This song was written at a time in my life when I was going through allot. I was having one of the days where my memories from the past was causing me to feel down in myself and my life.

My Fairytale

Production by Saint Mike
Vocals & Lyrics by Me
- another blow to the heart again
- why do I do this to myself
- swimming up stream to get some air
- sometimes I wish I would just choke
- yearning for dreamscapes it isn’t fair
- I don’t know what is real
- the more I reach out, seems nothings there
- but still it won’t conclude 

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- new faces come by but I compare
- them to what I saw in you
- trying to fit a circle with a square
- it will never make a two

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out


#grunge #alternativerock #alternative #alt #emo #deftones

Limerance

Here are 10 of my songs written from the heart and soul of what I love. Music. All kinds, all genres, and all flavors. I hope you enjoy them as much as I did making them.

Rock'N'Roll Crackers

Velvet Petals ignite with "Rise," an immensely powerful and uplifting arena rock anthem. Driven by soaring vocals, epic guitar riffs, and a chorus that commands you to "feel the soul of the universe," this track is a journey of breaking through darkness and becoming everything. "Rise" is an inspirational call to overcome, let the heavens sing, and find transformation through endless motion. #VelvetPetals #Rise #ArenaRock #AnthemicRock #SoulOfTheUniverse #UpliftingMusic #EpicRock

Rise

Velvet Petals presents "Nostalgia," a deeply moving and beautifully crafted rock ballad. Carried by a haunting piano melody and soulful vocals, the song explores the bittersweet beauty of fading memories, like dust motes dancing in the soft light of the past. Building to an emotional climax with a soaring guitar solo, "Nostalgia" is a fragile art, a melody etched upon the heart. #VelvetPetals #Nostalgia #RockBallad #SoftRock #Melancholic #GuitarSolo #Bittersweet

Nostalgia

i still wear your hoodie when it rains,
smells like fall and old mistakes.
you said forever, now it feels to far
now it feels way to farrrr

the leaves are dead, like what we had,
i keep pretending it’s not that bad.
but, every song still sounds like you,
and i don’t know what im supposed to do.
what im supposed to do.

you were the light in a small town night,
felt like fire, now it’s just white noise.
i talk to the wind, i wait for a sign,
but it’s just cold air and wasted time.
its just cold air and wasted timeeee

maybe you forgot, but i can’t let go,
love like ours still leaves, a shadow.
and i still wear your hoodie when it rains,
im trying to wash off all the pain..

you were the light in a small town night,
felt like fire, now it’s just white noise.
i talk to the wind, i wait for a sign,
but it’s just cold air and wasted time.
its just cold air and wasted timeeee

rain songs and ghosts

INWARD PAIN

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/4Xp5qySkwdrmx8cdIbBrOk

Apple Music:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/benihime-ep-ep/1822897077

Bandcamp (support/free download): 
https://prodbykillerbee.bandcamp.com/album/benihime-ep

Everywhere else:
https://album.link/us/i/1822897077

Lyrics:
I can feel you all the time
I can’t feel, it’s you that’s on my mind
And it’s all the time

My heart has abandoned me
It’s a crime scene
You got away scot free

What you took from me…

And inside of me
I can’t parse the lies from honesty
And it’s honestly..

..what I dread!
What you said went over my head
But I’ll still go long
Past the end zone, I’m gone

Blind spot
You’re too perfect like a psyop
What you left of me
Now I can’t breathe

I can’t tell what’s on your mind
I can’t feel this all the time
Can I draw the line?

Unrequited love is hell
Practice your name out loud like a spell

Still feel your claws in my body
Can’t get your voice out of my memory or my heart
And I want to set you free 

You’ll need a thieving crew
It’s locked tight behind an iron vault
Trigger in your palm
You’re the cool one good at sabotage…

Description:
For Kanon.

What is there left to say? I’ve put it all out there for better or for worse. I think ‘Corazón’ or this album could speak better to it than my writing here. Most of ‘LNR_[05]’ too. The moment I met her gaze, anything that wasn’t her in my heart was instantly seared away. I spent that summer running away from those feelings until finally, during the final week of the residency where I met her, the feelings kind of hit a boiling point. I didn’t want to live with regret so I gave in..and it swept me away like a flood. I couldn’t outrun it. I still can’t. I feel her in every heartbeat. I see her eyes in every sunset. I hear her voice in the susurration of leaves in the wind..but I’m trying to close the door now.  [...cont'd in the letter below]

Produced, Mixed, and Mastered by Killer Bee 

Letter:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Qjz81M-qgqwAfEk5BO7rX8HYcimryuZC/view?usp=drive_link

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saboteur

If you've ever felt like a ghost in a getaway car...

★ Raw • Haunting • Cathartic ★

Dive into a ghost story where pop-punk’s confessional rage meets hauntcore’s eerie intimacy. This acoustic-driven track wraps desperate highway imagery ("headlights, red lights, sirens bright") in stripped back guitar rawness, capturing the exhaustion of outrunning your own shadow.

Key themes:

☠️ Self haunting (“I’m my own worst memory”)

🚗 Escapism’s dead ends (“Can’t outrun myself in either lane”)

⚰️ Resignation (“Dig myself into a little plot of grass”)

Lyrics:

I distanced myself to see what would stay near
Admittedly I don't see much, all too clear
Head lights, red lights, and sirens bright at the rear
But the subject in the mirror is much closer than it appears

And I see it now, the ghost I tried to leave
Following me down these empty streets
I believe it now, like you used to say
I'm my own worst memory

Windows down, July rain as cold as your glare
Heavy is the head, cold wind, silence in the air
Better left unsaid, can't speak what's not here
Never tried my best, couldn't make myself seem to care

But every mile I drive is a roadside flare
Double parked going sixty, lighting a cigarette, texting "I'm almost there"
Can’t outrun myself, in either lane, always left, right, disappear
Wind blows tumble weeds down a familiar road of tears

And I see it now, the ghost I tried to leave
Following me down these empty streets
I believe it now, like you used to say
I'm my own worst memory

Am I running from the past or chasing what’s ahead?
These sirens behind me can’t drown what’s in my dread
The lights are getting closer, fear is getting clear
Is it a dead end ahead or highway deer

Rearview conversations I never will outpace
Every mile marker takes a turn to make their case
Tires drift the shoulder, rubber stays in place
Fell asleep at the wheel trying to erase

And I see it now, where I was supposed to be
Spent to much time at lights in disbelief
I believe you now, I just don't trust the memory
Cause you can't get that far with a tank on E

I missed my turn a while back
Think I'll park in the shade
Dig myself into a little plot of grass
I tire of taking winding paths too fast, too fast

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Flat

A new recording of an old track of ours originally recorded in 1998 at Castlesound Studios, Pencaitland. This version is to be released on the "Invisible Man" EP by VEER which is out on all major platforms from 25/07/25

"Us Ourselves Alone" by VEER

You've overcome so many tribulations, why not be optimistic about this one?

Bury My Love

Jeremy Ryan Martin is a solo rock artist with a sound forged through raw emotion, real-life struggle, and years of hands-on experience in the underground music scene. His passion for music began at 13, when he formed his first band with middle school friends in the early ’90s. By 17, he was already writing original songs and fronting local rock groups, honing his voice and presence on stage.

Throughout his 20s and 30s, Jeremy played in several rock-driven projects, spending countless hours in recording studios learning the craft of mixing and production from seasoned audio engineers and musicians. A self-taught songwriter shaped by hardship, he grew up with a single mom and younger brother, often turning to his guitar as a way to cope and make sense of life.

Jeremy draws inspiration from the gritty rock legends he grew up on—Metallica, Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Candlebox, and other icons of the late ’80s and early ’90s. While those influences echo through his music, it’s his unique voice and deeply personal songwriting that set him apart. Every track he creates is a reflection of resilience, struggle, and healing.

“I love to play my guitar and write songs, but there’s no better feeling than seeing someone else connect with what I’ve created.” – Jeremy Ryan Martin