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Lyrics;
I try to think of all the reasons,
Why you stay instead of leaving me.
I'm just an empty canvas wall,
That hasn't been painted in so long.
I'm not flawed,
I just suck,
I'm caving in.
the weed sticks to my breath in increments.
Of twenty cause thats how many years, 
that i have been forming this puddle of my tears.

It's hard to say, 
what has made me who i am today.
I was crawling for help in my high school,
So i was going to classes in bad moods.
Its obvious,
that what i lack is confidence,
But it's hardly this.
I can try to pinpoint the problem, 
as i try to remember the things that have led to my downfall.

Is it too late to write on the pages that i've torn to pieces? 
Because it's so hard to talk when i'm angry for no reason! (x2)

I try to think of all the reasons,
Why you stay instead of leaving me.
I'm just an empty canvas wall,
That hasn't been painted in so long.
I'm not flawed,
I just suck,
I'm caving in.
the weed sticks to my breath in increments.
Of twenty cause thats how many years, 
that i have been forming this puddle of my tears.

(prod by. Number48)

Spotify <3

ahhhh feelings! (prod. Number48)

starlight

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

fall. | Produced by dontcry

Check Out The Producer:
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCGbIpKGH0psvD0og23xMEqA
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Instagram: www.instagram.com/cian_treacy99/

Cover art by BVD CXRTEX:
Soundcloud: @bvdcxrtex
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and
Adam Wood:
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Lyrics
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Bittersweet goodbyes
And tired eyes
We both never lie
Couldn't take my advice
When I'm the one I despise
So just cut me free

Bittersweet goodbyes
And tired eyes
We both never lie (I hope you forget me)
Couldn't take my advice
When I'm the one I despise
So just cut me free (So cut me free)

You won't listen when I tell you that I'm not okay
So much liqueur in my drink I need a double take
Sticky fingers I'm stickin' to blunts everyday
I know it fuck me up, that's why I put it to my face
And you textin' me you love me 'cause you know the pain
We ain't sober in days, maybe discover a way
Maybe uncover another one of us that acts sane
But if it means the end of this I don't wanna change

If you really wanna love me you can love me back
You don't need to put yourself through the heart attack
If you really wanna love me you can love me back
You don't need to put yourself through this, yeah

Pick up the phone
No call or text I'm fucked from the jetlag
Let me know
If you even wanna talk 'cause you know I gotta check that
Why you gotta be so cold
I said I'm in love, you finish the cigarette pack
Let me know
That I was fun while it lasted but I was just a setback

So I guess this is the end of the path
I've been here so long I think that I lost track
I think I lost myself in the oblivion
Look into the void, I can feel it gaze back
But you're talking to me like I had my own plan
Like I knew it wouldn't work out and it wouldn't last
How could I be so oblivious
When you said you love me, I wasn't supposed to get attached

Bittersweet goodbyes
And tired eyes
We both never lie (I hope you forget me)
Couldn't take my advice
When you're the thing I despise
So just cut me free (So cut me free)

I don't wanna go back to that road no more
I don't wanna go back to that road no more

Cut Me Free [Prod. Cian x RJ Pasin]

unknxwn. - don't take it. (og) (prod. metlast)

(PROD. LIL RAV)

sample by @sorrow_bringer

one more sin and then I fall
you'll never see me tall
you left me here for dead
on the ground

you wanna kill me, I know
but you'll never know my side
I will never let you know that
I feel cold

just tell me what I need to know
don't waste my time with you 
cause I know that you wanted to go

you act like you don't give a fuck
and every time that you're with him
you only think of me

yeah I wanted to cry
yeah you want me to cry

and now you're tryna fuck with me
you care about the money that i make
but I am going to

run
don't waste my time with you 
cause I know that you wanted to go
don't waste my time with you 
cause I know that you wanted to
run
and now you're tryna fuck with me
you care about the money that i make
but I am going to

one more sin and then I fall
you'll never see me tall
you left me here for dead
on the ground

you wanna kill me, I know
but you'll never know my side
I will never let you know that
I feel cold

SPOTIFY

I'm Near The Abyss

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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz x @luffysome
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[intro]
didnt wanna fall in love with you
but its better now that i did
im hurt too much baby 
but thats just the past and not from this

oouu fall in love wit u
ouuu fall in love wit u

[chorus]
didnt wanna fall in love with you
but its better now that i did
im hurt too much baby 
but thats just the past and not from this

[verse 1]
i admit that i tend to be a fuck up
but i promise that i wont try to do you wrong
keep your picture on the dashboard of my car, love
hope you know that youre the only one inside my heart

oouu fall in love wit u
ouuu fall in love wit u

[chorus]
didnt wanna fall in love with you
but its better now that i did
im hurt too much baby 
but thats just the past and not from this

[verse 2]
your perfume stuck on my bed sheets
your eyes still lookin like emerald hearts
i love you, i think i need you next to me
cant see anybody else wrapped in my arms

oouu fall in love wit u
ouuu fall in love wit u

fall in love

A bootleg of Moonbeam by Goldielocks.

Check out the original here!
https://soundcloud.com/goldielockstunes/moonbeam

GOLDIELOCKS - MOONBEAM (GUARDIN BOOTLEG)

@kaiyko

Please stay away
I just can’t take the pain
Outside, a castaway
Reaping in my own disdain

Stuff of the past that sticks in the future
Lying to me, I thought that I knew her
Band aid my heart and pretend that it’s fine
Nothing else matters when I know you’re mine

Hold me tighter than when you held him
My smiles coming, soon it fell grim
Taking part of me, losing a limb
Embers were burning, slowly they dim

I’m stuck in the time
You weren’t mine
Can’t take the crime
I saw the sign

Breaking down I’m crying
There’s no point in trying
Away, I am flying
I hope that I’ll be dying

unknxwn. - don't take it. (og) (prod. metlast)

✧ jaydyn ✧