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Written by Kai Straw
Produced Kai Straw
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by KloudM

LYRICS:
I don’t think I’m even good enough
I should quit while I’m behind
I feel like I’m biting aluminum
They’re saying what’s happened to Kai?
They’re telling me don’t ever take a break
They tell me you win or you die
They tell me not winning is my only sin and
To give into sin is to piss in the mind 
Yeah, I’m not addicted to liquor 
Put the glass down, you could pass out 
Yeah, but if me winning was served with a lemon
Throw the cap out, I would blackout, yeah
I gotta keep winning to cover my limits
and forget the trauma I’ve been in
If I’m not on top, I can feel it
the proof that I’m nothing, I’m no one, I’m finished
I’ve gotta get up
I need validation and love
I need a whole nation of love
I gotta make up for the vacancy of it
I don’t see my pain in the face of the public
So look at me, follow me, I’m gonna covet it
Help me forget I forgot how to love me
I need me a hit of anonymous loving
To feel for a minute that I’m more than nothing to you
Yeah, ooh, I got something to prove
Soon as I step in the booth
This is me fighting abuse
This is me wanting to use
Yeah, who needs the vodka?  I got your attention
I see tequila dripping from the comment section
And blunt smoke in every like and mention
I got some new drugs
I can feel good when the views come
I’m checking my phone to consume some
Of that crack, that double tap that, I’m a user
And I’m used to, yeah, looking outside of myself, yeah
Trynna find my worth in the eyes of someone else
Yeah, if I don’t win I’m scum, yeah
If I’m number one, yeah, no that’s not enough
If I don’t love my own self
I’ve gotta unlearn being concerned about all this
Ain’t nobody on earth is flawless
I don’t wanna seek applause, it’s
outside of me, it ain’t mine
I wanna feel better, no fear in the mind,
No beer in the hand, envy in the eye,
Or anything but, thank God, I’m alive
And thank God I’m alive
Drunk driving at night with a mind full of self-hate
Another night, ‘nother midnight milkshake
Another fight with the hell my self made, like damn
How many cuts are by my hands?
How much poison’s from my soul?
What bad luck is just the man?
Like how much of me is trapped by “I am”
Which of my demons came from my damage?
What enemies came from my land?
How much of what I can’t do is what I won’t do
And what I blame it on is how I cope through it
And what I’m hating on is how I show you
It’s like I’ve had a war inside of myself
Like I opened up a door when I was like twelve
And then every morning forward, no matter my health,
I would wake up in the mud and I’m done with it
Waking up like, wow, this again?
This face, this town I’m living in, sinning in
I wanna live, I wanna finally get some new drugs
Like give me that fanny pack and that food truck
And maybe I’m stuck with just one chick, my medusa
I wanna see the sunset as a gift, hallelujah
And I got two bucks to my name, so what
I’m a new buddha
I wanna feel calm in the jaws of a barracuda
Laying in my blood and I still got love for my shooter
Rewind everybody, we’re the same, unmade, no doula
Look at everything you want and hate and face your ruler

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produced by: SoundMindBeats & Luccid Production
mixed & mastered: SoundMindBeats & Luccid Production

in a world of my own... 🖤💭

You're not alone.

Thank you to all the DJs/Producers that made this mix possible. 

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For the unseen. Enjoy.

Lyrics by me.
Beat by In Bloom.

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I've Got Problems

Lyrics:
Im walking down the street with a blade all in my abdomen
i tried to do the seppuku it couldn't do the master in
Scarred flawed manic struggle dancing on his path of sin
I thought i had friends but i only had mannequins
don't get to excited over-rated are the ratios
hate for breakfast with a side of eggs and felatio
whole sale souls leave holes where they woulda been
never find time for mine im holding up my crooked ends
never found his footing now im looking for that wooden den
pushing daisies wonder what they cooking in the butchers pen
tell me that im paranoid for conformation bias
doing conga lines of coke until i compromise my sinus
i hate being sad but i fucking love to hide it 
sometimes i cry when i cant stand the sound of silence
my dad wanna know what im doing with this life of mine
and mom wanna now why i smiled less than half the time
in the past four months, i should pass more blunts
thats probably not the answer oh well thats rough
you get what you ask (for) and i don't ask for much
don't stand on that ledge if ya legs cant jump like
pass me another blunt i think i'm feeling sober
everybody suicidal but afraid to go first

pass me another blunt i think i'm feeling sober
everybody suicidal but afraid to go first
running out of luck i peeled a petal off the clover
as a youngin' i was rushing didn't know time cost more when you're older

Mixed//Mastered by Benjamin Barnett

I've Got Problems

Jay Carnage Jay