(Is this real life? or am I on theme again?)

Artwork by @ nyctophiliacmb ❤️

Lyrics:

I remember your voice.
I was young, 24.
Saw my heart on the floor
and I layed there in case you'd pick it up.
Passing time,
had to say my goodbyes
and all my alibis
cause I knew that you would show up.

Don't you just hate it?
It's like we never left and I just can't help it.
And I can't explain it,
after all this time, I'd still say it.

Cause I've gotten so much more
from standing outside your door
than staying on my own
and I'll pay for it, cause you'll be moving on.
I'll go home,
hit the lights, I was wrong
cause I knew all along
that I loved you like never before.

I remember your smile,
TV shows around 9,
think 'bout you day and night,
my forever tied to your aftermath.
Fast forward,
feeling like going nowhere
and I'll see you somewhere, 
always running down your path.

Don't you just hate it?
It's like we never left and I just can't help it.
And I can't explain it,
after all this time, I'm right here saying it.

Cause I've gotten so much more
from standing outside your door
than staying on my own
and I'll pay for it, cause you'll be moving on.
I'll go home,
hit the lights, I was wrong
cause I knew all along
that I loved you like never before.

So go on and just say it,
everything changed and I'll get it.
I'll bury these words, I'll try to escape it,
don't you just hate it?

Cause I've gotten so much more
from standing outside your door
than staying on my own
and I hate it, cause you'll be moving on.
I'll go home,
hit the lights, I was wrong
cause I knew all along
that I loved you like never before.

And I hate it...
And I hate it... like never before.

don't you just hate it?

"Hit The Lights" (#370, 200703)

I can't wait much longer out here on my own
'Til my hands surrender and feet bring me back home
Swore that I could take it I was never givin' up
Didn't take too long to see that I'm all outta' luck

Hit the lights and cue the water works
Watch the world go by like no one knows it hurts
There's freedom somewhere out there but I'm stayin' in tonight
So before you shut the door on me go on hit the lights

To love you drove me crazy to leave you broke my heart
Guess I thought you'd save me but I made it pretty hard
Last words you spoke to me still ringin' in my mind
Never stay so long that you can't leave it all behind

Hit the lights and cue the water works
Watch the world go by like no one knows it hurts
There's freedom somewhere out there but I'm stayin' in tonight
So before you shut the door on me go on hit the lights

Maybe you'll regret it but I kinda' think you won't
You don't seem to miss me and I probably shoulda' known
That I'd stay stuck this way I don't know what else to do
But that ain't you

Week 27 - Hit The Lights (200703)

chorus
hit the lights

verse 1
Life is a stage 
Some of us fall off 
again and again and again
Act your age
Trying not to grow up
Again and again and again 

pre Ch
The Curtain goes up and I run a mile 
Far away far out of sight 
Forgetting my lines I freeze every time 
Until I hear them say
CH-Hit the lights 

V2
Life is a stage 
Some of us shine on 
again and again and again
At your age 
Take every moment 
Again and again and again 

The particles swoon inside the room
Caught in a brilliant white
Bathe in its bloom 
The shows not over 
Til you hear them say 
Hit the lights

the shows not over

hit the lights 27 SAW 20

Copyright 2020
All Rights Reserved

Lyrics & Music: Erin Wolf
Guitar & Vocals: Erin Wolf
Photo credit: Jennifer Groth 
(Photo description: James, Erin, and Ryan back in the day, sometime between '06-'07, ready to rock out at some event we made the music at in Oconomowoc, WI)

james
i know you probably don't remember
how we met in the summer of '03
we met in the woods
in the middle of wisconsin
a far cry from your roots in boston

you didn't say much
lest music was involved
then you jumped right in 
and you evolved
strumming your guitar
or beating the drums
clearly this is what you loved

we were outside
a small town called wautoma
used to be known as webb
now it's called camp lakotah
singing by the campfire
swimming in the lake
that's the story
of how i met james

james
look how far we've come
after all the years and all you've done
you started song-a-week
you welcomed people in
i'm so proud of you
my friend

and to think
we were outside
a small town called wautoma
used to be known as webb
now it's called camp lakotah
singing by the campfire
swimming in the lake
that's the story
of how i met james

we were outside a small town
little place called wautoma
used to be known as webb
now it's called camp lakotah
singing by the campfire
swimming in the lake
that's the story
of how i met james

James

I wrote Departures [https://soundcloud.com/kent-aitken-386794022/departures-song-a-week-2020-week-4] when I was setting up to move; I'm book-ending it with this the day before I head home for the summer. Erin [https://soundcloud.com/erinwolf] was right; I think I have travel on my mind.

*****

When we are tired
And need to lay down
Count time to the tide
Come back to this place

When we are older
Bring me to the water
Set time all aside
Back where I was born

Bring me home, to tie it together
When memory is worn

At the end of the evening
At the end of the warm night
Bright with my brothers
And the families they made

Where our mother is buried
We water the flowers
Somehow they grow
When we're far away

I like to think they need our attention
Even when we only make it home rarely

Bring me home, to tie it together
When memory is worn

With a sigh
For the seasons and lives that pass by

When I am ready
Bring me to the water

The Water - Song a Week 2020, Week 29

Week 29 #songaweek2020. Image is my grandfather holding my daughter.
Some influences in my process of writing this one - 
"Over My Head" by King’s X - https://youtu.be/J2SYPzKzD94 ("music over my head")
"All shall be well" comes from "Showings" by medieval mystic Julian of Norwich
"I Don’t Think We’re Gonna Make It" by Rich Waring - https://soundcloud.com/rich-waring/i-dont-think-were-gonna-make-it
An actual dream I had. 
An actual fight I had.

I was interested in the concept of "the end." There's the cliche doomsayers waving "the end is near" signs; and then there's this sense of transcendence people sometimes experience, "thin places" where the beyond/unknown feels somehow close and comforting. Two of numerous ways we experience our consciousness of mortality.

Would have loved to fill this out a lot more instrumentally, just not time/bandwidth for it this week.

	E			G#m		A
There’s sunshine behind the gray sky
There’s monsters under your bed
there’s visions that blind the mind’s eye
There’s music over your head

A
This is not the end
	F#m			A		  E
But I feel like I can see it from here

I dreamed I saw my grandfather smiling
I felt he held my hand through the haze
I woke to find the blessed sun rising
I spread out my hopes for [in] a new day

This is not the end
But I feel like I can see it from here
This is not the end
But it feels like I just felt it draw near

There’s more between you and me than this fight
There’s love and life [fire and ice] and mystery
There’s nothing like the dark to see the starlight
There’s something about your arms wrapped around me

F#m		    A			      E
all shall be well and all shall be well
All shall be well, all shall be well

This is not the end
But I feel like I can see it from here
This is not the end
But it feels like I just felt it draw near
This is not the end 
But I feel like it keeps singing in my ear

The End

"With A Sigh" (#374, 200717)

Not every story can sound like a fairy tale
Sometimes the lovers don't love in the end
Not every promise lasts but I believe anyway
Somehow someday that I'll see you again

We couldn't have guessed
But nevertheless
I sing to the wind
As the raindrops roll off my skin

With a sigh and a kiss as the train leaves the station
I know I'm gonna' miss you it's hard to be patient
While the hands on the clock and the seasons are changin'
But me and my kiss we will be right here waitin' with a sigh

Maybe it's early a little too soon to tell
Or maybe I'm late how would I know
Pick me a rose and I'll pick you a daffodil
Before they all freeze under the snow

You brought me to life
Totally opened my eyes
Left hours ago
But I'm never letting you go

Week 29b - With A Sigh (200717)

"Longest Road You'll Ever Walk" (#355-375, 200505-200717)

Co-written with Chris Wyatt.

Artwork by "beguima", two sisters and a brother from Barcelona: www.society6.com/guillemvillaro

She swore she would never leave you
But here you are all alone
Nothin' more than a memory
And no strength to carry on

You moved mountains to have her
Damn near 1500 miles
That all crumbled when she left you
In the middle of the night

After seven years together it finally fell apart
Coulda' seen it comin' you weren't listenin' at all
It's a lonely highway from your head to your heart
The longest road you'll ever walk

If you knew that it was over
Could have kissed her one last time
Begged for one more sunrise
Tried to change her mind

Here you are with all the pieces
Scattered all around the room
Trying hard to find a reason
God I hope you find it soon

Lookin' back now it's clear I couldn't tell
Ain't no sense to sit here talkin' to myself
Need to face it I'm losin' my best friend
And I'd do it all again

Week 29a - Longest Road You’ll Ever Walk (200717)

Copyright 2020
All Rights Reserved

Lyrics & Music: Erin Wolf
Guitar & Vocals: Erin Wolf

**The third song from the "Quarantine Sessions" side project connected with my Song-a-Week writing. The prompt from JTR for this song is "knowing what we know". This song has influences from a wide range of people and things. Hamilton lyrics, work pressures, heart heavy days, moments filled with light and laughter, new friendships and connections.**

la lo la lo lei

feeling heavy
scent is seeping
in my skin
perfume will win

feeling the weight of
expectation
on my shoulders
weigh like boulders

la lo la lo lei

feeling weary
bleak and dreary
say it with a sigh
*sigh*

feeling hope, though
knowing what we know
will this turn around
will light abound

la lo la lo lei

feeling my heartbeat
it's quickening
la lo la lo lei

feeling all these things
what will tomorrow bring
la lo la lo lei

la lo la lo lei

Knowing What We Know (La Lo)

"Help Somebody" (#379, 200719)

 * Co-written with Pete & Pat Luboff * 

Ever get a feeling like everything is wrong
Everybody joined the club and you just don't belong
You're cold and lonely on the outside looking in
When it all feels like it's over where do you begin

Help somebody it'll turn your world around
Help somebody get your feet on solid ground
When you're down and out and upside down reach out to someone else
Help somebody and you help yourself
Help somebody and you help yourself

Got a God shaped hole and I can't fix it with food
Can't fill it up with money or drown it in booze
I dreamed someone could love me and make it all okay
Never knew there was a way out 'til I heard somebody say

Help somebody it'll turn your world around
Help somebody get your feet on solid ground
When you're down/out upside/down reach out to someone else
Help somebody and you help yourself
Help somebody and you help yourself

Maybe you think I've got it all together
Don't believe what you think you see
Because we could both get to feelin' better
If you'll help somebody like me

Week 30a - Help Somebody (200724)

song a week wk30

sometimes I forget to breathe

SAW wk30 sometimes i forget to breathe

Nashville songwriter and multi-instrumentalist, Godin Guitars Official Artist and Founder of www.songaweek.org.

His catalog of 500+ titles includes collaborations with hit writers Mark Narmore, Elliott Park, Steve Dean, and Pete & Pat Luboff, among others internationally from England to Australia.

Redding's music has landed cuts by numerous recording artists including Dan Whitehouse, Emma Gale, and David Easterling.

Week 27 - Hit The Lights (200703)

James Tristan Redding