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Thoughts

The Saddest Christmas Song(2)

"Flicker in the Fog"  
This introspective ballad traces the emotional journey from grief to quiet resilience. The narrator reflects on a lost connection, surrounded by fog both literal and metaphorical. Early verses dwell in solitude and memory, with imagery of faded letters and silent rooms. As the song progresses, subtle hope emerges—through shifting skies, warm coffee, and small gestures of healing. The final chorus embraces uncertainty with strength, suggesting that while the pain remains, the path forward is no longer obscured. It’s a meditation on love, loss, and the slow return to self.

© 2025 Text & Concept by MOBest  - Martin Oliver Beinersdorf 
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Lyrics:

[Intro – Piano Only]  
Soft light spills across the floor  
The night forgets what it came for  

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[Verse 1]  
Streetlights blink like tired eyes  
I trace your name in window grime  
The silence wraps around my chest  
A borrowed weight I can't divest  

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[Verse 2]  
Your letter sleeps inside a drawer  
The ink has faded, nothing more  
But every line still breathes your name  
A quiet ache I can't reclaim  

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[Instrumental – Before Pre-Chorus]  
[Low-register piano pulses, ambient pads swell gently. A distant guitar harmonic flickers in and out. The rhythm is slow, almost hesitant—like a breath held too long.]

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[Pre-Chorus]  
I still hear you in the static  
Not your voice—just how it felt  

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[Chorus]  
You were the flicker in the fog  
A warmth I couldn’t hold for long  
Now I walk through quiet rooms  
Learning how to be alone  

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[Instrumental – After Chorus]  
[Solo piano with ambient textures, slow descending motif in minor key.]

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[Verse 3]  
The sky begins to shift its shade  
A softer blue behind the grey  
I breathe without expecting pain  
And find some peace in yesterday  

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[Verse 4]  
The coffee warms my shaking hands  
I smile at strangers when I can  
The world still spins, a little slow  
But I’m not lost—I’m just below  

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[Pre-Chorus – Reprise]  
I still feel you in the stillness  
Not your touch—just what it meant  

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[Chorus – Reprise]  
You were the flicker in the fog  
A song I couldn’t sing too long  
Now I hum the parts I know  
Learning how to let you go  

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[Instrumental – After Chorus Reprise]  
[Piano arpeggios with soft strings, subtle guitar swells, hint of rhythmic pulse.]

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[Bridge]  
And if the morning ever asks  
I’ll say I loved you in the cracks  
Where light got in and time stood still  
Where loss became a kind of will  

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[Instrumental – After Bridge]  
[Full string section rises, piano builds in warmth, ambient pads shimmer.]

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[Final Chorus]  
You were the flicker in the fog  
But now I see beyond the smog  
I walk toward something undefined  
Not quite healed—but not confined  

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[Outro – Piano Only]  
One final chord, held in air  
A single note that doesn’t care  
If you return or fade away  
I’ll find my rhythm anyway  

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Flicker in the Fog

Weathered is the second single from my upcoming record, 'English Bones'. 

It's a song that comes from a wholly personal place, and I feel as though I would be disingenuous in not divulging the meaning behind the track. I was in a relationship with someone, and just as every good sad song goes, we fell apart. It was a toxic, mean, and truly horrible breakup, with a lot of name-calling, one-upping, and generally feeling like awful people. The dust settled, and about six months later, I (stupidly) decided to meet up with him again. We wanted to reconnect. We'd be chatting again via text, and to me it just felt right. 

When we met back up, it was like our souls had shifted. I couldn't see in him what I felt attracted to in the first place. His laugh sounded different, the colour of his hair seemed off. Was that tattoo there before? It just didn't feel right; he seemed older, more tired, more weathered. But he swore that everything was good, that everything was going well. I couldn't, and still can't, pinpoint what was different, but there was something that made me realise I'd fallen out of love. 

It's been eighteen months since then, but there are occasions where I still think about some of the times we shared. It was nice. Was it worth the fallout, the self-loathing & the soul-searching? Definitely not. But hey, at least I got this song out of it.

Enjoy.

Produced by Sam Winfield at Studio 91 (Amber Run, Dry the River).

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