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Baby I would rather die than be with you :)

RATHER DIE

1/5 from my upcoming EP "As I Walk Into the Night"
I hope you enjoy <3

Written by: @itsyungvan
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Production: @user-182805726

Lyrics-

(I'm waiting here for you to pick me up)

I'm waiting here for you to pick me up
Everyone is gone, now I'm the only one
I cried all night, but would you even know?
you never show
The things unsaid, tend to hurt the most
I wonder why you never show
The darkest sides of his heart, unknown
When is last time I opened up?
I had to close off my only love
Because the last time I opened up,
you never came and I had to bluff
Now every night he leaves open
I guess he's hoping, someone, will come and hold him
He leaves it vulnerable inside his drawer
Falling asleep he can only dream for more

As I Walk Into the Night

i'm sad and the weathers making it worse

Spotify, Itunes, Etc.

i'm sad and the weathers making it worse (Prod. SaintTomorrow)

"All alone but I just can’t face it 
I have no power and you know I’m right" 2/5...

Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @Skress
Artwork: @scottysplash

LYRIC VIDEO ON YOUTUBE:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BgXQqlelBDQ

"As I Walk Into the Night”

Chorus-

I never go outside
Unless my friends come and offer me a ride
I’d rather sit and 
hide Reliving all the terrible flashbacks about my life
And As I watch and wait
You’ve come to tell me how to bear the weight
Sing me that lullaby 
The blackbird watches as I walk into the night

Verse-

I don’t know what you want 
Please leave me out of your dreams 
Every night when I’m walking 
You’re all I ever see

Holding back from the urge to fulfill me 
If I can’t, then it’s alright with me 
Holding back from person I am like 
Hiding away is what will set me free 
Side note 
Don’t look in my eyes 
I’m sad to say, I’m afraid what you’ll find 
I’ve locked away all the monster inside 
But at times they’ll come out and there’s no where to hide

Contemplating, if I’ll get wasted 
I don’t think that I’ll even try 
All alone but I just can’t face it 
I have no power and you know I’m right

In the night time
They come out, all night x4

Chorus-

I never go outside
Unless my friends come and offer me a ride
I’d rather sit in hide 
Reliving all the terrible flashbacks about my life
And As I watch and wait
You’ve come to tell me how to bear the weight
Sing me that lullaby 
The blackbird watches as I walk into the night

Spotify, Itunes, etc.

As I Walk Into the Night (Prod. Skress)

mixed by https://soundcloud.com/prodbybrody
art by @ihateshota
prod by https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic

this song means a lot to me bc i don't really hold anything back and it felt so good to say all of this. that being said, im still not in the best mental state, but i'm trying my best.

can someone tell me why i feel this way about love
and why i try to hide my emotions behind these drugs
my friends just tell me its apart of growing up
my bones seem to get much older but i never feel in touch

i talk to my friends like i talk to the people inside of my head
and sometimes i ask them for closure cause i never remember what i said
so tell me what i have to do to feel grown up in this world
maybe ill ditch my old life and just try and go fall for a girl
cause its been a long time since i've felt a thing called trust
and i don't think i've fallen for a girl without feeling a bit of lust

break me down
to my core
and you'll see 
that im the enemy

my age is a factor in this but i feel like im falling too quick
and if i dont slow myself down maybe ill just mess up and ill slip

can someone tell me why i feel this way about love
and why i try to hide my emotions behind these drugs
my friends just tell me its apart of growing up
my bones seem to get much older but i never feel in touch

spotify

growing up

Im here 4ever dis shit isnt jus a phase
my mom gon hate it when i get tatz on my facee
they luv 2 hate but itz nevr gon make me change
superstarlifestyle do dis shit like every day

Im here 4ever dis shit isnt jus a phase
my mom gon hate it when i get tatz on my facee
they luv 2 hate but itz nevr gon make me change
superstarlifestyle do dis shit like every day


i do dis shit like every day
all dis cash but i cant take it to the grave
some ppl oughta look @ the mess they made
instead they busy stalking on my pageee :/

wassup wit dat?
wassup wit dem?
im tired of ppl acting like we fucking frienddssss ::////
wassup wit dat?
wassup wit dem?
im tired of ppl acting like we fucking frienddssss ::////

Im here 4ever dis shit isnt jus a phase
my mom gon hate it when i get tatz on my facee
they luv 2 hate but itz nevr gon make me change
superstarlifestyle do dis shit like every day

Im here 4ever dis shit isnt jus a phase
my mom gon hate it when i get tatz on my facee
they luv 2 hate but itz nevr gon make me change
superstarlifestyle do dis shit like every day

Not A Phase!!! (prod. Nightclub20xx)

[PROD. NATIVE] @nativeb3atz
LOVESPELLEDBACKWARDS - @iamcjcarter

Lyrics:
[FRVR]
I can feel her eyes on me 
Looking through me, please consume me
The way youd always make me bleed
What did you to do me
The way you used me

where is she
I cant see
I been fucked up so completely 
Say you hate me yeah say you need me
She only loves me when shes dreamin

I dont wanna do this anymore
I didnt wanna lose you 
Everything is way worse then before 
I fucking did everything i could do
For you 

[EVOL]
& everytime i wake i start to shake
freezing cold while burning up i need a break
i dont wanna do this anymore
wake up w my face against the floor, again
i can’t pretend
that im fine because im not
is this is real or in my head?
all of these intrusive thoughts

[FRVR]
I can feel her eyes on me 
Looking through me, please consume me
The way youd always make me bleed
What did you to do me
The way you used me

where is she
I cant see
I been fucked up so completely 
Say you hate me yeah say you need me
She only loves me when shes dreamin

I dont wanna do this anymore
I didnt wanna lose you 
Everything is way worse then before 
I fucking did everything i could do
For you

DREAMING [FRVR X LOVESPELLEDBACKWARDS]

Produced by Superkid
Mixed by : 1990bishop (@bishszn)

che nae nae (prod. superkid)

@joshuasageart
(Josh hook)
I been searching for the lights
I’ve been running all my life
And before it is my time
Ima make the sacrifice
Is this a dream or is this how reality seems
Far away from escapes that I need
I wrote these songs in my sleep
I have no time for rest I’m not weak
But the crystals of the future gleem
And the house on the hills at the peak 
That’s exactly where I wanna be
That’s exactly how I always dream
(Josh verse)
Tell me you need me
Tell me you want me
Tell me you need me now
Wait move fast, there’s a mission to be dealt with gotta
Zoom past competition to the stars I got the
Truth yeah, everybody wanna see the way I choose paths
Choose paths choose paths, keyblade make you get back
Riding on a warpstar like I’m Kirby know you hate that
And I got that mastersword, swordsman like my name is roy
Your girl hit my phone ima play her I don’t talk to toys
(Josh hook loop)

✯ within a dream ✯ [+ Yago Beats]

Addicted (thalayout) (ft lul dvmon)

@cybrspace
prod @razor-wrist x notlikethis

100 grand w/ cyberspace

💖 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓃𝓀 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓈𝓊𝓅𝓅𝑜𝓇𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 💖
💫 @iamstarinthesky
💫 https://www.instagram.com/wyastar/
-- lyrics --
Your love was my drug...
(Yea, yea, yea)

Your love was my drug
Caught myself overdosing
Withdrawals keep me cold
And I can't keep my eyes from closing...
I'm mostly mad at myself
But you played your part and you know it
Why don't you show it
Now you look at me and you just can't control it
Like you tried to steal my big dream
But that's mine you can‘t own it
U were my most unlikely opponent
But u didn't win my heart u actually stole it

Fingerprints left on my heart stiletto scuffs on the tile
Right after I taught u all u know about ur style
I got you cuz I wanted to always did it with a smile
Poppin tags on Gucci bags and Louis shoes up on Mag Mile
In chicago, oh but why tho?
I gave u everything now where my'd time go
I'm getting older, more jaded and lonely
Spending money only thing that consoles me...

Your love was my drug
Caught myself overdosing
Withdrawals keep me cold
And I can't keep my eyes from closing...
I'm mostly mad at myself
But you played your part and you know it
Why don't you show it
Now you look at me and you just can't control it
Like you tried to steal my big dream
But that's mine you can‘t own it
U were my most unlikely opponent
But u didn't win my heart u actually stole it

It's not that I don't wish you well
But I recall it felt like hell
7 layers still I fell
I guess ur right oh well oh well
Shoot ur shots load more shells
Put this story on the shelf
Gather dust if it must
Don't think there's much more left to tell	
Ok i'll be the bad guy
Bae bae u can keep ur bad vibes
Those days, always kissed u goodnight
These days, u can fuckin kiss it goodbye

Your love was my drug
Caught myself overdosing
Withdrawals keep me cold
And I can't keep my eyes from closing...
I'm mostly mad at myself
But you played your part and you know it
Why don't you show it
Now you look at me and you just can't control it
Like you tried to steal my big dream
But that's mine you can‘t own it
U were my most unlikely opponent
But u didn't win my heart u actually stole it

I showed u the finer things...
Cant believe I let u try on Cartier rings...
it's like when I rap my heart still sings...
Cut! that's a wrap.. on to better things....
--
Related Tracks by STARINTHESKY:
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/i-gotchu-prod-luciid
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/why-prod-nextlane
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/go-hard-prod-silo
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/thief-prod-magickid
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/give-u-my-world-prod-magickid
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/1-of-a-kind
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/4reign-luv-prod-spencertyto
https://soundcloud.com/iamstarinthesky/ride-with-me-prod-magickid

thief

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thief (prod. mvgic)

SHINIGAMI - ROBITUSSIN [PROD. VAGUE002] **LEAK**

love everyone; there's no point in doing anything but love and that's the truth. that's all you'll find at the end of the day: more love, that is, until you decline it enough to where it's gone forever. does that make sense? anyways, never decline love, for it's never here to do wrong. simple as that. why the fuck everything shitty than? dumbasses.

green grass

GREEN GRASS

lock shock & barrel ft. Keshore & Savage Ga$p prod. dariuswe

all platforms soon! :) 
mixed by @thraybis
produced by silias
written by JAYJ (@1JYAJ)

lyrics - 

i ran away to california
she said i wont be waiting for ya
when u get back its done
so i live fast die young

i ran away from all my problems
little did i know runnin would not solve em
but its ok yea its alright
im way too tired to fight tonight

and to be quite honest idk where im goin
i been trapped inside my head and not livin in the moment
feel like everybody watchin just to see if i blow it 
and im tryin my best just to regain my focus
and theres beauty in the breakdown
drank too much now im face down
and my flaws made me who i am im sure
but i cannot pretend no more
had a couple people pass and that shit fucked me up
what if its all over before it feels enough ?
and who really got ur back when this shit is too much ? 
and please just dont be sad if i pass too young

ima runaway ima runaway
ima runaway ima runaway 
ima runaway 
ima runaway from everything 

*hook*

RUNAWAY

RUNAWAY (PROD. SILIAS)

lil crush + lil fanta + lil redbull + lil mello = swagg on it

Lyrics:

[verse: gothurted]
Why did you text me?
I was trying to forget you
'Cause I can't close my eyes
Without having a picture of you
Inside my mind
Feeling so sad
No, I can't find
Someone that loves me
Someone that cares
Have you ever trusted so much?
To give your soul to someone
But then seeing it tore apart
And losing every hope that you had
Sometimes I feel like I just want to quit my life
'Cause I can see no bright side whenever I open my eyes

[chorus: gothurted]
You can never find someone like me
Someone that knows your way to be 
Someone that can heal your heart in pain
'Cause I can't get you out of my brain 
I can never find someone like you
Someone that makes me enjoy whatever I do
Someone that can heal my heart in pain
That doesn't make my existence vain

[verse: yung doza]
I need someone who can fix me
All the flaws inside my brain
I need someone who can heal me
From the suffering and pain
Kill me if you want to
Told that girl I'm bad news
I don’t think I can have you
But I'll stay if you want to
I'm not okay
Tell you that I’m okay
Seems these thoughts inside of me they never want to go away
Tell me will you love me
When it all fades to gray
Will you go avenge me
When I'm in the cold lake
Drown away in hopeless tears
You should have loved me when I was here
I was nothing now I’m suffering
Now the world is crystal clear
I see your lies
And I wonder why
You think I’m like
Some other guy
But I’m falling
Eyes bawling
I'm someone you’ll never find

[chorus: gothurted]
You can never find someone like me
Someone that knows your way to be 
Someone that can heal your heart in pain
'Cause I can't get you out of my brain 
I can never find someone like you
Someone that makes me enjoy whatever I do
Someone that can heal my heart in pain
That doesn't make my existence vain

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