chunky, meaty track with some real girth in the mid section

help me want me

Sinister

*Lyrics below*

What is home? Does it have to be something outside of ourselves, or can it be found within our own bodies if we truly accept them as they are?

This song explores the idea of feeling at home in our bodies—the parts of us that carry us through life, through every joy and pain. We often think of “us” as the part that does the thinking, while our bodies seem separate, even foreign at times. Many of us struggle with aspects of our bodies—how they age, how they sometimes fail us, how they differ from what we wish them to be. In moments of frustration, it’s easy to blame or neglect our physical selves, but in doing so, we overlook their worth.

Our bodies are a rare gift, a chance to experience this world for a moment before returning to stardust. This song is about learning to see our bodies as our true home, deserving of care, acceptance, and respect.

LYRICS

I wonder if a wandering whale feels lonely
Drifting through the silent sea, never belonging
If air isn’t my home, what’s water to her?
Are we both lost, not sure where we were?

But maybe lone whales never yearn for a home
Gliding through ocean waves in their splendid form
Their body a guide, a shelter through storm
What else would it be, if not where they belong?

Isn’t my body my home?
My true home
Like the lone wandering whales
Always belong wherever they roam

When did I start treating you like a stranger?
Blaming you over again when I see the mirror
From my first 'til last breath
Through joy and regret
Everything I’ve felt, I felt through this skin

Isn’t my body my home?
My true home
Like the lone wandering whales
Always belong wherever they roam

We are stardust
We are stardust
We are stardust
We are stardust

Wandering Whale

One of my favs songs I've released so far :)

To The Moon

HERE'S AN INDIE SONG (5' 4")

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Good Times

Verse 1
How many calls can I make tonight?
How many regrets can my fingers type?
I’ve been away for long
I’ve been away for long 

Maybe bed bugs bite tonight
Toss and turn and grip your pillow tight
I haven’t changed for long
I’ll never change for long

Chorus
And wouldn’t you like that?
Did you think it’d be easier if you were on your own
Oh I’m not coming home
And wouldn’t you like that?
Did you think it’d be easier if you were on your own
Oh I’m not coming home

Verse 2
Stay out driving way to late
One hand on the wheel one on the brake
Oh how I hate this road
But there’s no where to go

And here I am I’ve gone to far
Throwing prescription pills around my car
I need to find some peace
Or maybe a good night’s sleep

Chorus
And wouldn’t you like that?
Did you think it’d be easier if you were on your own
Oh I’m not coming home
And wouldn’t you like that?
Did you think it’d be easier if you were on your own
Oh I’m not coming home

Outro
Why won’t you let me come home now
Closest I’ve come to doing something dumb, pick up the phone now
Baby let me come home now

Why won’t you let me come home now
Closest I’ve come to doing something dumb, pick up the phone now
Baby let me come home now

Why won’t you let me come home now
Closest I’ve come to doing something dumb, pick up the phone now
Baby pick up the phone now

Why won’t you let me come home now
Closest I’ve come to doing something dumb, pick up the phone now
Baby pick up the phone now

Home

Produced by @quitall mixed and mastered by @jaisairin

Lyrics:
I have the bestest friends I had
Nothing compares to want you back (isn’t that so sad?)
The city lights they look amazing
Although they help to drive me crazy
I always thought that I’d be something
The more that I find out
I’ll never really amount to nothing
The more that I dry out

You take the sunshine, I’ll take the train
These drunken nights help numb the pain
Please tell me why I feel this way
One day, maybe this will make me great, it’ll make me great

(ohh)
I try, I try, and I try again (I try, I try, I try)
To not think of you every now and then (I try, I try, I try)
I think of you just to feel something (I think of you, but in the end)
But in the end, I’m stuck with nothing (tell me, tell me, tell me)
Tell me, how do I get a move on? (Stayed here too long)
And if I’m right, just let me be wrong (Let me be wrong)
I always thought that I’d be something
The more that I find out
I’ll never really amount to nothing
The more that I dry out

You take the sunshine, I’ll take the train
These drunken nights help numb the pain (they numb the pain, they numb the pain)
Please tell me why I feel this way
One day, maybe this will make me great, it’ll make me great

help me want me

knee pain