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Gallery Of Echoes From Past

Warm look from the past

Umrandungen, Vol. 1

Umrandungen-01-09 (Remastered 2025)

Depression

Verse 1: F#/A > E/A > D/A > C#/A
Numb, how I feel?  So lost within this fog.  Withdrawn, too hard to cope
And time, eats away, at my brain, till I’m just a hollow shell

Pre-Chorus: B > A > G
This weight, this burden I protect
All the voices in my mind, driving me toward suicide

Chorus: B > A > G
Depression – this pressure
Depression – Depression

Verse 2
Alone, my fatigue?  When the color in my eyes, gives way to my disguise
These lies, I tell myself, are losing their effect, consumed by my regrets
                                                                                                                                                                                       
Pre-Chorus
This pain, thickens in my veins
This monster in my mind, I’ve nowhere left to hide

Chorus
Depression – this pressure
Depression – Depression

Bridge:  em > BM > CM > GM > F#M (4)
A black cloud is following me, it swallows me whole, invades my sleep, only one way it lets me go
Isolate myself from everything, the only pleasure in my life, comes from getting high, the only way I know to get by
< SOLO: B > A > G >

Verse 3
Goodbye.  All the fear, these whispers telling me, only one way to be free
To see, to escape, quick and painless sounds so nice, hand full of pills to say goodbye

Pre-Chorus
This waste, my mother on my mind
Drowning in a river of tears, so ashamed to leave her here

Chorus x2
Depression – this pressure
Depression – Depression

I’ve got to get me out of here 
It’s time to let me go 
Place this noose around my neck
As all these pills go down my throat 
I just take another drink
And I’m drifting off to sleep
It’s time to say goodbye 
Please just let me die
Please let me go

depression

"No matter who you take from me, I will keep going." i'm not afraid is a song about my experience losing my father. Listen in for the dark moods and a sense of originality that chills your spine if you let it. 

i'm not afraid

A simple message to myself from way back.  Found it almost like a message in a bottle. It said , relax , let go, live .... you are working and maybe even dreaming too hard.  Then slowly the message ....Connect .... seemed almost like a new mood elevating pill you could buy at a drug store.... and the song was not only advice from a future me, but quite possibly a tv commercial for a new drug called .... CONNECT.

Connect

Track Description – “Blue Roof” by Siegfried Jünger
The closing track on Order 8, “Blue Roof” unfolds like a final transmission from a collapsing system. Harsh textures and abrasive drones grind against each other beneath scattered bursts of off-kilter percussion. Distant, staccato strikes echo across an empty soundstage, interrupted only by brief, almost accidental fragments of melody. Low-end rumbles provide an ominous undertow, as the track pulses with tension and unease. Jünger’s dark ambient vision reaches its most dystopian here—cold, disoriented, and unresolved.

Siegfried Jünger - Blue Roof (Order 8 | Dark Ambient)

„Time doesn’t run — it just stands in the rain.“

Background: soft container crackle, steady rain on metal

"I am Cell B. Not an artist name. Not a metaphor. Just reality."

I live on a trailer site, deep in decay. Among rusted staircases, watering cans, and people who say they’re sick when they’re just tired. I’m sick. Really sick. I have B-cell lymphoma. And still — or maybe because of that — I’m here. Fully present. With Murschel, my cat. Coffee. Cigarette. And the rain, which hasn’t stopped for four days.

This isn’t a book about hope. It’s not a cancer guide. Not an emotional appeal. It’s a spoken memoir of reality, with music you can read to. 25 chapters. No storyline arc. No happy ending. But every line is lived.

Decay speaks to me. And I speak back. I found home in things no one wants to keep. And time doesn’t run — it just stands in the rain.

Schwellenwind. It begins now.

New episode every Sunday. You coming with me?

This is the full book — each chapter paired with one track of music. No publisher, just eyes and ears. No money, just time and sound.

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Intro-Folge: Schwellenwind – Kapitel 0

Hintergrund: leichtes Containerknistern, Dauerregen auf Metall

"Ich bin Zelle B. Kein Künstlername. Keine Metapher. Einfach nur die Realität.

Ich lebe auf einem Bauwagenplatz, mitten im Verfall. Zwischen rostigen Treppen, Gießkannen und Leuten, die krank sagen, wenn sie müde sind. Ich bin krank. Wirklich krank. Ich hab B-Zell-Lymphom. Und trotzdem – oder gerade deshalb – bin ich hier. Voll da. Mit Murschel, meinem Kater, Kaffee, Zigarette, und dem Regen, der seit vier Tagen nicht aufgehört hat.

Das hier ist kein Buch über Hoffnung. Kein Tumor-Ratgeber. Kein emotionaler Appell. Es ist ein Hörbuch über Wirklichkeit, mit Musik zum Lesen. 25 Kapitel. Kein Spannungsbogen. Kein Happy End. Aber jede Zeile ist gelebt.

Der Verfall spricht mit mir. Und ich mit ihm. Ich habe Heimat gefunden in Dingen, die keiner behalten will. Und die Zeit läuft nicht davon – sie steht einfach nur im Regen.

Schwellenwind. Jetzt beginnt’s."

Neue Folge jeweils Sonntags. Willst du mitkommen? Hier kommen Auszüge aus dem kompletten Buch mit allen Kapiteln und jeweils ein Track mit Musik dazu.
Kein Verlag nur Augen und Ohren - kein Geld nur Zeit und Ton.
Ich freue mich. Mein Geist freut sich über die Entkoppelung von Leistung und Geld und containert lieber. 
Fortsetzung folgt am nächsten Sonntag.

Kai-Uwe

kolkhorst 2025

Schwellenwind

This is a little Funky Jazz number. 

Photo for Album Artwork by Susan Snyder

Ron Snyder - Keep the Faith (Instrumental)

LoFi Americana with a dash of Indie Alt Rock and Country 

Jeremy Brizzi is a songwriter and musician.  “I do what I can, with what I have, to show you how I feel.  Thanks for listening.”

With more than 300 song left to record and a constant attention to creation, the best is yet to come!  

https://jeremybrizzi.bandcamp.com

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