this is my perfect victory, thats right i win

sorry for the wait 

Lyrics:

Don’t make it complicated
Gotta go do my thing no matter if you hate it but it’s not up for debate now fuck a conversation 
I don’t care. It’s not my fault that you have grown complacent 

but Lately I been wishing it was over
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied
Yeah I been wishing it was over 
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied yeah I been wishing it was 

Shut up, don’t tell me to hold on 
We’ve been stuck here for too long 
How can I tell her to move on?
Bitch get out my crib put your clothes on 
I cannot trust anybody or love anybody like fuck everybody 
I don’t want to talk to that bitch bout her hobbies 
You say that love me but what it’s about me 
I don’t wanna talk it out
You never wanna tell me what the fuck is wrong
You never wanna tell me what’s going on
So I don’t give a fuck about your missing calls 
I don’t even think that we could get along
I don’t like your friends tell em “fuck them all”
Yeah, one last ride and I’m getting off 

cuz Lately I been wishing it was over
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied
Yeah I been wishing it was over 
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied yeah I been wishing it was

complicated

complicated (prod. joshwa)

lyrics:

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

that’s okay

I changed my mind, I don’t need you
You piss me off when I see you
So here’s a little letter dear you
I hope you like being left in the rearview
I’m not better just know that I tried
and if you hate me just know that it’s fine
Cuz I hate me too there’s no need to lie
I couldn’t keep you around I had to leave you behind
So goodbye and farewell
I think I’ll see you again
somewhere down there in hell
I hope you pray for me now
I hope you pray for my health
I know you hate me but I hope you’re wishing me well
I hate you now but I loved you
You say that it’s not true
I put no one above you
Where no one could touch you
It’s true that I loved you
But now it’s just fuck you
I might go and find somebody else just know that it’s not you

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

That’s okay :)

dear you (prod. yelvy)

produced by nvr,frvr.
mixed by @naomisgrave & @jades714

Lyrics:

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

Yeah, I don't care what they want from me
Got me a laptop not a damn degree
It don't mean a fucking damn to me
I get it if you're not a fan of me
I might fucking sell my soul away
for like 10 bands and a place
Tell em im sorry, had to make em wait
I had to a take a mf break
Running on like no damn rest
Give me a second to catch my breath
and I fuck up when I try my best
Put a hole straight through my chest
Say what they want
Let them stare when I walk
Let them listen when I talk
Have em wishing I would fall

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

broke fetish

and we're back

lyrics:

I got nothing left to say to ya
It’s nothing but a game to ya 
There’s no one else to blame but ya 
Cuz no one’s gonna change for ya
2x

Yeah I got nothing for you and I’m tryna be rude but
you’re making it hard for me so fuck you too

Pipe down lemme talk my ish
I been quiet for a minute let me up my shit
Say they hate me but they’re liking all my pics
Oh you’re proud of me now? Shut the fuck up bitch
Yeah, lights out
Don’t wanna talk I’d rather hide out
And I know you don’t wanna talk now
But you’re talking too much you better pipe down
Got nothing left to say
Hold on lemme take that back
I got a few words for you, where the fuck you at?
You wanna runaway? Tell me what the fuck is that
Go and get away that’s the way you always act
So I can’t stay here no more
I’m tired of getting ignored
Like why do we do this for
I’m getting real fucking bored
I’m way too tired for this
I got no damn for the petty shit 
Like can you just take a hint
I think it’s bout damn time that you call it quits

I got nothing left to say to ya
It’s nothing but a game to ya 
There’s no one else to blame but ya 
Cuz no one’s gonna change for ya
2x

nothing left to say (prod. joshwa)

https://open.spotify.com/intl-pt/track/5NAj1gjh1zEFC8zG2jvhiE?si=43d95997054540f5

I'm Afraid

shoutout eric godlow


So stuck, so stuck  I could barely move
And my heads mess I’m just so confused 
I’m a loser yet i hate to lose
I’m just trippin like I forgot to my shoes
2x


Thought I had it was all in head
I go up and I’m crash it’s so sad
Don’t have shit I don’t have nothing left
I’m not worth it don’t waste your breath
Stay up and I rip myself apart 
All the lies I tell tearing at my heart 
Can you stay and just watch as I fall apart
Passed out on the floor it’s work of art 

It’s a work of art
I’m stuck, don’t think I’ll be going far
I’m sick and I’m puking in the fucking car
And I’m trying to get better don’t know where to start
In the back I’m with Godlow
Feel like shit cuz I’m empty and hollow
And “I do what I want” that’s my motto
So stuck, so fucked on the down low

So stuck, so stuck  I could barely move
And my heads mess I’m just so confused 
I’m a loser yet i hate to lose
I’m just trippin like I forgot to my shoes
2x

stuckk (prod. eric godlow)

lyrics:

*moaning intro*

if you keep asking, I’ll keep saying I’m okay 
I have no reason to be doing what you say bruh
do what I want and I’ll just worry bout you later 
Focused on myself and now she’s thinking that I hate her
Just give me time and I will get us outta here
I need your help cuz in my head there’s only doubt I hear
I keep it pushing it don’t matter how bad I feel
Cuz I don’t think I could take this for another year


Wish that I could give you the world, I hate this
Gotta get outta here, I can’t take this
Waiting for my time to come, I’ve been patient
I’ll keep it moving til I end up on your playlist


if you keep asking, I’ll keep saying I’m okay 
I have no reason to be doing what you say bruh
do what I want and I’ll just worry bout you later 
Focused on myself and now she’s thinking that I hate her
Just give me time and I will get us outta here
I need your help cuz in my head there’s only doubt I hear
I keep it pushing it don’t matter how bad I feel
Cuz I don’t think I could take this for another year

meantime (prod. lil biscuit & dxnny fxntom)

be nice to speckles

lyrics:

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
2x

All this talkin “dontcare”
I was “stuckk” n stressed pullin out my damn hair
“blah blah blah” they like to talk when I’m not there 
I don’t “talknomore” but if I do bet it’s so rare
Stranger “danger!” Idk her she’s a hater hater
So damn “empty!” Have no anger anger
“Can’t relax”, I’ll do that later later

I don’t like to talk cuz it’s always some fuck shit
I’m in my mode got no time for discussions
Stressed out til my body can’t function
I’m tryna focus stop causing disruptions 

I do not care what they say about me
Cuz they watch how I move cuz I’m smooth on my feet
And they hate and they hate they can’t do it like me
So sad cuz you just can’t compete

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush

speckles (prod. eric godlow)

brought to you by some cool cats and the vanishing act

Lyrics:

In my bed I’m wasting time and shit (oh my)
At my desk, I’m fucking tired as shit
And I’m so confused I want this shit to click
And I’m under pressure I can’t fold for shit

And I’m been running running running circles all through my head
Overthinking always gets me upset
Hypercritical it’s tough to accept
Pour my heart out onto lyrics cuz it’s all I have left

I’m so confused so confused
They Say I’ll be star somewhere by the moon 
Saying that I’ll make it, it’s too fucking soon
Just know I’m so afraid to fucking lose

Fucked up worried bout the little things
But I’m too smooth like I’m 7 with the strings
And you Hate my music but I’ll sure make you sing
Ima Rockstar with a hand full of rings on me

I don’t get I don’t get it I don’t get it all
They keep sayin I’ll go up but I feel like I’ll fall
Every time they say my name it’s some cool shit
I can’t help it thinkin it’s just some bullshit

In my bed I’m wasting time and shit (oh my)
At my desk, I’m fucking tired as shit
And I’m so confused I want this shit to click
And I’m under pressure I can’t fold for shit

And I’m been running running running circles all through my head
Overthinking always gets me upset
Hypercritical it’s tough to accept
Pour my heart out onto lyrics cuz it’s all I have left

wasting time (prod. cmb)

sorry not sorry. exiting 2020 entering 2021

thanks for a great year!


Q and Ponch on the intro.
kenna (@kenaede_) and jades on the outro


lyrics:

*a conversation about nuts needing strangulation and snapple*

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

I fucking hate this place 
Get me out get me out I have no reason to stay
I have some old friends who gon say that I changed 
But they waited til now to even mention my name at all
So fuck them And I don’t care what they think
It’s a shame. it’s their loss that they ain’t like me until now
But it doesn’t matter I don’t think I need them around anymore

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

This is my perfect victory, that’s right I win

sns (prod. idly blare)

lyrics:

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed 
2x

I don’t hit up my friends cuz I don’t wanna be rude
They got their own shit that their going through
so I’ll just play some music and buss a lil move 
It’s 4 am I’ll just dance in my room

[skit by jades]

Idk what to do anymore 
Might as well be dead on the floor
But I’ll settle the score
I’m not letting you win that’s for sure 

[skit by jades]

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed

sns (prod. idly blare)

jades

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