There’s this cliche, that all therapists want to do is make you talk about the past. Even though I often reassure new clients that I won’t make them talk about anything they don’t want to, it’s not untrue - a lot of us do want to know about your past. Because the past is never actually in the past and the present and the future are intricately tied to it. But like any historical research, piecing our own pasts together is both vital to self-understanding and fraught. And our understanding of history changes with who we are in the present.

/ Credits /

Producer: Lily Sloane (www.lilymakessound.com)
Story Editor: Emily Shaw (www.emilyshawcreates.com)
Original Music & Sound Design: Lily Sloane
Additional Music: "Colocate" by Poddington Bear and the original theme to The Jedediaries by Marshall York

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Thank you Josey Baker, Torrey Paquette, and Ada and Linden for lending your voices to this story and Mat Stevens for helping me interview Jed.  

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The Presence of Past

Torrey tells 2 tales of mishearing embarrassment near-misses, then Jedediah leads a discussion into all the reasons a child might get 3 or 4 free games of pinball, followed by the ethics of “quarter things” and late fees. Meanwhile, in the diary, little Jed learns how to spell “throat” for once and for all, talks on the phone for a long time, hates school, does some exercises (???), and hopes he’ll dance with someone at the Homecoming Dance this weekend (!!!).

Week 41: October 9–15, 1993

Mouth Dreams

25 years ago, a 12-year-old boy kept a diary. He wrote in it every single day of the year 1993. This year – 2018 – that boy is a 37-year-old man, and he's going through that diary, week by week, to see how he's different, how he's the same, and what we can learn by figuring out who we used to be. 

Hosted by Jedediah Baker & Torrey Paquette. Theme song by Marshall York. Illustrations by Torrey Paquette or Rebecca Bartola or Allison Gore. 

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Week 41: October 9–15, 1993

The Jedediaries

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