Jeremy's Songs

Heartbreak


[Verse 1]
I laugh in rooms where no one hears,
Smile wide to hide the quiet years.
I wave at friends who walk right past,
Guess I learned how not to last.

[Pre-Chorus]
These shoes still dance though the floor is bare,
I sing out loud, but they don’t care.

[Chorus]
I’m a living ghost in a room full of life,
Invisible soul in broad daylight.
Clapping on beat to a crowd that’s not there,
Spinning in circles, alone in the air.
You never see what the shadows would show—
This heart waits hopefully, quietly, alone.

[Verse 2]
The jokes I tell land soft and flat,
They echo back with no laugh track.
My voice blends into wallpaper blue,
I disappear right out of view.

[Pre-Chorus]
Still I sing this happy tune,
While feeling alone in a crowded room.

[Chorus]
I’m a living ghost in a room full of life,
Invisible soul in broad daylight.
Clapping on beat to a crowd that’s not there,
Spinning in circles, alone in the air.
You never see what the shadows would show—
This heart waits hopefully, quietly, alone.

[Bridge]
So raise a glass to the ones you don’t see,
To the loudest silence and the quietest screams.
I’ll fade with a grin, still playing along,
‘Cause even sad hearts can sing happy songs.

[Final Chorus]
I’m a living ghost in a room full of life.
Invisible soul in broad daylight.
Tap-dancing pain in a four-chord disguise,
Laughing while tears fill up both of my eyes.
You never see what the shadows would show—
This heart waits hopefully, quietly, alone.

What the Shadows Would Show


[Verse 1]
Fell outta bed—what can I say?
Got a little older, waste another day.
Breakfast of pills—hell, that’s just the way.

Everything aches, from my gut to my mood,
People keep askin' 'bout my attitude.
I ain’t rude, I’m just misunderstood—
'Cause when everything hurts, it hurts sometimes.
Yeah, when everything hurts, it hurts sometimes.


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[Chorus]
Sometimes (Don’t like being in decline)
Sometimes (Don’t ask me, I’ll just lie)
Sometimes (It sucks, but I’ll be fine)
But when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.


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[Verse 2]
Pain in my foot, pain in my head,
Pain’s still clingin’ when I’m dead.
Prayin’ just to leave my bed—
'Cause when everything hurts, it hurts sometimes.
Yeah, when everything hurts, it hurts sometimes.


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[Chorus]
Sometimes (Am I runnin’ outta time?)
Sometimes (It creeps in, blows my mind)
Sometimes (It sucks, but I’ll be fine)
But when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.


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[Bridge – optional breakdown]
Cracked and bruised, yeah, still I crawl,
Loud and broken, still I brawl.
Don't need hope, just need the fight—
One more scream into the night.


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[Final Chorus]
Sometimes (Don’t like being in decline)
Sometimes (Don’t ask me, I’ll just lie)
Sometimes (It sucks, but I’ll be fine)
But when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.
Yeah, when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.
Sometimes (Am I runnin’ outta time?)
Sometimes (It creeps in, blows my mind)
Sometimes (It sucks, but I’ll be fine)
But when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.

Sometimes (Don’t like being in decline)
Sometimes (Don’t ask me, I’ll just lie)
Sometimes (It sucks, but I’ll be fine)
But when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.
But when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.
But when everything hurts—it hurts sometimes.

It Hurts Sometimes

[Verse 1 – Tightened]
I still set the table
Two plates in a row
I still wear the ring
But I’m not sure I know

I walk these halls like a stranger
In a house we made our own
I hear your voice like a memory
And I swear it feels… gone


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[Pre-Chorus]
I used to fight for us
For the dream we made
But I don’t know who
I’m fighting today


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[Chorus]
Am I holding on
Or just standing in the way?
Am I breaking down
Or did I already break?
Do I need to leave
Or have I already gone?
Is this love still alive
Or have I held on too long?


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[Verse 2 – Tightened]
I still say the words
"We’ll be fine. Just a phase.”
But I’m tired of pretending
We saved something for today

I wear your name like a promise
But it’s heavy on my skin
I don’t know what I’m waiting for
Or if I’m waiting again


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[Pre-Chorus – repeat]
I used to fight for us
For the dream we made
But I don’t know who
I’m fighting today


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[Chorus – repeat]
Am I holding on
Or just standing in the way?
Am I breaking down
Or did I already break?
Do I need to leave
Or have I already gone?
Is this love still alive
Or have I held on too long?


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[Bridge – minimal changes]
I don’t wanna run
But I don’t wanna stay
Tell me there’s a way back
Or tell me it’s too late


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[Final Chorus – subdued delivery]
Am I holding on
Or just standing in the way?
Am I breaking down
Or did I already break?
Do I need to leave
Or have I already gone?
Is this love still alive
Or have I held on too long?

Am I Already Gone

[Verse 1]

Side by side with nowhere to be
We talk like it means nothing, but it means everything to me
Names we’ll never use
Excuses just to stay in the moment a little longer

We hide behind the laughter
Both pretending not to see
But your shoulder brushes mine
And it wrecks the part of me that wants to keep it clean


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[Chorus]

If you don’t say it, I won’t
We’ll keep walking like we don’t
Feel the shift inside the joke
Like maybe this is more than close
If you don’t ask, I’ll just stay
Right beside you anyway
Call it whatever you want
But I won’t say love
If you don’t


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[Verse 2]

You tilt your head, I fake a smile
We chase the joke and call it style
We say it’s just a phase
I keep the way you say my name

The world spins fast, but we stay here
In that space between the doubt and what we fear
You laugh like I’m your favorite song
And I don’t know if I should sing along


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[Chorus – Bigger]

If you don’t say it, I won’t
We’ll keep walking like we don’t
Feel the pull we can’t explain
Like sunshine even when it rains
If you don’t ask, I’ll pretend
That I’m not falling once again
Call it whatever you want
But I won’t say love
If you don’t


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[Bridge – Breezy, Then Punchy]

Maybe this is just a phase
Or maybe we’re just one “hey” away
From changing everything—
But why rush a perfect day?


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[Final Chorus – Joyful and Full]

If you don’t say it, I won’t
But you’re the best thing that I know
Every silence, every laugh
Every almost-feeling we hold back
If you don’t ask, I’ll pretend
That I’m not falling once again
Call it whatever you want
But I won’t say love…


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[Outro – Soft smile]

If you don’t
I won’t

If You Don't Say It, I Won't

[Verse 1]
You said I breathe like I’ve got time
But my breath feels borrowed, not mine
Your hand found mine, too easy, too soon
But I liked the way it steadied the room

[Pre-Chorus]
You kiss like the world might end
I hold back just to pretend


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[Chorus]
If I stay, I lose the throne
If I go, I go alone
This could be real
But so could the crown
And I don’t know
What I’d lay down
To hold this love
Or keep this flame
And still be me
By either name


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[Verse 2]
You call it love, and maybe you’re right
But I was built for colder fights
You see a home in every glance
I see a battle in the chance

[Pre-Chorus]
You hope like the sky won’t fall
I brace like I’ve lost it all


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[Chorus]
If I stay, I lose the throne
If I go, I go alone
This could be safe
But I don’t feel still
And both roads
Demand my will
To risk it all
Or leave it blue—
I want the fire and I want you


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[Bridge – quiet but intense]
Legacy won’t share a bed
With maybe’s warmth or words unsaid
But neither will the girl I am
Be quieted to fit some plan


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[Final Chorus – hold the line]
So if I’m torn, don’t ask me to choose
I’m not done
Being almost
Us.

The Weight of It All

[Verse 1]
We talk like strangers who already know
The parts we never let anyone show
It started out light, just a late-night escape
Now I’m holding your silence like it’s taking shape

[Pre-Chorus]
You’re not mine, I’m not yours
But we open these invisible doors
And something inside us comes spilling out
Soft as a whisper, loud as a shout

[Chorus]
We live in the space that’s not love, not a lie
Close enough to touch, but we don’t even try
Telling the truth like it’s just pretend
Begging the moment to never end
We’re not crossing lines
But we can’t unwind
Whatever this is—
It’s the ache in between

[Verse 2]
You said you felt it down in your skin
Not a need for the body, just to feel within
We give each other what the rest can’t reach
A quiet kind of fire, just out of speech

[Pre-Chorus]
You’re not my risk, I’m not your wreck
But we’re tracing the edge with every text
A soft permission we never gave
A wound we soothe, a wave we brave

[Chorus]
We live in the space that’s not love, not a lie
Close enough to touch, but we don’t even try
Telling the truth like it’s just pretend
Begging the moment to never end
We’re not crossing lines
But we can’t unwind
Whatever this is—
It’s the ache in between

[Bridge]
And maybe one day we’ll step away
Let the silence finally have its say
But tonight we’re here
With the want and the fear
And that’s enough to make us stay

[Final Chorus]
We live in the space that’s not wrong, not right
Carving connection out of the night
Telling ourselves we’re just being kind
But I feel you under my skin, in my mind
We’re not crossing lines
But we can’t unwind
Whatever this is—
It’s the ache in between

The In Between

[Verse 1]

I stayed in line, played it safe
Took the path they said to take
Chased the plan, let fire fade
Lost the boy I meant to save

Wore a mask that looked like truth
But you saw through, you always do


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[Pre-Chorus]

I don’t always say it right
But I see your steady fight
Every choice you make is brave
More than I could ever say


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[Chorus]

You were always you
Even when the storm blew through
Even when I didn’t move
You stood your ground, you saw it through
And if tomorrow comes in hard
You’ll still burn bright
You were always you
And that’s your light


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[Verse 2]

You chose love and made it count
Fell, got up, worked it out
Even scared, you stayed true
Even tired, you pushed through

Never asked to make me proud
But girl, just look at you now


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[Pre-Chorus]

Sometimes I wish I had your fire
You reach higher, you don’t tire
And watching you’s the proof I need—
There’s more to life than just “succeed”


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[Chorus]

You were always you
Even when the noise grew loud
Even when the past had clout
You held your line, you made it out
And if they never see your name
You’ll still remain
You were always you
And I’m proud I get to say


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[Bridge] (short, aching pause)

I lived safe, afraid to fall
You live loud—you feel it all


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[Chorus – Final]

You were always you
If they doubt, let them do
What they want—you know what’s true
You held your ground, and made it through
And someday when you’re looking back
You’ll smile and say:
I was always me...
Just like that


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[Outro – spoken or sung]

You’ve done better than me.
And that’s a beautiful thing.

You Were Always You

Intro – instrumental, 2 bars]

She walks in quiet like thunder on mute  
Makes a room pay attention without saying a truth  
No medals, no spotlight, no need to insist  
But when it comes to showing up—  
She don’t miss  

She’s the first one in, and the last one to break  
Carries faith like a whisper, not something to fake  
Got scars she don’t mention, got joy in her fists  
Built of grace and a backbone—  
She don’t miss  

[Chorus]  
I watched her rise like a sunrise through fog  
Burned slow but steady, never needed applause  
With a shamrock charm and a don’t-pinch-me grin  
She’s the reason the hard days finally give in  
She’s a map and a compass, a push and a kiss  
Call it quiet perfection—  
She don’t miss  

She’s got October dreams and Halloween bones  
Paints the world in her colors, won’t throw out the tones  
Got a crown made of frost, but her fire persists  
Yeah, she’s cool like Elsa—  
But she don’t miss  

[Chorus]  
I watched her rise like a sunrise through fog  
Burned slow but steady, never needed applause  
With a shamrock charm and a don’t-pinch-me grin  
She’s the reason the hard days finally give in  
She’s a map and a compass, a push and a kiss  
Call it quiet perfection—  
She don’t miss  

[Guitar Solo – emotional, melodic]

[Bridge]  
Some people shout just to prove they belong  
She sings soft and still owns every song  
They never saw her coming  
But they follow her lead  
She makes faith look like freedom  
She makes strength look like peace  

[Final Chorus – sing it loud]  
I watched her rise like a sunrise through fog  
Burned slow but steady, never needed applause  
With a shamrock charm and a don’t-pinch-me grin  
She’s the reason the hard days finally give in  
She’s a map and a compass, a push and a kiss  
Yeah, that girl’s got a promise—  
She don’t miss  

[Outro – repeat chant with fade]  
No, she don’t  
No, she don’t  
She don’t miss

She Don’t Miss

[Intro ... Instrumental]

[Verse 1]
his smile had beamed from across the room
hands like a pause, with nothing to hold to
we became friends, I thought "nothing more"
but his look said there might be something more


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[Pre-Chorus]
I shouldn’t have looked his way
my bed was made, I had my day
only heaven knows
safety was all I chose


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[Chorus]
I find myself wondering where he is
if he's near or if he's his
if he's happy or just getting through
do I wander through his dreams too?


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[Verse 2]
the years are gone but I still see his face
that crooked smile time can’t erase
we were sharing hearts, no need for proof
he dared my fear to step aside and search for truth


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[Pre-Chorus]
to walk away from what was good and safe—but cold
and chase the fire I was scared to hold
I don’t regret the life I’ve lived
but I miss knowing what could have been


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[Chorus]
I find myself wondering where he is
if he's near or if he's his
if he's happy or still feeling blue
or if I wander through his dreams too


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[Bridge]
the years are gone—won’t be coming back
I called it success not jumping the track
but I can't call it love when I feel what I lack
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I look at my life and take pride in what I’ve done
I cry inside still wondering if he was the one


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[Final Chorus]
I find myself wondering where he is
if he's near or if he's his
if he's happy or still holding on
to the version of me that’s already gone

sometimes I sit up late at night
wondering if my choice was right
I was too young to know what to do
am I foolish to hope he still dreams of me too?


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[Outro]
because I wish I could tell him—I do

Wish I Could

[Verse 1]
I kept the messages you never meant to send
Half-typed thoughts you left unsaid
I watched you change the way you used my name
Like it was something you once wore and then outgrew


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[Pre-Chorus]
But I held on like a letter never mailed
Sealed and waiting
Still afraid to fail


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[Chorus]
I’m not scared of being lonely
I’ve made a home in silent rooms
It’s not the leaving that breaks me slowly
It’s the thought I never filled the space in you
So if I disappear completely
Just promise me one thing gently—
Don’t forget me
Before you forgot me


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[Verse 2]
I memorized the pattern of your breath
Like a song with no chorus left
I loved you in the way that ghosts love light
Always reaching but too quiet to be right


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[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t have to say you tried
But I would’ve stayed
If you'd just asked me why


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[Chorus]
I’m not scared of being lonely
I’ve made a home in silent rooms
It’s not the leaving that breaks me slowly
It’s the thought I never filled the space in you
So if I disappear completely
Just promise me one thing gently—
Don’t forget me
Before you forgot me


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[Bridge]
I never wanted to be your echo
I wanted to be your sound
But I’m fading in the rearview
And I think you’re glad I’m not around


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[Final Chorus]
I’m not scared of being lonely
I know how to be alone
But was I ever even something
You missed when I was gone?
So if I vanish quietly
Just lie to me, politely—
Say you miss me
Before you forgot me

Before You Forgot Me

I'm not a musician.  But I feel the music that I cannot create. I write the lyrics from scenes in my short stories. plays, novellas, and novels as "emotional scaffolding". And even then, I don't consider myself a writer, but a storyteller.

If you think my songs aren't commercial grade, you're probably right. 

But if you enjoyed any of them, that makes me happy. 

What the Shadows Would Show

Jeremy Brown