VERSE:
I'm moving through this pain
Into something so beautiful
Please remove these Tears
Out my mother fucking ceuticals

I felt so worthless 
I felt like a piece of shit
But you were in my ear
Saying Jamin don't quit

Get up I know that you can
Handle all of it
Even through the times
When things don't make any sense

I know that you've been fucked With
I know you've been abused
I know you lost your brother
And both your fathers too

And your moms not around
For any type of conversation
Because you refuse to deal
With her fucking manipulation
and that's OK

Even if the family's in
Denial to see it
You know your internal truth 
So you better fucking believe it

And right now in this moment
Let's put your past behind you
Remember that it's a choice
It doesn't have to fucking define you

And if you lose yourself again
Just play this soundtrack
Just remember my words
and I promise I'll bring you
Back home...

CHORUS:
You are so wise
You're so incredible
You are so amazing
You're so beautiful

You are so wise
You're so incredible
You are so amazing
and you're so beautiful

VERSE:
For awhile you just 
Couldn't even explain
Something felt off 
You couldn't give it a name

In the beginning you
Used to question every
Fucking thing
But something didn't add up
In the way that she was being

You'd bring it up to her
And she was so quick to rage
Often at times for the
For the littiest things

And it was never her fault
You were always the one to blame
But plausible enough that
You fell into her game

You'd read a situation right
She'd say you read it wrong
Withholding information 
While leading you along

2 Months of indoctrination
And you were fucking gone
Praying for salvation
But you forgot your fucking songs

So you pulled back your energy
So you could protect your peace
Waiting for the right time
When I say that you can leave

And I know that this is painful
And there's not much you can see
But I promise it will get better
Once you take that fucking leap back home

CHORUS:
You are so wise
You're so incredible
You are so amazing
You're so beautiful

You are so wise
You're so incredible
You are so amazing
and you're so beautiful

Written By: Jamin Van Dillen
Co-Produced By: Patrick Hopper

You're So Beautiful

So Heated

TEXT INTRO:
The moment you started seeking council 
Behind my back was the moment you left the relationship and started cheating on me. Lying to me.

Apparently you had no desire to heal with me. (I think the person whispering in your ear is a dark energy if I’m really honest)

At least I’d hope you would have the decency to speak to my face.

CHORUS:
Judgement, Judgement
Stick it up your ass
Your Divine Reflections 
Are as worthless as your ass

Shame me, Guilt me
What a piece of trash
Making up shit about me
Just so you can bash

VERSE:
You thought I was gonna be quiet
Like all those other bitches you dated
Well you fucked up
You've been gravely mistaken

And I no longer have anymore
Mother fucking patience
For your dumbass claiming Light 
but still masquerading, like

Yeah, thanks for being such a light
And a mirror for me to grow
And let's pretend to be best friends
When you really know
That I psychologically abused
Your mind, but let's put that behind
Cause we're bigger than that
And we don't need reality to
Define us

Wait wait, what is the we we thing
This is more of you you thing
And the messes that you created
The unwillingness to take any
Real responsibility your fake
Sorries are pretty
Until you reflect it back
With this underhanded hostility
No thanks!

CHORUS:
Judgement, Judgement
Stick it up your ass
Your Divine Reflections 
Are as worthless as your ass

Shame me, Guilt me
What a piece of trash
Making up shit about me
Just so you can bash

Judgement, Judgement
Stick it up your ass
Your Divine Reflections 
Are as worthless as your ass

Shame me, Guilt me
What a piece of trash
Making up shit about me
Just so you can bash

BRIDGE:
Like an old friend said
I'ma let it drop

Let it drop
I'ma let it drop
Ahhhh
Let it drop
I'ma let it drop

Let it drop
I'ma let it drop
Ahhhh

Let it drop
I'ma let it drop

OUTRO TEXT:
Anyway, I just feel I need to reflect how much this hurts.

And I don’t expect you to care or do anything cause I doubt you would.

But because I love you and I want you to love your highest life, I feel called to share.

I love you Jamin. And feel utterly hurt and betrayed by you.

Heart emoji

Divine Reflections

Verse 1:
It all comes together
Despite the fucking weather
I'll put this shit together
Better than your christmas sweater

I don't really give a fuck
I don't care about a buck
I'm just moving forward with
What god really wants for me

And for you
It might look a little different
But the whole point of it is to
Find the peace that's within it

And some days I'm really angry
Some Days I'm fucking sad
And that's just being human
Expressing what I really have... Fucking emotions

Interlude rant

Verse 2:
I talked to god today
He said there's lot to say
There's lots of demons
Out there acting really fucking cray

Some people running to the store
Fearing doomsday
While I'm just writing rhymes
Lyfting people on the freeway

I'm so damn impressive
I'm so fucking cool
You belong in a box
Cause you're a fucking tool

You want fame and riches
You want bad bitches
But how much of your soul
You gonna sell to fucking get it

Interlude rant

Verse 3:
Of course there's another part bitch
Didn't you hear the last verse
I'm at the tipping point with
So much shit to say I'm bout to burst

Like isn't like so grand
When you evolve and expand
And manifesting so much money
Selling your spiritual ponzi scam

Yaaaaaa! Now I feel so alive
Cause I finally found my tribe
and I was anointed a demi-god
When I first took my psilocyb

From random guru shakti guy
He worships beings every night
and let's every girl in the commune
Lay next to him to play with his light
Yaaaaaaa!

No girl none of this
Is at all fucking right
I'm on my hands and knees
And I'll pray to god for you every night

Just get the fuck up
and run away from this
Stupid ass guy

There's so much fucking love
For you once you get
To the other side


End Rant

Random Rants

LYRICS:
Chorus:
I always feel like
The government's watching me
and I have no privacy 
x4

Verse: 
What's happening
Is just a dream
They got multiple teams
The whole government's

Just one big regime
And their tracking me
On every screen
I just can't believe

Their in my iphone
My google chrome
Every where I roam
Every time I watch 

Mother fucking Alex Jones
On the app store
Every platform
There's a trapdoor

This isn't America 
This is war
Wake the fuck up
Kn kn knock on the door

They don't give a shit
About you anymore
You give em an inch
And they'll break down your door

Can't you see things
are getting out of hand
Spying on Americans
Like the Taliban

Censoring your posts 
On the Instagram
Talk about vaccines
You'll shadow banned

Chorus:
I always feel like
The government's watching me
and I have no privacy 
x4

Outro:
Tucker Carlson Clip


-Jamin Van Dillen
Written By: Jamin Van Dillen

The Government's Watching Me

Lyrics:

Chorus:
I died a
Thousand times
From every memory
I pressed rewind

Take a little sip
And I'll lose
My mind my
Eyes get red when
I think of your lies

Verse:
You told me
I was doing 
Great and gave
Me sage advice

But why am I 
The one who
Has to sit and
Pay the price

When I opened
Up to you
What a fucking 
Waste of time

Just to be 
Forgotten
Only scars
You left behind

Worse off when
You found me
Couldn't find
No peace of mind

I only trace
The wounds
That you left
For me to find

Ruminating 
Thoughts I 
Toss and turn
Late at night

I never heard
Your gun
To busy checking
Vital signs

Pre-Chorus:
Once I stopped
Reliving your words
That I was 
A nut case

I could see 
Your shots were
The cause For all
My blood stains

Never thought
You'd put me on
Blast right on 
Your home page

Guess I'm finally 
Facing the truth 
To see your
True ways

Chorus:
I died a
Thousand times
From every memory
I pressed rewind

Take a little sip
And I'll lose
My mind my
Eyes get red when
I think of your lies

Verse:
Life with you
Was easy I
Didn't think about 
It twice

If people 
Talked about you
I was quick to 
Cut their ties

You taught me 
What it's like
To really have
An open mind

But behind my 
Back you had
Me lined
In your sights

And I never 
Thought you'd be
The one to shoot
Me with a silent gun

I'm still in shock
In disbelief
I can't believe 
You murdered me

Crossed my heart 
I wished to die
I dreamt of it 
A thousand times

Thought I was
The only one
But no ones
Safe from all your guns

Pre-Chorus:
Once I stopped
Reliving your words
That I was 
A nut case

I could see 
Your shots were
The cause For all
My blood stains

Never thought
You'd put me on
Blast right on 
Your home page

Guess I'm finally 
Facing the truth 
To see your
True ways

Chorus:
I died a
Thousand times
From every memory
I pressed rewind

Take a little sip
And I'll lose
My mind my
Eyes get red when
I think of your lies
X2

Written By:
Jamin Van Dillen

Produced By:
Jamin Van Dillen

Jamin Van Dillen

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