Jason and the gang

illusion of life

Accidental Shuffle Playlist

the real Jr and the gang

Blue Tint (Feat. FøRD)

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

spotify

weak w/ heylog [oc]

Nightmare

Smoke (feat. Yung Ø.D.)

ｔｈｅ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔ　ｍｅ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｌｏｏｓｅ　ｅｎｄ

love all of you guys seriously so much.
this is the only thing  i ever want to do, and your support helps push me to continue with all of this; i would regardless, but i'm grateful to no ends for whatever kind of reception is given back. things have been seriously difficult as of late, and so all i can say is thank you for being here. thank you for listening.
shit's kinda cliche when i say that, but that cliche shit is true sometimes, and i mean it; whatever. thank you 
just the beginning 

prod @cartermetro & @vito2300 

you left (you left)
i crashed (i crashed)
now all we ever had is in the past
(it's all in the past)
i'll stay (away)
detached (from that)
until the very moment i collapse

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
but i couldn't give a shit
hammered down any spite, bring out the knife
lying outside again

and my notes are filled with solutions,
that you might consider delusion
the old me is buried in ruins
the present me is just a loose end
turned off the phone for monochrome daydreams
'cause i don't give a shit if i'm wavy
i mean look at what happened to davy

making a point to you's crazy
crissin' it 'cross like an apple, how tasty
stuck in a drench, while i'm soaking in sweat
more or less i'm expecting nobody to save me
pokemon quest on the blue 2DS
nowadays i'm a wreck, and i stench what i'm craving
heart full of rust,
when the musk fermentates in my chest you can leave what you're hating

i got a pain in my neck, can't stretch it
the hurt in my voice can't be heard over message
so let's make a break where we got no connections
only direction, never perfection
when i talk to the sky, it'll always rain hail
bulimia fucking me up 'till i'm well
"the truth doesn't sell"
leave me for dead with the dread in my head and no breath to inhale

004, blunt force on the baby
there ain't a lure with the potent to save me
getting by as a passerby,
keeping lowered eyes, i'm already hazy
not that i'm lazy,
just marinating in lost time they never gave me
i'm short on breath, should i recollect
or detach, while i'm still straining
i hate that when i fall back into relapse
it's me i'm saving
what a nuisance, when i do this
you're clueless about what i'm saying
so, deuces, 'cause few stick when the roof lifts
i'm sick of waiting
got mucus on my blue lips
from fucked shit i feel on the daily

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
why should i give a shit
hammered down any spite, brought in the knife
i wanna die again

my heart's open
why is my heart open
quick, gotta close it
quick, gotta close it

collapse [prod. cxrter x vito]

Time ft. Yung Ø.D.

Push Me Away W/ Vails (NightCore)

stay awake
stay awake with me
i can’t fall back asleep
stay awake
stay awake with me
insomnia is haunting all week
insomnia

stay awake
stay awake with me
i don’t want to die inside my dreams
lay here all night with me
i need you here to feel at ease

stay awake with me // insomnia [lil biscuit]

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

i suppose time will wear away the pain of not seeing you again
the memory of you
the loving of you
time won't take that away

it would be easier to die

i cant fathom
the fucking feeling in my chest
i inject the venom
hope it leads me to my death
i’ve lost all passion
this isn’t music i just vent
cause i can’t fathom
i take the blade and then i’ll rest
oh
cause i can’t fathom
how u breathe when i’m not there
cause i can’t have love
if it’s not u it’s nowhere
and at this point it’s not fair now…

i never want to fight love
i’ve made you so tired
if we can just rewind
and not get caught in the moment
i know now that our times up
but love you all the same now
yeah we cannot rewind
but i’ll hold on to the moments

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same
even when the words aren’t spoken

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same

i can't fathom // goodbye pt. 3

produced by i'm geist
engineered @tnvr555

how do i feel now?
stuck inside my room love
tell me it’s a ghost town
these ghosts all i know now
i can see you in every surface of my room
engraved in every thing i do

well here i go
back to the city in a bag of bones
no heart, no soul
don’t need your pity
got a 1000 ghosts
yeah, i’m not here alone
i rot with the ones i love the most
and they hold on close
kept me alive for far too long

so say i’m faded
i’m just devastated
can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t take this
rotting in the basement
just another day
i’m stuck missing your face
and soon i’m gonna pack my bags
and get out of this place
so yeah i’m wasted
you know how i cope
it’s not the best i’m selfish
hate myself it’s endless
and i’m sorry i’m this way
and if i could i’d stay
but we’ve grown far apart in ways that’ll never be okay

pity

sorry i'm this way

5 Day Bender (W/ Vails)

Featuring my homie: https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi

Lyrics:

Rivilin:

Like the band of four, leaving your home in the shire
we only had each others friendship, no other desire
except a ring, a burden around your throat
and the more you press on you find the weight chokes

leave your ghost by the bed, this paths not for the weak
hear the screams in the distance they're stabbing at false sheets
pull out your dagger as they pierce you through the cloak
yeah you watch it turn to dust but the struggle you won't be broke

hear the horns in the distance the north is coming close
feel the fear in the boots but the fire you gotta stoke
just to keep your feet going on, keep with the struggle right
you gotta keep on going, sadly there's no end in sight

and when you finally reach it you find you're on your knees
till you think the ones who love you wanna throw you to the fiends
like please get away how did it turn like this
one day i'll be smiling with everyone that i miss

i didn't understand back then whats up,
i'll bite my lip, take a knife through the gut
and when you see me smile please just dont say
i miss the person right here won't you stay

the dark flame came embraced all my face
if i turn yeah i'll see myself yeah replaced
and when you sing i'll try to rise up again
and then we'll see a perfect home through the lens

$lothboi:

I got to bone to pick
I’m tired of the holiness
The higher I be up the flying hit me with the turbulence

Surrounded by thought me
I might’ve had lobotomy
There’s something in my head that ain’t apart of what I want in me

I’m splitting like I’m missing
All the glue up on the leather

I’m hitting like a whippet
When I mix it all together

I’m fitting like a condom on a dick in chilly weather
I be slipping when I’m falling but a spark will make me better

(Spark Sound)
(exhale)

Leme hold a bit
Gas so strong
Bouta blow the bitch
Up

(exhale)

Leme roll this shit
Gas so packed
Bouta fold a bit
Yuh

Get a load of this
Man so up
Bouta jump and get stuck

Plan so fucked
Bouta duck
And get bucked

Man no luck
Just refuse
To get stuck

Waterford Ft. $lothboi

What Do I Know

Tsunami J. & Walt - The Signal

REVENGE

Im Stressed

Relentless (with Gatsby)

LOADEDCLPZ (RUN)

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//ごめんなさい//

@tothegood

lacuna

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blue (prod. tothegood)

Little Poor Me

I make music straight from real life—ups, downs, and everything in between. Just a kid chasing dreams, turning feelings into sound. If you’re rocking with me, you’re part of the journey. Stay real, stay Jr.

Nightmare

The Real Jr