i was too scared 
to fall in love 
to feel someone else’s touch 

all i heard 
wasn’t enough 
for you i fell so hard 

and that is why you’re so amazing
and that is why i feel frustrated 
and after all is set stone we’ll 
go on and regret nothing more

here i go now on my own
feeling lost and so alone it’s
what it is and was before 
nothings changed it’s you i’m leaning on

now it’s too late
to conjure up
the courage i felt so tough

i’m right there 
when you’re not
i shouldn’t have fell so hard
 
and that is why you’re so amazing
and that is why i feel frustrated 
and after all is set stone we’ll 
go on and regret nothing more

here i go now on my own
feeling lost and so alone it’s
what it is and was before 
nothings changed it’s you i’m leaning on

Nothings Changed

MEAN GIRL

let’s pretend this sounds cool

an open letter to the ones who made me feel less, the ones who couldn't love me, and the ones who stepped on me in 2017. i am full of hope that 2018 will be filled with better human beings.

written, performed, and produced by holyveins

LYRICS:
maybe i should stay in bed all day
and hide away from the sun
it’s not like anyone wanted me anyway
although i wanted anyone

oh i thrive off your attention
but i know i’m just an extension
take me bit by bit, i’ll be a part of you
take me whole, i’ll try to be better for you

maybe i should stay down on the floor
and only come up when they call
i’ve only ever wanted to be more
i only wanted to grow tall

maybe i should stop putting myself down
for all of your stupid mistakes 
i’m tired of letting myself drown
cause i’m not the one to blame

oh i thrive off your attention
but i know i’m just an extension
you took me bit by bit, i’m not a part of you
you took me whole, i’m still not better for you

oh fuck you for making me feel so small
oh fuck you for making me feel so warm
i’m exhausted, exhausted of it all

oh fuck you for hanging me on the wall
fuck you for telling me i was wrong
i’m exhausted, exhausted of it all

Exhausted - Single

Exhausted

What Keeps Me Up

will you still love me tomorrow

Take Me

bubble gum (clairo cover)

Hello my dearest Soundcloud friends, 
Here is a song that I wrote and recorded in my Voice memos on the floor of a shower. I was in London, feeling vulnerable and lonely. I sent the song to one of my dearest friends Tahnee. It was only intended to be a draft but I told her that in the future I'd like to sing something like this with her.
She got back to me recently with a copy of the song that she had recorded harmonies, banjo and violin on. It made me cry with happiness and I wanted to share this with you. 
You can find Tahnee's Soundcloud and Spotify name under
 ~ Tahnee Ollerton ~
So please check her out if you haven't already. 
If you would like a copy of the lyrics let me know. 
All my love, 
Isabella X

brown river eyes (with tahnee ollerton)

(i don't know) how to be happy

an early version of a song now called eva cassidy

What Keeps Me Up

DJ Cry Fieri