i dnt want tht many friends in the first place;/

cover photo by lauren (@1polaurbear on instagram)

lyrics:

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

I've been feeling lost in my own hometown
the way they talked then aint the same right now
they didnt like me then now they're all so proud
fuck that i dont think that i should stick around 

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

mirror (prod. lee)

produced by eric godlow

lyrics:
she gon tell me "I need you"
I can't believe you 
who you tryna fool? 
dont you know that you're see-through
i think that she knew
stop playing confused
they gon say they love me but i know that its not true

2x

she been waiting for a phone call back
but i dont even bother she gon pick up mad
fuck all that, im in my bag
ima take the first flight and i aint coming back

i dont think that we can figure it out
cuz you believe anything their talking about
but not a thing that comes out my mouth
and i dont get it but fuck you, im out.

i dont think that we should talk anymore
cuz you only hit me up whenever you're bored
i dont like that. i'd rather be all alone
and you hate that cuz you still call my phone

she gon tell me "I need you"
I can't believe you 
who you tryna fool? 
dont you know that you're see-through
i think that she knew
stop playing confused
they gon say they love me but i know that its not true

2x

confused (prod. eric godlow)

produced by xmichaelwarren

lyrics:

Tell me "can you hold on?"
Don't think I can go on
Don't know where I belong
Stuck around for too long
I'm not someone you should lean on
I think you should wean off
Don't know what you needed
I can't fucking keep up
2x

This not the place I want to be
I hate it when you talk to me
I don't need your company
I hate it when you come at me
Can't believe you were a friend to me
Now you turned into my enemy
Cuz you don't know what you meant to me
I don't care what you been telling me
I don't want that many friends in the first place
They gon try to tell me what to do I'll do it my way
I don't fucking listen I don't care what they gotta say
I don't give a fuck if I'm the person that they all hate

She been calling she been asking if I'm coming back
Said she been crying she been tryna keep her heart intact
I'm not the one that she been looking for and it's too bad
I had to leave because I'm scared that I might get attached
I been up for way too long I been losing sleep
There's just so much going on that I've been feeling weak
I don't think I could forget what you said to me
That when I'm not around you said you feel incomplete

Tell me "can you hold on?"
Don't think I can go on
Don't know where I belong
Stuck around for too long
I'm not someone you should lean on
I think you should wean off
Don't know what you needed
I can't fucking keep up
2x

wean off (prod. xmichaelwarren)

produced by toren

lyrics:

I ain't really wanna wake up
Caffeine in my cup to start my day off 
Gas inside my lungs to make me feel like im okay bru
pop another pill instead of blowing all my brains out
the caffeine in my system ain't what's keeping me awake now
i'm done acting like i ever gave a fuck
when i look into the mirror idk who i've become
i just know that when i look you're not a person that i love
im done, lights out, my fingers itching on the gun

wake up (prod. toren)

sorry for the wait 

Lyrics:

Don’t make it complicated
Gotta go do my thing no matter if you hate it but it’s not up for debate now fuck a conversation 
I don’t care. It’s not my fault that you have grown complacent 

but Lately I been wishing it was over
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied
Yeah I been wishing it was over 
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied yeah I been wishing it was 

Shut up, don’t tell me to hold on 
We’ve been stuck here for too long 
How can I tell her to move on?
Bitch get out my crib put your clothes on 
I cannot trust anybody or love anybody like fuck everybody 
I don’t want to talk to that bitch bout her hobbies 
You say that love me but what it’s about me 
I don’t wanna talk it out
You never wanna tell me what the fuck is wrong
You never wanna tell me what’s going on
So I don’t give a fuck about your missing calls 
I don’t even think that we could get along
I don’t like your friends tell em “fuck them all”
Yeah, one last ride and I’m getting off 

cuz Lately I been wishing it was over
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied
Yeah I been wishing it was over 
Losing my patience can’t keep my composure  
I gotta get this weight off of my shoulders 
Said it will be alright that’s what I told her but I lied yeah I been wishing it was

complicated

complicated (prod. joshwa)

produced by nvr,frvr.
mixed by @naomisgrave & @jades714

Lyrics:

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

Yeah, I don't care what they want from me
Got me a laptop not a damn degree
It don't mean a fucking damn to me
I get it if you're not a fan of me
I might fucking sell my soul away
for like 10 bands and a place
Tell em im sorry, had to make em wait
I had to a take a mf break
Running on like no damn rest
Give me a second to catch my breath
and I fuck up when I try my best
Put a hole straight through my chest
Say what they want
Let them stare when I walk
Let them listen when I talk
Have em wishing I would fall

I've been stressed out for a minute, I need a breather now.
On the floor fucking bleeding out, wait.
like fuck that I'm leaving now
Stack my money to the ceiling now
My momma told me I should go get it
Unless I got a lil broke fetish
Don't care, I don't know better
Got bloodstains on my new sweater

broke fetish

more music otw

lyrics:

oh girl i wish that you knew
that its just always been you
you had me so damn confused
i didnt know what to do
i should be honest with you
knew i was falling for you
spend all my hours with you
you had me calling for you
x2

you had me calling for you
and i just tried to play it cool
but i just look like a fool
and you just came out the blue
just tell me what you want
and ill tell you what i need
you're everything i wanted
its obvious to me
yeah i was stuck in denial
and didnt talk for awhile
can admit to it now
but it was weighing me down
now i cant focus on nothing but you
and i dont care about no one if they aint you
now i cant think straight
you're always in my headspace
im thinkin bout you all day
i hope you're doing okay

you (prod. joshwa)

enjoy
i know the mix is awful but oh well
the worst one yet

lyrics:


I know that I’m not okay, I’ve been better
And I still smell your scent on my sweater
And I can barely keep myself together
But it’s okay I had no plans of being here forever 

Don’t think I have much time left so I won’t be here too long
I know you hope that I’m wrong

It’s the same old me with a new list of problems 
And I’m stressed out tryna find how to solve em
I go up and I fall like the leaves in the autumn
And it’s getting to my head and that’s not very awesome

I wish I could see myself through your eyes
Cuz when you talk bout me you make me seem like I’m a great guy
So I can’t help but think that they’re all lies 
But I’m tryna get better so I can think otherwise 

It’s the same old me with a new list of problems 
And I’m stressed out tryna find how to solve em
I go up and I fall like the leaves in the autumn
And it’s getting to my head and that’s not very awesome

I know that I’m not okay, I’ve been better
And I still smell your scent on my sweater
And I can barely keep myself together
But it’s okay I had no plans of being here forever

okay (prod. ripfxsh)

sorry not sorry. exiting 2020 entering 2021

thanks for a great year!


Q and Ponch on the intro.
kenna (@kenaede_) and jades on the outro


lyrics:

*a conversation about nuts needing strangulation and snapple*

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

I fucking hate this place 
Get me out get me out I have no reason to stay
I have some old friends who gon say that I changed 
But they waited til now to even mention my name at all
So fuck them And I don’t care what they think
It’s a shame. it’s their loss that they ain’t like me until now
But it doesn’t matter I don’t think I need them around anymore

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

This is my perfect victory, that’s right I win

sns (prod. idly blare)

@jades714 @ssnoah

noah's verse was supposed to be longer but he decided to moan for a good 4 bars

lyrics:

[jades]

I don’t know what you want from me but
I don’t think I got what you need
So you can fuck off and let me be
I don’t do this for you so don’t expect to be pleased by me
x2

I see your texts and a few missed calls
It makes me want to put my fucking head through the wall
I shut my phone and ignore them all
I’m in my room losing my head in the dark

[noah.wav]

baby i don’t care at all like why you hit me up
i don’t wanna talk it out lately i’ve been feeling stuck
don’t wanna do this anymore
i don’t know what you want from me
cause girl i gave you all of me

[jades]

I don’t know what you want from me but
I don’t think I got what you need
So you can fuck off and let me be
I don’t do this for you so don’t expect to be pleased by me
x2

jades x kayudo - let me be (prod. tennis player)

lyrics:

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed 
2x

I don’t hit up my friends cuz I don’t wanna be rude
They got their own shit that their going through
so I’ll just play some music and buss a lil move 
It’s 4 am I’ll just dance in my room

[skit by jades]

Idk what to do anymore 
Might as well be dead on the floor
But I’ll settle the score
I’m not letting you win that’s for sure 

[skit by jades]

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed

wean off (prod. xmichaelwarren)

jades

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