Take my thoughts straight from my guts and make them a poem

69 comments now I gotta add a celebratory nuhh to the collection on my wall 😼

lowkey nice to see people actually on sound cloud but (i make this 73 comment)

the fact that this is otuka and worm at the same time 🥹🥹

never enough

lyrics:

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

tryna open the doors, can’t find an escape
maybe it’s karma or maybe it’s fate
start to think I’m the problem and I shoulda changed
i wanted things and I got them but I’m still the same
I wanted to be someone you could depend on
Someone to be there when you need a hand or something else
A shoulder to cry on when you’re not well
I wanted to be that, can you believe that?
After everything I’ve done
But I could never be that, am I dumb?
I been shooting for the moon,stars,and the sun

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

potent

same song, new pitch, some new vocals, slightly better mix. enjoy <3 

lyrics: 
maybe im never enough
i'm sick and tired of fucking it up
tryna put it together, it's not adding up
talking a lot but you can't back it up
act like you care but it's not holding up
it's getting harder, i cant open up
tried over and over to show you my love
it's too bad that we dont give a fuck at all
x2

don't call me at 3 AM in the morning
do not disturb, it's been getting annoying
you say that you care but it's not really showing
cant take it no more that's why I've been ignoring your calls
its cool if you don't care at all
but why try to talk when you know that i'm tryna move on from you
like what's wrong with you?

we just go up and down and back and forth
i've been looking left and right and nothing works
i don't wanna talk cuz ill just make it worse
ill just keep acting like it doesn't hurt
there's too much in my head i gotta figure out
i've been on my own for a minute now
you cannot stay, i gotta kick you out
i cannot wait until i finish now

maybe im never enough
im sick and tired of fucking it up
tryna put it together but its not adding up
talking a lot but you can't back it up
act like you care but it's not holding up
it's getting harder, i cant open up
tried over and over to show you my love
its too bad that we dont give a fuck at all
x2

never enough (2023)

produced by guda & JibaoRockin

lyrics: 
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes, eyes

i know you see me
you cant deceive me
you act like it's easy
to throw me away to rot

i know you see me
i know that
just open your eyes
just open up your eyes

you're not blind you're not deaf
i know you see and hear me well
you choose not to hear me
i feel i need to yell
and you say that it's love
but i'm not sure if you mean well
til death do us part
i guess i'll see your ass in hell
i'll see you then
i don't know when
just open your eyes
and you'll see me again
i'm neither foe or a friend
it's only us in the end
wish you could see through my lens
won't you just

open your eyes (just open up)
open your eyes (can you see me?)
open your eyes(just open up)
open your eyes, eyes (can you see me?)

ah

open your eyes

back in business

produced by elavy

lyrics: 

tell me what you think about when you're laying in bed
tell me all the things you ever wish you could've said
tell me everything you'd like to do before you're dead
tell me that instead
tell me your regrets

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me what you want
what would you do for it?
something that you lost but now you're used to it
no matter the cost
just tell me what it is
get anything you want, if you got life to give
I'm stuck and I can't get out
can't remember my way in now
the ceilings caving down
can't remember when I last heard a sound
too late for saving now but I'd rather swim than drown
my heart is pacing now
be quick cuz I'm fading out

tell me would you self yourself for some cash flow
a little dinero, you don't gotta say no
you want it, just say so
no need to aim low
don't worry bout a halo baby
you're not an angel

tell me your regrets
don't hold 'em back
tell me what you wish you said
no strings attached
searching for something you need, something you lack
I think I understand why you still can't relax

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me your regrets

sorry for being gone so long im gonna try to be more 
active.

i cant see a way to stop this

moving out the ways an option

i cant seem to brace the nonsense

im not here im barely conscious 

make me feel alive im honest-

ly just terrified of losses 

i cant feel the way i wanted

im just building blue up on it

bleedin out

i cant see for now

its all going down but then u come around

gonna drown feel like im gonna drown

but then you pull me out u pull me out

im not going alone

id rather smash up my phone

the only contact i know

is just sitting at home

if you’re not feeling to go

baby then we just wont go

the real feeling of home

its us together alone

blue (mila moon)

bones. w/ jelex (f. jades)

lyrics:

Rot in your bed with me
Keep me company
Be my symphony
Can you?

You got me stuck on you
You got me stuck on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me tied up
I can't say it or it's up for me
Don't hit my phone up
Your attention's like a drug to me
If it ain't with me then I wish you pain and suffering
I give a fuck
But ima act like you mean nun to me

You don't like to talk it out
But you want communication
Can you make it make sense for me?
I try, but you know that it's killin' me

I want your love and your lust
I want your pain and your trust
I need your scent and your touch
I'm never getting enough of you

You got me stuck on you uh
You got me stuck on you uh

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

I'm just procrastinating

stuckk on you

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

produced by redmosk

lyrics:

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

I’d put my pride down
Set it aside now
And fantasize bout 
how it would be better if I said the way I felt
Instead of something else
I’ll tell you everything until I’m nothing but a shell of myself
Cuz I’m nothing without my thoughts
All the things that cause my brain to rot
I can’t help it
I feel helpless
I hate that I felt this way and there’s me to blame

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

pride

short outro

lyrics:

Even if it takes a little while
Learned from my mistakes to make you smile
Doing everything to make you proud

I just want to stand right by your side
Watch our hands slowly intertwine 
Let your life turn into mine
Until we’re one and our souls align

even if it takes awhile

song is by otuka, he just deleted it so i reuploaded it 😈

Lyrics:

(I'm just procrastinating)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

Do you hear me, my dear?
I'm calling for you
I'll give up my fear, and step away from my room
Step away my safe place, my comfort is you
My heart's not in the same place when it comes to you
(When it comes to you)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

darling

otuka - darling

raw vocals
guitar by michael harrison

I’m so afraid right now
feel like I’m close to the end somehow
thought I was just getting started
and now I’m stuck in my tracks

I’m scared that it’s all for nothing
I’ll lose it all in a blink of an eye
I devoted my life for this and I’d die for it

and I’d die for it
I’d die for it
would you die for it?

it feels like it’s all coming after me
they got my life on a stopwatch
feels like my own brain is after me
who even needs enemies
when you got urself straight torturing
put myself in a minefield
can’t even win when it’s my field
I’m losing a home game
how am I losing a home game?

home game

throwaway

I’ve turned through every page in the book
still don’t know if I shouldn’t or I should
cuz you taste so bittersweet 
it’s like it shouldn’t have been me
but I can’t lie to you, it feels so good

feel like I should’ve known better
is this everything I wanted?
cuz I got it but I wish that i could-

take a u-turn, let it crumble
watch it burn down into rubble 
hoping that you go and find another one of me 

bitch I wish you would
but you prolly could
(oh why?)

wish u would

2/3 Tracks from DHBK demo album, now available on BANDCAMP

self destruct

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