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So in keeping with releasing all my old Demo's i'm going through my entire backlog of music. I wrote Forbidden Apathy (Which at the time was just a forbidden fruit remix that was previously on my page) with a friend of mine named Arrington (CTRL) at the time.

Arrington retired from the mic a while back, so in 2020 I remixed A Tribe Called Quest's "Electronic Relaxation" in stead of sampling Forbidden Fruit or the original Ronnie Foster song "Mystic Brew".

I whole heartedly disagree with the message of this song, it's actually pretty disgusting how i'm talking on this track which is from the POV of talking to your toxic girlfriend trying to get a rise out of each other to fight, and then make up.

But in the spirit of showing you where I've come from and showing growth, I kinda have to show the ugly side of things, hence this demo.

The end of the Song says it all, "nigga, you need Jesus."

Stay tuned for new music and a whole lot more demos.

Forbidden Apathy (Demo)

J. Nabil—or Joshua, as his friends know him—is a “Jack of all trades” kind of artist hailing from Washington D.C. His music is rooted in the deconstructed elements of R&B, using everything the genre has—layered with the grit of Boom Bap, the moodiness of Trip-Hop, and the soul of his upbringing—singing in choirs and playing in bands. These influences collide and evolve into his self-coined genre, Urban Cowboy Blues: a sound and philosophy born from his walk with Christ through shifting seasons—finding reasons to sing the blues in a world that often shies away from them. It’s about fighting nihilism with faith, without denying the weight of our troubles or the depth of what we feel.

He describes his music simply: “These are just the sounds I hear in my head, along with the movie I feel like I’m living in.” It’s funky, it’s vibey, but it’s never empty. Every song carries intention. “I’m not here to waste words,” he says. Whether he’s writing, producing, or performing, his mission stays the same: to tell the truth, to make you feel, and to make you move.

What he hopes to accomplish with the music is a return to truth—the good, the bad, the ugly, and the nuance that ties it all together. It’s about faith in the face of what feels like overwhelming fear. The blues aren’t about sadness—they’re about singing through the suffering we all face. And with that, there is hope and faith.

Forbidden Apathy (Demo)

J.Nabil