its only just your life.
new songs every friday starting now..

prod/art done by me

inspos for song:
jane remover - misplace 
wishlane - sink or swim

[lyrics]
*verse 1*
i know its my fault
gotta make the noise stop
i don't wanna fail
everything i do is stale

instead i'll keep walking backwards
tired of the fake shit
feel like imma
actor
but it's all for now

*bridge*
but i'm still here waiting
wasting all my time
u know all my excuses so i'll make shit up
but there ain't no coming back
how can i make this up
(you can't make this up)

*pre hook*
i don't wanna lie
i don't feel like i'm alive
if you woulda saw
what i saw the other night
it's the first day back
i feel like i just died

*hook2*
thought i was done making up
cuz it's all a lie
still don't know where i'm going tonight
i've had enough i think its time to move on
because its only just your life you cannot treat it when you die

*verse 2*
because it's my life and my time to
go go go
cannot tell me what to do like u
know know know
sick of living my life off of hope
guess it's my luck
i should've known

on spotify !

you can't make this up

half the people that i know don't even know me

prod me and @assperrr
this is only the start..

inspos for song:
brakence - nervosa2
rouri404, vaeo - driving with my eyes closed

[lyrics]
*hook*
there isn't time for this why do you wanna stop
wake up like everyday just so you feel more lost
we've gained a lot from this but was it worth the cost
don't leave it now in the end it is all you've got

*bridge*
like what's the bigger picture shit i'm folding
half the people that i know
don't even know me
the issue is inside but i am this close
from exploding
but i am not that worried
cuz i jus know where i'm going

*verse 2*
i'm going
i can't ever just decide shit
it's all good
i'm just taking all my time with
the silence
i'm fighting myself the violence
can never be defeated
I hide and think where the time went?

honestly i don't know why i keep on saying
that i needa slow down
mind is very scattered
issues pile up my flow now
i'm so fucking sick there's not a point to get out
all i've got is this take off my
headphones and there's no sound

where do i go now?
i just wanna get out
cause honestly i'm wasting my time
when will i find out?
the bigger picture i wanna drive towards the top
it feels like i am at the bottom
but wait for my next drop

*hook*
there isn't time for this why do you wanna stop
wake up like everyday just so you feel more lost
we've gained a lot from this but was it worth the cost
don't leave it now in the end it is all you've got

*bridge*
like what's the bigger picture shit i'm folding
half the people that i know
don't even know me
the issue is inside but i am this close
from exploding
but i am not that worried
cuz i jus know where i'm going

3/18/2022

spotfiy !

all you've got (jauntsen x asperr)

nvm.
prod me @assperrr & @claudesdiary
additional bg vox from @claudesdiary

inspos for song:
jane remover - search party
sewerperson - the harvest

[lyrics]

*intro*
last year was the start of the end
i couldn't be here without you
but the path split again
i've got so much to value
and more time to spend
but i've been treated like shit
how could you call me your friend?

*verse*
cuz I’ve been down bad
with a fake friend
I don’t have much to say when
I’ve been waiting
for you to get it
I’ve been here for so long
to just forget it
I said no 100 times
you couldn’t accept it
I’ve been way to scared to
read the message
the last one sent
makes you look obsessive
but ur the main character
want me by your side
and break my barriers
the more we talk it gets scarier
thought u were my friend
u felt superior
put yourself first not a thought here
if it doesn't work then its not fair
and u wanna say that I don't care
but I'm your longest friend who never got scared
pick the phone up shit is still the same
here's the dial tone shit will never change

*bridge*

cuz i haven't felt this in a while
it's time to go switch up my style
I never could buy I'm on trial shit
I'm blocking the number like

*hook*
go!
they hit me back and all i said was
nvm
nvm
nvm
nvm
where did you
go! x4

*outro*
cuz I can't deal with all this back and forth
I can't commit to what ur asking for
I've tried to mend this more than once before
don't hit me up I went and locked the doors

you liked to make me your main focus
to manipulate me till I'm hopeless
you make me like shit like did you notice?
you didn't notice
you'll never notice.

spotify !

nvm. (jauntsen x asperr x claude)

time is what you wish for..

prod me and @assperrr
don't got time to waste

inspos
lando! - outta my mind
defsharp - to get older

[lyrics]

*bridge*
i swore that this would never happen anymore
i keep on fumbling but i don't want to anymore
i cannot help it i just get bored
time is what you!
wish for
but it's something that you can't afford

*verse*
keep sitting here and wasting your time...
if you are gonna do it just make up your mind!

cause people always thrive to be the best someday
can't be the best today
cause i'm a mess somedays
but imma keep on trying maybe do my best today
can't be my best today
cause i'm a mess somedays
but imma keep on trying maybe do my..

*hook*
never mind fuck that!
don't got time to waste
but i stay awake
i've got fears to face
wish that i could get my luck back
but i don't wanna wait
when my time is gone
hope i leave a trace

*bridge*
i swore that this would never happen anymore
i keep on fumbling but i don't want to anymore
i cannot help it i just get bored
time is what you!
wish for
but it's something that you can't afford

*hook*
never mind fuck that!
don't got time to waste
but i stay awake
i've got fears to face
wish that i could get my luck back
but i don't wanna wait
when my time is gone
hope i leave a trace

hope I leave a trace (jauntsen x asperr)

let me prove it to you

inspos:
kmoe - blisters
jane remover - frality (literally the whole album bruh)

prod. me
ft @blissom
[lyrics]

*jauntsen*
i don't know how to fix this
cause it's never really good enough
just go open your 
mind
find out i'm
fine 
i'm truly better than i once was
just let me prove it to you 

no 
i'm trying to find ways to let it go 
help me lead a path to find my focus 
no one really knows us 
i'm trembling in cycles its been hard for me to show up

is something wrong
cause it doesn't feel right
don't know why i do it 
but i stay up all night
you look so good
and i look like i'm dying 
so what is the purpose of trying

*blissom*
i tried
to change
the part
that cares
u were sitting alone
on your lunch break on your phone

and if you showed me 
the way back 
to your heart id find 
theres one more piece you had to lie about to keep on fire

*jauntsen*
the silence 
awakens 
the way back 
forsaken
just calm down
i need hope
the only path
i'll take it!

i'm watching them all succeed 
while i'm stuck here inside my room
it's all just a game
the real feels like fake
and honestly i don't know what to do
what to do.

*blissom*
the silence is too much to handle
im lost without answers 
i need to you to tell me how 
to forget that you ever believed me
for one fucking second
from 2 years ago till now

and if you showed me 
the way back 
to your heart id find 
theres one more piece you had to lie about to keep on fire

*jauntsen* 
no 
i'm trying to find ways to let it go 
help me lead a path to find my focus 
no one really knows us 
i'm trembling in cycles its been hard for me to show up

is something wrong
cause it doesn't feel right
don't know why i do it 
but i stay up all night
you look so good
and i look like i'm dying 
so what is the purpose of trying

cause nothings ever good enough !

(somethings wrong x6)

let me prove it to you.

nothings ever good enough +blissom

i guess its all for show
prod. junoes 
www.youtube.com/c/junoesdubz
all songs made on this ep were done in two hours at twitch.tv/jauntsen

**part 1 of how i made these songs on yt now!!**
www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKTtpBPHHZk

ONE BG VOX FROM @prodbyaustyn ALSO LMFAO 
also like a couple lines written by twitch chat but also @afumaru
\\lyrics//

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
you said it was impossible
now u wanna finish first like ur unstoppable
i wonder if it's probable 
now everything u think i do is comical
why?

don't forget it's how it goes
i don't wannna waste ur time
well i guess its all for show 
during the time of ur life
x2

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
you just consumed a time laspe 
it's all controlled in my grasp
i slowly fall to my death
i'm holding onto my breath

well i guess it's all for show
but i don't wanna look when u watch it die
well i guess i'll fucking know
when i'm dead tired thinking of these sweet goodbyes

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
you said it was impossible
now u wanna finish first like ur unstoppable
i wonder if it's probable 
now everything u think i do is comical
why?

don't forget it's how it goes
i don't wannna waste ur time
well i guess its all for show 
during the time of ur life
x2

[outro] ~ @jauntsen
don't forget it's how it goes
i don't wannna waste ur time
well i guess its all for show 
during the time of ur life

you said it was impossible
you said it was impossible
you said it was impossible
you said it was impossible for me.

impossible. (junoes)

there's no one talking back.
featuring @prodbyaustyn
prod. grayskies
www.youtube.com/c/grayskies2020
all songs made on this ep were done in two hours at twitch.tv/jauntsen

**part 1 of how i made these songs on yt now!!**
www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKTtpBPHHZk

also like a couple lines written by twitch chat but also @afumaru

\\lyrics//

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
feel my presense beside you 
but your gone its a fact 
but all i hear is the silence
there's no one talking back
you're all that i had 
i watched it fade into black 
i can hear ur voice
i can hear ur laugh
but i watched u die 
i can't forget that
get up! 
i don't wanna let u 
go from my sight 
i know its all just a lie
i just want to feel alive 
once again 

[hook]
get up! get up!
i don't wanna lie down 
too much enegery 
no i don't wanna calm down

promise u said
you'll get the fuck outta bed 
but ur gone
x2

wake up and i'm feeling sick
last thing u said i was just a "piece of shit"
and my mind went blank when u said call it quits
now ur life cut short i take the blame for it 

[verse 2] ~ @prodbyaustyn
i tried my best
not to take it to heart
control myself
that’s a good place to start

spend all my life
just to please
i’m falling down to my knees
cause now you’re one 
with the breeze
and i know it’s not my fault
if only i had answered one last call
lately i have not know what to do

but i don’t know you
and you don’t know me
anymore
than i don’t know you 
and you don’t know me

[hook] ~ @jauntsen & @prodbyaustyn
get up! get up! (than i don't know you)
i don't wanna lie down 
too much enegery (and you don't know me)
no i don't wanna calm down

promise u said
you'll get the fuck outta bed 
but ur gone
x4

wake up and i'm feeling sick
last thing u said i was just a "piece of shit"
and my mind went blank when u said call it quits
now ur life cut short i take the blame for it

get up!! +austyn with a y (grayskies)

I think you're lying to urself
featuring @can-of-bliss
prod. tenniesplayer
www.youtube.com/c/tennisplayerwrld
all songs made on this ep were done in two hours at twitch.tv/jauntsen

\\lyrics//
[verse] ~ @jauntsen
i think ur lying to urself
but it's fine cuz i'm lying too
now u left me don't know what to do
can i go back there!
to a city where i always gotta fly there
u can treat me like i'm nothing fuck if i care
i saw ur note 
don't wanna see you go
again.

it's all i wanna know 
what's on your mind
it can't be said

but you only want me dead 
was that the truth 
was that ur plan

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
it's all a joke 
ur in disguise
like i won't forget that 
u really wanna let this die?
and i can't forget that.

it's all a joke 
ur in disguise
like i won't forget that 
u really wanna let this die?
but i can't let it die!!

maybe i could try to be better 
i hope we get back together
again.
cuz i can't let it die
x2

[verse 2] ~ @can-of-bliss
take a look
deep inside my eyes
u can see thru my disguise
my crystallizing insides
i cant help that im neurotic all the time
i feel guilty for the guilt felt over nothing
theres no reason or rhyme
intrusive thoughts in my mind
i feel my times on ur dime
i cant do this to u anymore

[hook] ~ @jauntsen & @can-of-bliss
it's all a joke 
ur in disguise
like i won't forget that 
u really wanna let this die?
and i can't forget that.

it's all a joke 
ur in disguise
like i won't forget that 
u really wanna let this die?
but i can't let it die!!

maybe i could try to be better 
i hope we get back together
again.
cuz i can't let it die
x2

||disguise|| +can of bliss (tennisplayer)

it's just another day.
featuring @leytonmode
prod. deadyami
www.youtube.com/channel/UCYFn_EeoOs8ZgygQa7wcs9A
all songs made on this ep were done in two hours at twitch.tv/jauntsen

**part 1 of how i made these songs on yt now!!**
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKTtpBPHHZk

\\lyrics//
[verse] ~ @jauntsen 
i watched it all fall away 
but now i understand your pain
i wish that i could see you today

~ @leytonmode
i still see your face everytime i drive over the bridge now 
those days i stayed home and i missed out 
ill spit out all the words get a script down 
i cant tell if its in my head i gotta get out 

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
but i guess it's all we've got 
ain't got no other path
i still see your face
when i go close my eyes
now i think what i said was bad

@leytonmode
(and now im so sad) 
cause i hate sleeping all alone 
im so scared youre somewhere i dont know 
i cant find your address or postcode 
im so done with asking whered you go 

@jauntsen & @leytonmode 
and i won't ask where'd you go!!!

[verse 2] ~ @jauntsen & @leytonmode 
i cant fall asleep and i dont know the reason 
i show love cant seem to recieve it (cuz ur in my dreams!)
ill just stare at the ceiling (and i don't wanna keep the memories)

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
but i guess it's all we've got 
ain't got no other path
i still see your face
when i go close my eyes
now i think what i said was bad

@leytonmode
(and now im so sad) 
cause i hate sleeping all alone 
im so scared youre somewhere i dont know 
i cant find your address or postcode 
im so done with asking whered you go 

[outro] ~ @jauntsen & @leytonmode 
it will be alright
it will be okay
wake up its just another day
x 4 
it's just another day!!!

where'd you go? +leyton (deadyami)

it's only fair that you changed ur mind
featuring @wishlane
additional vox from @kryst3n
prod. waves
www.youtube.com/channel/UCftIUaAdfSxmwI_PrYom3UA
all songs made on this ep were done in two hours at twitch.tv/jauntsen

\\lyrics// 
[verse] ~ @wishlane

and if i left all of the time in the world 
on your doorstep 
would you take it

or break it up into a million pisces
just so you can remake it

if i collaspe into a point in time
and gave up ever possession of mine
would that be fine?

reconcile the indefinite
like its quite alright
it's quite alright
it's quite alright

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
i hate the fact that you left me dry 
it's only fair that you changed your mind
but if i had change to go and get it back
get it back
get it back
get it back
i know it's something i would go try.

[verse 2] ~ @jauntsen
well i guess 
your just stressed
so i'll leave you alone
but i check 
for a message
when i pick up my phone 
i recovered 
replenished
but i can't find my home
it just sucks to be finished
guess i'll be here alone
all alone

[hook] ~ @jauntsen & @kryst3n (bg vox)
i hate the fact that you left me dry 
it's only fair that you changed your mind
but if i had change to go and get it back
get it back
get it back
get it back
i know it's something i would go try. x2

i hate the fact that you left me dry 
it's only fair that you changed your mind
but if i had change to go and get it back
get it back
get it back
get it back
i know it's something id fucking try.
x2

change ur mind,, +wishlane (waves)

[[i'll get what i can take]]

~track [2/5]
from the EP in one day stream!
all songs were made in two hours ^-^ 
follow my twitch for more music streams soon :3
www.twitch.tv/jauntsen

\\ featuring //
+prod from 
@leytonmode
@cherryrizla (guitars)
+vox from
@leastfavorite 
+art by me

\\ lyrics //

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
perfect timing 
don't wanna break this and see it fall
we can work this out if u wanna sit on call
it's all my fault
because the words are coming out 
and i don't feel i'm making sense at all

[verse] ~ @leastfavorite
and i taste sug4r on my t0ngue
and 1 just wanna be r3lied on
and U taste sw33ter play1ng dumb
and thats 0ur hill we're gonn4 ..

make it 4ll my fault that we're h3r3 again
y0u want s0mething else but 1 gotta [whoops ! had a little cough here x3]
g1v3 me s0mething more , give m3 s0mething less
r4ttle all the w0rds out of my h3ad >//<

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
perfect timing 
don't wanna break this and see it fall
we can work this out if u wanna sit on call
it's all my fault
because the words are coming out 
and i don't feel i'm making sense at all

[bridge] ~ @leastfavorite
And we can work this out,
'Cause we've got common ground--
And we both want this.
I know we both really want this.

Fractalline figments give halfway to truth
When you tell me you love me
And I won't believe you.

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
thought i saw the other side 
i swear it was a perfect picture
but now it's flmaing from it's side
we burned it down cause we can't listen 
like what are we missing 
and how i can fix this on my own 
i never wanted to give in
but look at us taking no control
it will be alright

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
perfect timing 
don't wanna break this and see it fall
we can work this out if u wanna sit on call
it's all my fault
because the words are coming out 
and i don't feel i'm making sense at all

[outro] ~ @jauntsen
i don't make sense
why is it not obvious 
i swear i'm gonna break
but i'll get what i can take

perfect timing +leastfavorite! (leyton + cherryrizla)

[[It’s never as easy as we want it to be]] 

~track [1/5] 
from the EP in one day stream!
all songs were made in two hours ^-^ 
follow my twitch for more music streams soon :3 
https://www.twitch.tv/jauntsen

\\ featuring //
+prod from
@ntmusiclol 
+vox from
@clovehitch
+art from
@henryyoder

\\ lyrics  //

[verse] ~ @clovehitch
apparition
floating figure from the water
know it’s all in
my head

drown and detach from
the flickers
that float before my breath
I’ll close my eyes

just to hold you for the morning
trace your shadow, my mirage
and watch it slip away

so
stay with me
ten feet deep
till I come up for air
(it’s never as easy as we want it to be)

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
i just hope that you're real
don't wanna be fake 
i can't even move a musle 
shit i think i'm half awake
say you tryin to take a break
open my eyes 
and it it not the same
they only wanted just to take

i can't believe what i see 
it was all just a dream 
don't wanna wake up 
shit it's all i have
oh my god
i can feel the pressure building up
when i wake
i only wanna see your face 
when i wake up 

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
wake up 
you don't say much
i feel your shadow creeping over my whole place
but you're not even alive

take a look take a step back
six feet down
didn't think that you'd come back
haunting my house
feel the CO leak through
and there's no way out

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
i just hope that you're real
don't wanna be fake 
i can't even move a musle 
shit i think i'm half awake
say you tryin to take a break
open my eyes 
and it it not the same
they only wanted just to take

i can't believe what i see 
it was all just a dream 
don't wanna wake up 
shit it's all i have
oh my god
i can feel the pressure building up
when i wake
i only wanna see your face 
when i wake up 

[outro] ~ @clovehitch & @jauntsen 
you'll never beat the truth of what's real inside my head
(it’s never as easy as we want it to be)

half awake +Clovehitch (nishith)

[[hope i'm valid for that]]

~track [4/5]
from the EP in one day stream!
all songs were made in two hours ^-^
follow my twitch for more music streams soon :3
www.twitch.tv/jauntsen

\\ featuring //
+vox from 
@kryst3n
+prod from
@assperrr
+art by
@henryyoder

\\ lyrics //

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
i guess it's our fate 
keep those feelings intact
we walked down this way
we don't know another path 
and there's not a chance that we'll
find our way back
if there's a chance that we'll match 
hope i'm valid for that

[verse] ~ @kryst3n
pulled me away from you
could tell me all the things i do that break ur heart
we've been drifting so much further now
my mind is hardly holding out 
im choking up
you can't hold me enough
cuz nothings working out for me 
my friends stopped looking out
there's nobody around for me
i lost all the support
you fill me up with blatant lies
you push me out the door 
know its not just a break this time
ur not really serious (x4)
just hold me
tell me that its fine with u if i mess up


[bridge] ~ @jauntsen & @kryst3n
i walked down this road 
don't know where i'm at 
i followed these faces 
there staring right back
i believe it was intentional
all because who that i am 
there's no going 

back from this place
i can feel it inside 
there's nowhere to hide
cross your fingers i know that you lied
and if there is a chance that i could say one more goodbye
i would mess it up i would leave you behind.

[hook] ~ @jauntsen & @kryst3n
i guess it's our fate 
keep those feelings intact
we walked down this way
we don't know another path 
and there's not a chance that we'll
find our way back
if there's a chance that we'll match 
hope i'm valid for that

[outro] ~ @jauntsen & @kryst3n
i guess it's our fate
i don't see another place 
that we'll end up 
if you need a hand 
i will lend one your way
and i'm so fuckin sick of saying 
it's another day 
and there's no other way 
it's just another day

valid for that +kryst3n (asperr)

[[i can't be bothered to do something for once]]

~track [5/5]
from the EP in one day stream!
all songs were made in two hours ^-^
follow my twitch for more music streams soon :3
www.twitch.tv/jauntsen

\\ featuring //
+vox from
@saoirsedream
+prod from
@prodbyaustyn
+art by
@henryyoder

\\ lyrics //

[intro] ~ @jauntsen
please leave me out
i can't be bothered to do something for once
it's my bad i know you don't even care
but you should!

[verse] ~ @saoirsedream
don't pick up the clothes on my floor
i've got a system for it all
if you catch the sock on my door 
i'm not fuckin it's just supposed to be there
i get that it doesn't make sense 
sorry my bad i inconvenienced your friends 
dress my best doesn't ever make sense
sorry my bad it's just that lately my meds
don't do much
bad at both ends and it cancels out 
and i'm back to where i started
can't ever stop stop making changes 
routines my clothes 
how i arrange them

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
so i'll just sit down
i got 10 half water bottles in my room
i'm a let down 
haven't dusted in weeks 
maybe today's gonna be the day i wash my sheets 
(ew)
j-j-just kidding imma do it next week! 
i'm just rotting in my bed i hope she text me
i'm so fucking gay 
dirty plates around my room when i cuddle with my plushies
this room wouldn't be dirty if i had some money..
(but you won't get that)

you're unemployed jas! 
i got health conditions opps i guess its my bad ;-;
it's an excuse i like to make whenever i'm sad </3
i'm so small and full of coke just like a dime bag (hehe)
lost my motherfucking charger hope i find that >:(

[hook] ~ @saoirsedream
i get that it doesn't make sense 
sorry my bad i inconvenienced your friends 
dress my best doesn't ever make sense
sorry my bad it's just that lately i'm dead!

my bad +saoirse dream (austyn with a y)

[[don't push me it's a long way down]]

~track [3/5]
from the EP in one day stream!
all songs were made in two hours ^-^
follow my twitch for more music streams soon :3
www.twitch.tv/jauntsen

\\ featuring //
+prod from
@futureseeker
+art by
@henryyoder

\\ lyrics //

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
i hit the ground
and i don't stop running
hit you with a left hook
you never saw it coming
not gonna wait this time
this fuckin game is mine

only way to truly make it is to find out
who's the one who took my pride it's mine now
i cannot let this go
i'll find a way cause it's all i know
i swear,.

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
i took to long and i'm not letting it slide
it fuckin hurts i think i'm useless but i'm changing my mind
lets leave can't do it again bitch i'm staying inside
i'm feeling better but i'm taking every day at a time
every day at a time
but i'm still not in my prime
and i ain't choosing no sides
ill take each day at at time
you're waiting long in this line
i'm on the edge of this climb
and i ain't choosing no sides
i'll take each day at a time

guess what?
you know i won't call back
how many times have you missed?
you should've solved that
now
i'm calling it quits
while you're just running around
i thought we'd go for a "fresh start" (old jauntsen song)
but "nvm" (ANOTHER OLD JAUNTSEN SONG OMG??!)
how could you play me!
asking if we'll restart
now? never? maybe?
the answer is no
you know that you could never make me
cause things ain't been the same here lately
you can do what you want
cause you break'd me (bruh idk i had like 2 minutes to finish the song on stream idk what this lyric means)

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
when it dies down
within the winter time
i hope that you can find a sense of clarity
it's scaring me
i just need to find the part that keeps me sane
but can't you bare with me
i can barely breathe
don't push me it's a long way down!!

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
i hit the ground
and i don't stop running
hit you with a left hook
you never saw it coming
not gonna wait this time
this fuckin game is mine

only way to truly make it is to find out
who's the one who took my pride it's mine now
i cannot let this go
i'll find a way cause it's all i know
i swear,.

[outro] ~ @jauntsen
cause it's all i know i swear,
i'm gonna make it out of here.
do you truly even care
i'm gonna make it out!
i'm gonna make it out!!

cause it's all i know i swear,
i'm gonna make it out of here.
try and stop me man i fucking dare you..
i'm gonna make it out!
i'm gonna make it out!!

hit the ground (futureseeker)

||you can't let go if you don't want to||

~track [2/13]

🦋 \\ featuring // 🦋
~+vox from
@leytonmode
+ prod me & @leytonmode

+ additional prod from
@anem0s
@assperrr

mix + master by me~

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋
{{tts}}
this scares me.
i feel like someone isn't fully telling the truth
maybe it's both of us who are lying

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
god damn
i guess it is up to me
overflown with this fear so naturally
but it's time to let this go
cos' i can't take it any longer
who's this girl you claimed to be yourself
you wronged her
here's the path you paved can't run away
it's not a offer
guess its up to me
i broke the mirror out of spite
just to find a clue
now the bloods all on my hands don't know what to do

cause you're see through
did i say something wrong?
didn't mean to
i'll think it over and over again
i took a step into this life
can't get back what i spent
it's all my fault
can't take the blame
like this was my plan

i forgot who to trust
who's lying
is it me
is it us?
cos' i can't read you
page is burning i might give up
how to think
watch it crash in front of me
it's just the thought of you leaving
i cannot fathom the feeling of letting go

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen & @leytonmode
i keep buying time just to waste it all
years keep flying by things don't change at all
if there were words to say
i can't explain the way
it's got me feeling
i have to let it go

it's all you ever wanted to be
take a look
mirrored vision
of the person that you see
that you see.

{{tts}}
you are know listening to butterfly effect

[verse] ~ @leytonmode
you left me down with my face in the street
had to be blunt u won’t face it with me
get you out of my head I been waiting a week
that’s some shit u can’t see, u did it to me
keep creeping up, u had me thinking I wasn’t enough
its tough, I really gave u my trust
ashes that turn into dust, im all out of luck

don’t fuss just let me pass away
cause I can’t fuck the past away
now ill say what I have to say
go in circles like baggage claim
this isn’t what we planned out, another man down
thinking how u left me down on the ground
chipping my teeth and ur breaking my crown

{{tts}}
it's only just your life.

[hook]~ @jauntsen
don't be scared
pick up your hands
you know it's bad to leave them on the ground
you're bound for something bigger than this

don't be scared
pick up your hands
you know it's bad to leave them on the ground
it's a fallacy that you'll make it out
you can't win if you don't even make a sound

{{tts}}
you can't let go if you don't want to

don't be scared!
pick up your ha-ha-ha hands!
you know it's
bad!!
to leave them on
BAD!!!
to leave them on (make it out)
you can't win if you don't even make a sound
it's a fallacy that you'll make it out
make it out!!
don't be SCARED!!!!

don't be scared +leyton

[[what else can you truly do now]]
butterfly effect album soon.
~track [8/13]

prod. me~
mix + master by me~

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋
{{tts}}
what else can you truly do now

[song] ~ @jauntsen

i'm running out of things to do
(im running away, i don't know what to do)
just think with your brain
my fate was a lie
watch it fall into place
(i can't see you)
just point a direction you know
you'll follow you'll follow me home
(please don't let go x2)
it's not your fault.
that i'm like this
i want you to know
i tried
my best
you gotta do better than that
i cannot find where my worth is
think i'm worthless
i'm so ready to leave it behind but i don't wanna go
no i don't wanna go x2
you can't let it define you
you've been trapped in your mind too much
and you can't find a way out
let me open a door
it's coming any day now
don't think i'm ready to play
there's no way i could afford that plane.
you know if i could i'd go everyday
i'd go everyday.
i'd go ever-

say your goodbyes x3

define you

||see you soon||
just a little something to hold off till my album,,,

prod me ykyky

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
i know you're trying your way
but it's not what you planned
the mark i made on this place
that is not who i am
but who am i to say "no" to..
(i give it my all)
it's so true
but people always look saying
"do i even know you?"
no you don't
but will soon will find out
(one day)
imma lose my mind now.

[hook]
cause i'm going crazy this is never what i wanted
be honest
it feels so different from when i started
i never thought i'd ever reach a point like this
but i'm just trying to make a difference
i just wanna fucking live my life

[verse 2]
but i don't wanna have to leave this all behind
but i don't know how
and you don't know when
the cycle will repeat it's self i just want it to end
but i'm stuck sitting here saying better luck next time
i just hope the next time i'll be there
until then i'll be spinning around while you stare
i got some shit i'm tryin to say i gotta prove it
instead i'm letting it die

[hook]
cause i'm going crazy this is never what i wanted
be honest
it feels so different from when i started
i never thought i'd ever reach a point like this
but i'm just trying to make a difference
i just wanna fucking live my life

[outro]
its time that you look inside
you would never believe who i could find
it's coming soon i promise on my life
you just gotta believe that you're on time.

live my life

||you just gotta wait||

~track [10/13]

🦋 \\ credits // 🦋
+vox from
@corefish
+ co writing credits 
@bdsm2

art by me and @bdsm2
prod me.
mix + master by me :3

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[intro] ~ @jauntsen
I’ve been looking at the countdown
hoping it’ll be better by tomorrow
their words I’ll have to drown out
It will be better by tomorrow

{{tts}}
you are now listening to butterfly effect.

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
you said that you got it, i want it, be honest
the answer, i found out, i think that, i lost it 
i'm spinning, i'm nauseous, there's no way, to stop
your airways, are toxic, quit breathing, quit talking
i can't wait for sudden changes
or ill fuck up my life throw it all away
just give me a time and place
a period of grace

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
just give me a week
give me a month
maybe I’ll find out what I want
just give me a break
there is no escape
I’ve lived my whole just to rinse and repeat

[post hook] ~ @jauntsen
things will all be be better by tomorrow
It will be better by tomorrow
you just gotta wait

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
If you want time to yourself
don't abuse it and turn into waste
cos lifes not a game
so why are we playing with me
as society plays with your brain
you talk all the same
run in a circle the rules are to blame 
you don't even know my name

[verse 2] ~ @corefish
I'm far gone enough just to suffer again
hold on to love but I cannot defend 
obvious things aren't the same as they could have been 
now I rinse this body clean 
I'm always afraid of what I couldn't sense
it's all in the plan and the pain heaven sent 
now I've been thinking bout you with cold feet just hold me 
pockets heavy and you told me
"just give me a week"

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
just give me a week
give me a month
maybe I’ll find out what I want
just give me a break
there is no escape
I’ve lived my whole just to rinse and repeat

[post hook] ~ @jauntsen
things will all be be better by tomorrow
it will be better by tomorrow
you just gotta wait.

rinse & repeat +corefish

haven't felt this in a while...

guitar done by me!
love u all hope 2021 will be a better year for us all <3

[lyrics]

haven't felt this in a while
it's time to go switch up my style
never could buy i'm on trial shit
just give me the number i'll dial it
x2

feels like i'm back where u wanted 
alone in my room where it started 
the vibes only here if i'm makin it
i don't feel time or the passion for faking it

good
i wish i could 
not
tear this apart
its the only other way that we can 
have a fresh start 
a fresh start 

sorry i disappeared
i don't want no one to interfere
with me in my inner sphere
did i say it clear?
do you understand?   
if you truly care about me why'd you leave it then?
but then come back around 
only cause i'm better 
how'd u feel back when i said that i am leaving do you think i'm joking now?
is it funny now
the only joke is how
you acted i've been too distracted 
leaving you on open now

haven't felt this in a while
it's time to go switch up my style
never could buy i'm on trial shit
just give me the number i'll dial it
x2

oh my god
you left 
oh my god...
you left 
oh my god...

fresh start (midsummer)

my name is jasmine
it's only just your life. ♡ ´･ᴗ･ `♡
butterfly effect 🦋

jauntsen

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