[Verse 1]

I’ve been runnin’ from the memories
Like a sinner from the light.
But every road I take
Turns your shadow into night.
I pour a little bourbon
Just to feel a thing again—
Some scars don’t ever close,
They just learn to live within.

[Chorus]

If love was easy,
I’d lay my head down, get some sleep.
If lettin’ go meant freedom,
I’d be somewhere runnin’ deep.
But I’m stuck here with the pieces
Of a dream we never had—
You took the best of me,
Left me half of what I had.

[Verse 2]

There’s a picture in my wallet
That I swore I’d throw away,
But every time I touch it
I remember how I prayed
For a life we never made it to,
For a man I couldn’t stay—
Now I’m fightin’ with the silence
’Cause it knows me by my name.

[Chorus]

If love was easy,
I’d lay my head down, get some sleep.
If lettin’ go meant freedom,
I’d be somewhere runnin’ deep.
But I’m stuck here with the pieces
Of a dream we never had—
You took the best of me,
Left me half of what I had.

[Outro — Short, Soulful]

Yeah, I’m learnin’ how to stand again
With half of what I had.
Half of what I had.

Half Of What I Had

I’m JD Hodge — Oklahoma-born, red dirt-raised, and songwriting for over 30 years.

In 2024, I flatlined on an operating table. Cardiac arrest. Everything changed.

When I came back, the words came with me — like they’d been waiting their turn. Since then, the songs haven’t stopped. I write what’s real: struggle, hope, grit, and grace — stories meant to be felt.

You’ll hear pieces of my past, my people, and the kind of heartland truth you can’t fake. These songs aren’t just mine — they’re for anyone who’s fought through silence and still found a voice.

Retired • Lyricist • Country • Americana • Acoustic Soul
Oklahoma, USA

Half Of What I Had

J.D. Hodge Music-Songwriter