loser

sick

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@anjiwdoves on ig
i played the guitar on dis 2

lyrics: 
u planted seeds in my mind. it led to me wasting time. and almost losing my mind. i said i hate you alex. hate you alex. hate you alex. hate you alex. i cant believe i let u play ur tricks on me. u led me wrong and fed me lies that i believed. oh tell me i cant believe that i still think abt u. i get high and cant control what i do. i thought u knew but u aint got a clue. knew from the start that i was leaving u blue. i hate u alex and everything u do.

alexandria

Jaydes uploaded this on instagram he deleted it shortly after posting it

Mandy-murder porn (snippet)

Untitled6 (ONLY MONOLOGUE)

by: @anjiwdoves

lyrics:
i didnt even tell u
i didnt need to tell u anyways
ill still b okay
in the end its all the same
but u made everything go away
ur like a tattoo stuck to my brain
i j cant seem to forget ur name
and i dont wanna try again w sm1 new
cuz i still feel a way abt u 
im scared that its gon happen again
so maybe were better off friends
in the end its all the same
maybe im j scared of getting hurt
idk i never felt this way b4
im probably the worst
but do i still miss u? of course
u changed so much this year
while u left me here
and im still tryna get out
everything feels so weird
without you here
and im still tryna figure it out

all the same

@jaydeschrist
same lyrics as plead, original or second rendition

jaydes - plead/darkness (alternative)

jaydes - break my head open let the thoughts bleed out (mandy)

jaydes - seduce me vocals

jaydes & skel - wipe ur tears (best version)

the will to an end

only wanna make you happy 
sometimes wonder if i can
bear the expense of things 
put on me like some atlassian
there's nothing left to be holdn on to 
i didn't already find
on a fool’s journey through 
unconsciousnesses sacred heart and mind
standing showing barely growing
beneath the hedgerow treason is taking
hold

there’s a place where we escape 
inside our minds
some take the trip more often
desperate again to keep it aligned
but when the weight’s not worth the lift 
I feel heaven's light
shrugging shoulders are here for you 
to lean on in case the end just might—
arms left empty but still’ve got plenty 
of problems to haul around with nothing to
hold

so let’s go chase the new whatever until this feels fine
let’s go chase the new whatever just to feel fine
go chase the new whatever together we can waste our time
let’s go chase the new whatever until the end of time
shaking steady at the ready 
releasing control reason is taking
hold

if anything is holdn me from being pure love 
all the time
pull out the anchor
unfurl the sheet
snap off the mooring line
abort the mission 
that i got roped in 
before i realized
that I can’t match up to my higher self 
weighed down by lies
standing showing barely growing
beneath the hedgerow treason is taking
hold