to anyone else
She said I know
What u dont
She said I could tell u
But u should know its brutal
Well fuck it then I dont need anymore trouble than I got
A quarter way is a long way when ur looking back at the drop
There’s nothing better than a friday except a Friday u forgot
Even when its just my place I feel a strong urge to get crossed
The night had always looked beautiful but this time its just so strong
Even after the worst of it im still happier than I thought

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

the stars came crashing down
as i wait for you in this dirt road town and i
cannot make this up if i wanted to
i’m just lashing out at life
i can’t let go
it’s a lil bit harder now
you taste like him
i’m a lil on fire now

light speed into the fray ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

lyrics:

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

that’s okay

I changed my mind, I don’t need you
You piss me off when I see you
So here’s a little letter dear you
I hope you like being left in the rearview
I’m not better just know that I tried
and if you hate me just know that it’s fine
Cuz I hate me too there’s no need to lie
I couldn’t keep you around I had to leave you behind
So goodbye and farewell
I think I’ll see you again
somewhere down there in hell
I hope you pray for me now
I hope you pray for my health
I know you hate me but I hope you’re wishing me well
I hate you now but I loved you
You say that it’s not true
I put no one above you
Where no one could touch you
It’s true that I loved you
But now it’s just fuck you
I might go and find somebody else just know that it’s not you

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

That’s okay :)

dear you (prod. yelvy)

produced by nvr,frvr.
mixed by @naomisgrave & @jades714

Lyrics:

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

Yeah, I don't care what they want from me
Got me a laptop not a damn degree
It don't mean a fucking damn to me
I get it if you're not a fan of me
I might fucking sell my soul away
for like 10 bands and a place
Tell em im sorry, had to make em wait
I had to a take a mf break
Running on like no damn rest
Give me a second to catch my breath
and I fuck up when I try my best
Put a hole straight through my chest
Say what they want
Let them stare when I walk
Let them listen when I talk
Have em wishing I would fall

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

broke fetish

more music otw

lyrics:

oh girl i wish that you knew
that its just always been you
you had me so damn confused
i didnt know what to do
i should be honest with you
knew i was falling for you
spend all my hours with you
you had me calling for you
x2

you had me calling for you
and i just tried to play it cool
but i just look like a fool
and you just came out the blue
just tell me what you want
and ill tell you what i need
you're everything i wanted
its obvious to me
yeah i was stuck in denial
and didnt talk for awhile
can admit to it now
but it was weighing me down
now i cant focus on nothing but you
and i dont care about no one if they aint you
now i cant think straight
you're always in my headspace
im thinkin bout you all day
i hope you're doing okay

you (prod. joshwa)

i like this one

produced by eric godlow
https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow

Listen on Spotify!

@rxseboy x @ericgodlow - hypothetical love

lyrics:

im sober
soon ill be falling over
shawty im five leaf
baby u should do ur homework
all of my bone hurt
im cold
and my throat burns
i know
i know lately i been hard to find
i see you once like every weekend please dont use this time 
to fight
i put on my forces and i walk into the night
pink diamonds in my blunt its like my body flying kites
i see the village from the mountains looking down like what a site
gods ascend from clouds and then were saved or left to die
i guess no one understands me
i fill myself schedule to hide to pain of feeling empty
i got demons on my shoulders sweating buckets tryna tempt me
but they cant get through
in my experience on earth at least ive dealt with more than plenty

it happens every time
it snows
i just wanna get it right
i think i might mold to my home
and im happy with the life
but when im dead
will i know
im excited for the ride
touch my hands and theyre ice cold
im excited for the ride

icy
baby are u human had to tell her that i might be
least when she found out she couldnt tell me i was lying
if i told you everything ud look at me like mind freak
half way cross the universe the fuckers wanna fight me
i just push my pedal down and pull it up
i fold up my landing gear and drop the clutch
baby im from 20 fucking  million miles away 
and you aint even thanking me for showing up

im sober
soon ill be falling over
shawty im five leaf
baby u should do ur homework
all of my bone hurt
im cold
and my throat burns
i know
i know lately i been hard to find
i see you once like every weekend please dont use this time 
to fight

im sober
soon ill be falling over
shawty im five leaf
baby u should do ur homework
all of my bone hurt
im cold
and my throat burns
i know
i know lately i been hard to find
i see you once like every weekend please dont use this time 
to fight

folk song from the settlement on the edge of the earth (eric godlow)

lyrics:

if this is how it ends
well im glad you were part of it
this was all inside my head before
i even started it
you made it to the end and i appreciate the tolerance
really im my brain inside my head and that is it
these holograms around me somehow willing me to live
and i know i cant touch u i mean really really touch you
on atomic level shit but thats not how were meant to fit
if you look at people walking everybody moves the same
perfect mess of flesh and bone equipped with total mental reign
when you think about it really only difference is the brain
so thats why im looking thru you when im talking to ur face
please dont be scared
theres nothing for me to think about
its over now
im sober now
i power down

catching up cuz she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when you go out
cause when i fall asleep youre the one i dream bout
brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak now you busy to go out
threw my dreams out all i do is seep now

its over.  you can go home (eric godlow)

shoutout eric godlow


So stuck, so stuck  I could barely move
And my heads mess I’m just so confused 
I’m a loser yet i hate to lose
I’m just trippin like I forgot to my shoes
2x


Thought I had it was all in head
I go up and I’m crash it’s so sad
Don’t have shit I don’t have nothing left
I’m not worth it don’t waste your breath
Stay up and I rip myself apart 
All the lies I tell tearing at my heart 
Can you stay and just watch as I fall apart
Passed out on the floor it’s work of art 

It’s a work of art
I’m stuck, don’t think I’ll be going far
I’m sick and I’m puking in the fucking car
And I’m trying to get better don’t know where to start
In the back I’m with Godlow
Feel like shit cuz I’m empty and hollow
And “I do what I want” that’s my motto
So stuck, so fucked on the down low

So stuck, so stuck  I could barely move
And my heads mess I’m just so confused 
I’m a loser yet i hate to lose
I’m just trippin like I forgot to my shoes
2x

stuckk (prod. eric godlow)

show love to @angryapple shoutout julian and ponch.


do this, do that, boy you’re testing my patience 
same old questions are so irritating 
bored out my mind got me down like a basement
my head is spinning, don’t think I can take this 

can’t take this much longer, always a bother
don’t wanna talk so you know I won’t call her 
no new friends, no new friends
lonely fucker til the end
I won’t be hurt no more, not again
keep my circle small as I fucking can 

I’m really fucking stressed right now, I can’t relax
Life is hitting like a truck, it hurts so bad 
Ain’t no way I’m slowing down, I’m going fast
cuz I was gone way too long and now I’m back
 

do this, do that, boy you’re testing my patience 
same old questions are so irritating 
bored out my mind got me down like a basement
my head is spinning, don’t think I can take this

cant relax (prod. angry apple)

lyrics:

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

i just gotta let you know
im not here to take u home
woke up two calls on my phone
wish that they would leave me alone
but they never do
they never do that
i wish i
i could do that
i just cant let you go
hop out the sewer and take u home

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

pines break through the memories
late nights were her remedy
cold words thru her sharpened teeth
create deep wounds you imbed in me  
throwing heads in the wishing well
when shes this mad she could boil hell
i thought we would go together
but i guess i could go fuck myself
theres a time and a place
but she has no problem doing it here
he has his hands on top her waist
in the photos she cant share
and its truly a shame
i thought we could make it through the year at least
but this game you been playing is killing me
and im too low on energy

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

one time for old times ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

be nice to speckles

lyrics:

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
2x

All this talkin “dontcare”
I was “stuckk” n stressed pullin out my damn hair
“blah blah blah” they like to talk when I’m not there 
I don’t “talknomore” but if I do bet it’s so rare
Stranger “danger!” Idk her she’s a hater hater
So damn “empty!” Have no anger anger
“Can’t relax”, I’ll do that later later

I don’t like to talk cuz it’s always some fuck shit
I’m in my mode got no time for discussions
Stressed out til my body can’t function
I’m tryna focus stop causing disruptions 

I do not care what they say about me
Cuz they watch how I move cuz I’m smooth on my feet
And they hate and they hate they can’t do it like me
So sad cuz you just can’t compete

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush

speckles (prod. eric godlow)

enjoy
i know the mix is awful but oh well
the worst one yet

lyrics:


I know that I’m not okay, I’ve been better
And I still smell your scent on my sweater
And I can barely keep myself together
But it’s okay I had no plans of being here forever 

Don’t think I have much time left so I won’t be here too long
I know you hope that I’m wrong

It’s the same old me with a new list of problems 
And I’m stressed out tryna find how to solve em
I go up and I fall like the leaves in the autumn
And it’s getting to my head and that’s not very awesome

I wish I could see myself through your eyes
Cuz when you talk bout me you make me seem like I’m a great guy
So I can’t help but think that they’re all lies 
But I’m tryna get better so I can think otherwise 

It’s the same old me with a new list of problems 
And I’m stressed out tryna find how to solve em
I go up and I fall like the leaves in the autumn
And it’s getting to my head and that’s not very awesome

I know that I’m not okay, I’ve been better
And I still smell your scent on my sweater
And I can barely keep myself together
But it’s okay I had no plans of being here forever

okay (prod. ripfxsh)

sorry not sorry. exiting 2020 entering 2021

thanks for a great year!


Q and Ponch on the intro.
kenna (@kenaede_) and jades on the outro


lyrics:

*a conversation about nuts needing strangulation and snapple*

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

I fucking hate this place 
Get me out get me out I have no reason to stay
I have some old friends who gon say that I changed 
But they waited til now to even mention my name at all
So fuck them And I don’t care what they think
It’s a shame. it’s their loss that they ain’t like me until now
But it doesn’t matter I don’t think I need them around anymore

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

This is my perfect victory, that’s right I win

sns (prod. idly blare)

lyrics:

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed 
2x

I don’t hit up my friends cuz I don’t wanna be rude
They got their own shit that their going through
so I’ll just play some music and buss a lil move 
It’s 4 am I’ll just dance in my room

[skit by jades]

Idk what to do anymore 
Might as well be dead on the floor
But I’ll settle the score
I’m not letting you win that’s for sure 

[skit by jades]

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed

blame (prod. sunlight)

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Don't forget to give credit (prod. Eric Godlow)


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confused (prod. eric godlow)

jades

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