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Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Produced by septfree x maestrowons

Lyrics

Baby I'm so sorry for what I did
Really miss your body up on my skin
Really wish you'd call me but I get it
Cause I'm not him and he's not Ken

Everyone I love leaves me
I know that I'm prolly the reason
Wanna stop my breathing when I can't stop my thinking
I made you my anchor is that why I'm still sinking?

I'm alone, you don't care, I been on my death bed
Where'd you go? I don't know, can't get out my damn head
Want you but don't need you, I still see you in my dreams now
Call you, know I shouldn't but it's been eating at me now

I get treated like a joke but I swear that this shit not funny
I chased you for so damn long, I think that I'm a fucking dummy
I can feel all of this pain up from my head down to my tummy
Ever since the third grade, I knew my life would be bummy

Tryna break these habits ain't been easy
I turn into someone else, I don't want you to see me
I don't even wanna see myself when I be fiending
I look in the mirror all I see is someone greedy

Can't appreciate what I been given
When all I do is think about the shit I ain't been gettin'
Something gotta shake cause I don't feel like I been winning
I thought it was dark until I seen the light start dimming

Wonder why nobody wanna know me
Then I realized I don't even fucking know me
I can't blame nobody
For not wanting to be around a nobody

I'm so sorry for what I did
To all these heads, I left mislead
I didn't mean to, they did it to me to
But that don't mean that I can't try to make my wrongs right

don't know, don't care.

Lyrics

Everything is so bad
Everything is so wrong
Hate is all my heart has
That's why I don't make love songs

If I say I love you what I really mean
Is I wish I could love you, I don't feel a thing
I don't feel peace, I don't feel pain
I don't feel pride, I don't feel shame

If there is something I do feel
Then it's a void that I won't fill
I been so hurt and I won't heal
I needed you but you don't still

Where did you go? Why don't you call?
I needed you but you don't care at all
You found someone else but I'm still just alone
I need some help but I'll say that I don't

I don't really wanna go on, I feel stuck, I just wanna go
I don't wanna talk to no one, play a song if you wanna know
What I got in my brain, what I wake up and face
What I ask God for strength for when on my own I'd break

I'm not an angel, I'm not a demon
I'm just a human with addictions, I'm fiending 
Want it don't need it but I want it so bad
I convince myself I need it and I set myself back

Everything is so bad
Everything is so wrong
Hate is all my heart has
That's why I don't make love songs

If I say I love you what I really mean
Is I wish I could love you, I don't feel a thing
I don't feel peace, I don't feel pain
I don't feel pride, I don't feel shame

If there is something I do feel
Then it's a void that I won't fill
I been so hurt and I won't heal
I needed you but you don't still

Where did you go? Why don't you call?
I needed you but you don't care at all
You found someone else but I'm still just alone
I need some help but I'll say that I don't

spotify.

7SPHERE. | Produced by living puff x miitya‬

Produced by Jacob Lincoln x Steve Crabtree

Lyrics

An arsonist
My heart is burning in
This hell I've made a home
It's getting harder
It's making me think that I 
Am not worth all I know
And I can see the light
It's not so hard to go

I feel a darkness ahead
How can I turn back so far?
Will life make sense when I'm dead?
Do I play only a part?

I fought so hard to get here
But now it's all breaking down
Did all my love disappear?
I think I'll die in this town

I need to get out before
It's all too late for my soul
I see that silver between
It's not enough, I need more

No one else saw what I seen
No one else felt what I feel
I'm sick of all of these dreams
I only want what is real

But I can't tell cause everything I see is never what it seems
I'm stuck in hell but I don't have a seat, I think I'm in the lead
I hear the bells once it gets to three
I'll open up to see
The last thing that I ever will, then I guess I'll leave

An arsonist
My heart is burning in
This hell I've made a home
It's getting harder
It's making me think that I 
Am not worth all I know
And I can see the light
It's not so hard to go

my heart is an arsonist.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Tryna change is hard
Don't know where to start
It's so many parts
I can't see it all
I turned off my heart
I can't turn it on
I got all this pain
I can't turn it off

Never got no help
I been on my own
Everything I felt
You could never know
I came out my shell
I was vulnerable
You sent me to hell
Now my heart is stone

I be needing help
And I don't ever ask
And I lost all my hope
And I can't get that back
What's the point if I did?
I won't ever have that girl back again
No one could turn on those feelings within
She has that key and she won't unlock it

i turned off my heart.

Produced by flower

Lyrics

Wait right here, I'll be back in the morning
Don't know why I still call, I know you'll ignore it
Don't know why I care at all, I'm not important
Told me that you needed space but you just needed more him

Less me, you won't help me
Think about you all the time, I know that this ain't healthy
So sad, you're the best I ever had
And I gotta cope with the fact that you wish you never met me

Never learned to let go, all I know is hold on
Baby hold on, you're all that I know
I'm incapable of moving on, so I can't go on
You left me for him but babygirl I don't got no one

Don't got no one, babygirl I'm broken
Don't try to save me cause I know it's hopeless
Why you hate me? Never did you no wrong
Should've known that you were faking when you said you'll come

Pick me up, save me from my doom
They think that I'm great, I just scream inside a room
All I know is pain so I turn it to a tune
By the time that I'm done, don't know what I turned into

Don't know what I turned into, I don't know what I should do
I been talking to myself cause I cannot talk to you
Mean I can but I know that you won't care
Where you at? Told me that you'd always be here
Fuck this, I don't wanna be here
You said be right back but you went to see him
I won't ever see you again, I won't ever see you again

i'll be back in the morning.

Lyrics

I act like I don't but girl I miss you
Every thought of you cost me another tissue
I don't wanna make another similar issue
So I won't another get as close as I let you
Come back, please, come back, I'm so sorry
I didn't mean to hurt you, I know the cost now
But if you somehow hear my heart out
I'm sorry that I put our loves flame spark out
If you feel like it's not you I'm talking about know I miss Oats too
I miss all the times we would say some weird shit
When we spent all our nights watching shit on Netflix
I want back all I let go, I fucking hate it, I don't wanna feel love no more

LRG. (2019)

Produced by GAXILLIC

Lyrics

Can you come back now?
Baby, you been gone long enough by my count
We can't keep this up if you keep bringing me down
I just want your love but you don't want me around
Why do you hate me now?
Why can't I let you go? even if I could, I wouldn't, you're all I know
I say that I hate you but you know that I don't
Will I ever move on? I don't wanna move on
So I guess that we know

And I keep making these songs and I don't think that I'll stop
'Cause babe you're all that I need
I ain't say you could go, why the fuck did you leave?
Where the fuck are you now?
Sorry, I got pissed off
Can you tell me you love me? Don't care if it's false
Can you tell me you care? I don't care if you lie
Girl, I just need to hear it then I'll be just fine

Can you come back now?
Baby, you been gone long enough by my count
We can't keep this up if you keep bringing me down
I just want your love but you don't want me around
Why do you hate me now?
Why can't I let you go? even if I could, I wouldn't, you're all I know
I say that I hate you but you know that I don't
Will I ever move on? I don't wanna move on
So I guess that we know

okay, you can come back now...

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this

"ken, I fucking hate you"

I won't ever know why I'm like this
Everything I touch falls apart, I'm not Midas
I gave her my heart, she ran away, and I can't find it
I can't leave my past behind 'cause I still live inside it

Tried to run away from the darkness but I can't because it lives inside of me, I'm heartless
All I do is talk to fucking ghosts in this apartment
I don't wanna be alive, I wanna be a carcass
I know that I probably shouldn't say that
But it's what I really feel and I can't fake that
This microphone the only one that hears me
This microphone the only thing that heals me
Why'd you ever leave me? Don't you know I'm still bleeding?
Don't you know I'm still needing? Don't you know I'm still fiending?

I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this
I won't ever know why I'm like this

I won't ever know why I'm like this
Everything I touch falls apart, I'm not Midas
I gave her my heart, she ran away, and I can't find it
I can't leave my past behind 'cause I still live inside it

i won't ever know why i'm like this.

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

Can you tell me what you want? So I can give you what you want
Girl, I thought you were the one but I lost you, now I don't know what I want
And I wanna feel love so bad but I lost my heart when you left
When I showed you all my fears, you just looked at me and laughed

"detmer"

7 DAYS LATER YOU'RE GONE AND YOU ALREADY HAD SOMEONE
SO I GUESS YOU WERE PLANNING TO LEAVE ME RIGHT FROM THE BEGINNING OF US ALL ALONG
HOW THE FUCK COULD I BE SO STUPID? WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU MAKE ME DO THIS?
WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME WHILE BLACKOUT DRUNK AND THEN ACT SO CLUELESS?

"garrett"

I WOULD NEVER DO YOU LIKE THAT, HOW COULD YOU MOVE ON SO FAST?
WHY THE FUCK DID I STAY SO LONG WHEN YOU TREATED ME JUST LIKE TRASH?
AND MY HEART STILL GOT THOSE SCARS AND MY HAND STILL GOT THAT SCRATCH
GIRL I WAITED FOR YOU FOR SO LONG JUST SO YOU COULD COME BACK AND LEAVE ME IN THE PAST

ALL THIS PAIN I BE HOLDING, AIN'T NO WONDER I END UP BROKEN
AIN'T NO WONDER I END UP CRYING, AIN'T NO WONDER I FEEL SO HOPELESS
IN MY HEART AIN'T NO LOVE LEFT INSIDE IT, ALL MY ARTERIES FULL OF CORROSION
BUT IT'S COOL CAUSE I'M JUST GONNA HIDE IT, I JUST SPOKE UP, DON'T ASK HOW I WROTE IT

Can you tell me what you want? So I can give you what you want
Girl, I thought you were the one but I lost you, now I don't know what I want
And I wanna feel love so bad but I lost my heart when you left
When I showed you all my fears, you just looked at me and laughed

7 DAYS LATER!

Produced by septefree

Lyrics

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mask some more

And I wear it so proudly I don’t want nobody else around me
When I’m like this because I already know
They’ll tell me thеy care even though that thеy don’t
Don’t understand but they say that they do
You don’t feel me and I don’t feel you
I close my eyes and pretend that it’s you when she talking to me if I’m telling the truth
I don’t know what I want, if I can’t have you, I don’t want no one
‘Cause you’re all I want but you don’t want me
I don’t know what I did that would make you leave
Can you tell me why you left what we had to be with that guy?
You’ll always be perfect inside my eyes, I built a home for you in my mind

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is that you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mess some more

if i can't have you.

Produced by NewWhiteBoy, zestymain, mollyred
Art by: @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

This is the end, all I do is fuck up, I'll make sure I don't again
I don't give a fuck about you, I don't wanna be your friend
No one gave a fuck about me, all I wanted was a friend

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

I can't heal the void inside my soul
You ain't gotta check on me cause I'm already gone
Give me one more night, I don't want you to go
I got something in my mind, I don't wanna let you know

It gets to a point and I don't see it anymore
Sometime real soon you won't see me anymore
Got a soul parasite, I won't feed it anymore
What's the point in tryna fight if I won't be here anymore?

Don't feel bad when something happens
I should of never even made it this far, it was all an accident
Speeding down the highway, hope I have an accident
There too much on my plate and I can't stomach half of it

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

it gets to a point and i don't see it anymore.

Produced by abysswa1ker

Lyrics

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
I said you were meant for me and you said that's so dumb of me
You're my missing puzzle piece, don't waste yo time tryna run from me

You told me to be myself, now you say I'm scaring you
You lied through your teeth with every breath
Said "Ken, I'll be there for you"
You lied, I called, you didn't pick up, I hope that you hear this

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
Look at what you did to us, look at what you did to me
I would take a bullet for you, you wouldn't take a hit for me

I don't wanna make plans, I want my history
I thought you were the best I had but you were just a bitch to me
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO US, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME

LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME

Look at what you did to us, look at what you did to me, look at what you did to us

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
I said you were meant for me and you said that's so dumb of me
You're my missing puzzle piece, don't waste yo time tryna run from me

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO US, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME

pessimistic playlist.

Produced by diemadeway x krovarxiv

Lyrics

Said every word that I possibly can
Guess that I won't ever heal and I tried to be good but I really don't think that I can

"ken, i fucking hate you"

I don't care about shit, they don't care about ken
She told me she got a man but I'm still in her pants, like bitch I don't care about him

Honestly I don't even care about her
Made up my mind but I'm still not sure
My only opp myself, might off myself
Fuck around put myself on a shirt

Can't get better but I can get worse
I done tried everything, still ain't work
I ain't even hurting no more, just god damn numb
I don't know what I've become

I don't what I am, I don't know what I should do
It don't matter which way I go, I'ma be wrong with whatever I choose
I guess somebody's gotta fail and I guess that it's gonna be me
I never even felt real, I don't really care if I leave

You ain't gotta act like you care about me, I ain't gone act like I care about you
This ain't an act, I don't care about streams
This where I go when I don't know what to do
Not a performer, I do not care what you think about me cause I am what I am

I watched a movie and tattooed "detmer, garrett" on my arm

There ain't shit you could say that could cause me harm
I made a halo out of my horns
Already told you it's darker than black
I ain't stuck in the rain, bitch I'm stuck in a storm

Every line, no lie
I'm not alive, I'm just waiting to die
Death is the ticket I'm waiting to buy
Don't even ask, I ain't telling you why

Heartbroken harmony, why she ain't calling me?
My love life kinda like the economy, I need a lot but I ain't got enough
Tried to move on but I think I'm stuck
You is not her, I don't want your love
Told me you cared but I called your bluff
I wasn't worth it, I'm not enough

Clock keep spinnin' but I'm stuck in place
Wish I could vanish and leave no trace
Hurting inside but a smile on my face
No one knows what I hold inside
I don't like my head, want a hole in mine
I need a hand, can you hold mine?
You been the problem the whole time

heartbroken harmony.

Produced by vertigo x centrlx

Lyrics

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

All I feel is anguish, feel like I'm corroding
Nothing could extinguish all the flames when I'm exploding
I'm on a new level, I think you're still loading
Im not saying that I'm better, I'm already where you're going

I can't let you stop me, I cannot let you delay me
Please don't waste yo time, I'm out my mind & you can't change me
Girl, I appreciate the fact you tried but you can't save me
I never wanted to leave june in july but now you hate me

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

bitter ballad.

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