Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I took a ballpoint pen to a picture of you,
Scribbled back and forth across your face.
Let the memory fade to black—
But the ink bled through
Until I ran dry.

[Verse 2]
I had to do something. I couldn’t sit still.
Thought if I could cover up these thoughts,
Then maybe you couldn’t find me—
But you found me.
Like you always do.
I took a ballpoint pen to a picture of you.

[Verse 3]
Took a ballpoint pen to my open heart,
Felt the tip pierce through, where it broke apart.
Tried to let the memories go—
But the ink bled through,
And it wouldn’t stop.

[Verse 4]
I tried to forget you,
But forgetting leaves a mark.
Worse than the memory,
Deeper than the dark—
And it doesn’t fade easy.
You took a ballpoint pen to my open heart.

[Music Break]
No it doesn't fade easy

[Verse 5]
I took a ballpoint pen to a blank notebook,
Wrote line after line, page after page.
Let the memories flood back—
And the ink bled through
Until I ran dry.

[Outro]
I ran dry.

I ran dry.

I ran dry.

Ballpoint Pen

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I heard all the things you
Said to people about me—
Throwing nonsense in the air.
Keep it.
You think you know me.

They said you can’t picture it
As if I have something to prove
The things I say are what I do,
I've already told you
I don't owe you a damn thing.

[Pre-Chorus]
These reckless conversations…
Seem to carelessly convey
A one-sided caricature
Drawn in the dark...
It doesn’t even look like me.

[Chorus]
If you wanted to know the truth,
You’d look in the mirror and face me.
If you weren’t such a goddamn coward,
You’d stop hiding and face me.
Face me.
Face me.
I’m looking directly back at you.
Face me.

[Verse 2]
I heard all the things they said,
The lies you believed—
And yeah, a picture's worth
A thousand words,
But that's never the whole story

I don’t care what they said.
I care about what you did.
I saw the truth in the moment
You ran away and hid.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
But you’re wrong if you think
You can outrun what you feel.
‘Cause the feelings you deny
Keep proving you
Don't know what's real.

[Chorus 2]
If you wanted to know the truth,
You’d look in the mirror and face me.
If you weren’t such a goddamn coward,
You’d drop the act and face me.
Face me.
Face me.
I’m standing right here in front of you.
Face me.

[Instrumental Break – 8 bars]

[Bridge]
You rewrite the story
So it won't hurt to forget.
But I remember everything—
The things you left unsaid.
When I needed your honesty.
All I got was silence.
If you're not guilty...
Why are you still hiding?

[Chorus 3 ]
If you wanted to know the truth,
You’d look in the mirror and face me.
If you weren’t so scared of what you really feel,
You’d finally face me.

Face me.
Face me.
I’ve been right here all along…
Face me.

[Outro ]
I’m not your ghost,
But I still haunt your mind.
You shut the door—
But I'm already locked inside.
So face me.
Face me.
I'm the truth you can't erase.
Face me...

Face Me

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I haven’t been able to
Tell you
How you made me feel.
I haven’t been able to
Say
What I needed to say.

'Cause the things we do in the dark
Don’t make it real.
And the things we did together—
You said
I did to you.

[Chorus]
Yeah, I was the villain,
When you reached for me.
I was wrong
When you held my hand.

You said it was nothing—
That’s what you tell me
Every time.
But you do it...
Every time.

[Verse 2]
I know I wanted to
Fix the mess
We made together.
I know I tried to
Keep moving
Forward with you.

But none of it matters
If it won’t make a difference.
If we could find another way—
It still means nothing to you.

[Chorus]
Yeah, I was the villain,
When you said you loved me.
I was wrong
For finally loving you back.

You said it was nothing—
That’s what you tell me
Every time.
But you reach for me...
Every time.

[Bridge]
Maybe if I’d stayed silent,
You’d still play pretend.
Maybe if I’d never reached—
You’d still be holding my hand.

But I spoke,
I broke the spell...
And now I’m the villain
In the story you tell.

[Final Chorus]
You made me the villain
When I reached for you.
Said I was wrong
For believing the truth.

You called it nothing—
But nothing doesn’t feel like this.
No, nothing
Doesn’t hold me like you do.

[Outro]
I haven’t been able to
Tell you
How you made me feel.
I haven’t been able to
Say
What I needed to say.

The Villain

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
You—
You didn’t like it.
You didn’t like how I leaned in too close,
How I rested my hand on your knee.

I—
I know I was drunk.
I know I might have crossed that line.
No, it’s not the very first time.

[Chorus]
It’s not an excuse to be drunk and stupid,
Acting like I’m shot by Cupid.
Pretending there’s no consequence,
But I still feel it in the end.

Whatever happened, it’s me, not you.
I’ll admit whatever’s true.
I’ll take the heat and the blame—
I don’t have to say your name.
 
[Verse 2]
I—
I didn’t like it.
I didn’t like your hand under my shirt,
And the way you chose to flirt.

You—
You were highly intoxicated.
You chose to reach under that line.
No, it’s not the very first time.

[Chorus 2]
It’s not an excuse to be drunk and stupid,
Acting like you’re shot by Cupid.
Pretending there’s no consequence,
But you still felt me in the end.

Whatever happened, it’s me, not you.
I’ll admit whatever’s true.
I’ll take the heat and the blame—
I don’t have to say your name.
 
[Bridge]
The difference is…
I didn’t say you made me feel uncomfortable—
Because I knew you were drunk,
And I chose to let it slide.

The difference is…
You told everyone what I did.
And then you texted me a death threat.
Which I thought was a joke—
Until multiple people said you meant it.
And suddenly, it was a lot to process…
Because I didn’t think what I did meant anything.
So your reaction didn’t make sense.
Not considering our complicated history.
 
[Final Chorus]
It’s not an excuse to be drunk and stupid,
Acting like we’re shot by Cupid.
Pretending there’s no consequence,
But we still feel it in the end.

Whatever happened, it’s me, not you.
I’ll admit whatever’s true.
I’ll take the heat and the blame—
I don’t have to say your name.

The Difference

[Intro]
Duh duhduh duhduhduh
Duh duhduh duhduhduh
Duh duhduh duhduhduh
Duh duhduh duhduhduh

[Verse 1]
I fell for it.
I fell for the things you said.
I leaned into what you gave—
And it wasn’t a lot.

You’re full of it.
A fool in the games you played,
A fool in the mess you made.
See what you got?

[Pre-Chorus]
I could give you a lifetime—
Still wouldn’t be enough.
You never get it together,
Still stuck in the hole you dug.

You ask for shovel after shovel,
Bottles, pills, anything to escape...
I might suggest a rope—or a ladder.

[Chorus]
Moron.
Does that make you a moron?

Duh duhduh duhduhduh
Duh duhduh duhduhduh

[Verse 2]
I called it off.
I called it what it was.
I did what I had to do—
I closed the door.

You don’t like it.
You don’t like the consequence.
You can’t afford the price I’ve paid.
What are you—poor?

[Chorus]
Moron.
That makes you a moron.
Moron.
Moron.

[Bridge]
You gotta be joking now—
Looking so smug,
Still standing in the same place,
With everything swept under the rug.

I refuse to grab a broom.
I won’t let the pile grow.
I’m done pretending for you.

[Final Chorus]
Moron—
Standing proud on your pile of mistakes.
Moron—
Making excuses so you never change.
I’m done.
I’ve found my clarity without you.
Moron.
Moron.

[Outro]
Duh duhduh duhduhduh
Duh duhduh duhduhduh
Duh duhduh duhduhduh
Duh duhduh duhduhduh

Moron

Lyrics:

[Intro]
Hide behind my cologne.
Put a spell on your clothes.
Wear me down.

Drink my whiskey dry.
Feel a sting in your eyes.
Fade me out.

[Refrain 1]
Wear me down
Fade me out
Wear me down
Fade me out

[Chorus 1]
I didn’t do it.
Didn’t do—
I didn’t turn on you.

I didn’t do it.
Didn’t you?

Didn’t you?

[Verse 1]
Didn’t you hold my hand and smirk at me, lacing your fingers with mine like a bro, telling me it sure as hell looked like it when I tried to let go?

I knew I had nothing to lose.

[Verse 2]
Didn’t you tell me to let you play your games, swearing that nothing would ever happen as you pulled me close and held me in a pattern?

I recognized right away.

[Chorus 2]
I didn’t do it.
Didn’t do—
I didn’t turn on you.

I didn’t do it.
Didn’t you?

Didn’t you?

[Bridge]
Dig a hole in my dirt.
Lie beneath with your words.
Write me up.

Breathe my last breath.
Burn a fire in your chest.
Hold me in.

[Refrain 2]
Write me up
Hold me in
Write me up
Hold me in

[Final Chorus]
I didn’t do it.
Didn’t do—
I didn’t turn on you.

I didn’t do it.
Didn’t you?

Didn’t you?

[Outro]
Didn’t you hold?
I knew I had.
Didn’t you tell?
I recognized.

Didn't You?

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Double-crossed,
Trouble caused,
Rebel tossed,
Abel lost.

[Verse 2]
News rips,
Truth slips,
Loose lips—
Sink ships.
 
[Pre-Chorus]
Whisper through the static
Echo in the dark.
Noises in the attic,
Lying leaves a mark.
 
[Chorus 1]
If it means anything,
You can be a part of a
Conspiracy.

Sure you’ll figure it out—
Someday.

They’ll leave you wondering
If there’s more to the
Conspiracy.
 
[Verse 3]
Power play,
Hour stay,
Tower ray,
Overpay.

[Verse 4]
Doom scroll,
Tomb roll,
Loop hole,
Control.
 
[Pre-Chorus]
Thread slowly unravels,
Secrets never keep.
Truth always travels,
Eyes that never sleep.
 
[Chorus2]
If it means anything,
You could be a part of the
Conspiracy.

Sure you’ll figure it out—
Someday.

They’ll leave you wondering
If there’s more to the
Conspiracy.
 
[Bridge]
Codes in the margin,
Hidden in the lines.
Message for a bargain,
Written with crimes.

Listen through the door,
Fate calls your name.
Words you can’t ignore,
Part of the game.
 
[Final Chorus / Outro]
If it means anything,
We're already part of the
Conspiracy.

They’ll seek you out—
Someday.

They'll leave you wondering,
Leave you questioning—
What’s the truth inside the
Conspiracy?

Conspiracy.

Conspiracy…

Conspiracy

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
You said you’d lay me to rest
Someplace near water with a view.
Spoken in a way I thought only a lover could do,
But I’d be damned if I ever fell for someone like you...

And I was right.

[Pre-Chorus 1]
You said you loved the way my hair smelled,
Pulled me close in the warmth of your hell.
Another moment, frozen in time—
I let you do as you wanted, but I knew.

I had already lost.

[Chorus]
One time I cared,
One time I cared,
I considered you—
One time.
One time I cared,
One time.

[Verse 2]
You said we’d go away together,
Escape to an island, far from the noise.
I knew better than to believe that story,
But you told me your plan again and again.

I wondered why.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You said you needed a fresh start,
Asked me to stay and hear you out.
I told you I cared, you said it meant a lot.
You said you'd try to get your life together.

I had hope for you.

[Chorus]
One time I cared,
One time I cared,
I believed you—
One time.
One time I cared,
One time.

[Bridge]
I heard a rumor—
Spread by a teenage girl
She said I was in love with you.
Had the picture on her phone.

Just a vision I asked to see,
Drawn from my words:
“Who is he?”

That wasn’t you.
I shouldn't have to prove.
You cut me out and blocked me,
Kept up the act like we were fine.
When I knew.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
One time I cared,
One time.

I cared but I know better now—
One time.
One time I cared,
One time.

One time.

One Time I Cared

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I caught myself drifting, thinking of you,
Replayed everything in my mind, it's all I can do.
My hands were on the wheel, but I lost control.
Spun out in the static, letting you go.

[Pre-Chorus 1]
If I was driving far, away from the truth,
I wouldn’t still be here, navigating with you
The map re-routes—you swore it won’t.
Could I be wrong—was I wrong?

I missed the sign, the sun was in my eyes.

[Chorus]
Think I’ll make it out alive,
Put the blame shift in drive.
Tank's run low, but I don’t see the gaslight.
Lies appear in rearview,
Headlights burn like you do.
I keep moving, 'cause I don’t see the gaslight.

[Verse 2]
I was told that my memory fades with the light,
That unknown shadows made up the fights.
But I see skid marks left behind,
Word on the street says I’m not blind.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Every window is fogged with doubt,
Driving in circles, roundabout.
If I was wrong—was I wrong?

Static silence, sun still in my eyes

[Chorus]
Think I’ll make it out alive,
Put the blame shift in drive.
Tank's run low, but I don’t see the gaslight.
Lies get flipped in rearview,
Headlights blind like you do.
I keep moving, 'cause I don’t see the gaslight.

[Bridge]
Cut the brakes, imagine the slide.
The crash is all in my mind.
But the dents and the scars don’t lie—
Can’t rewrite the wreck this time.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I made it out alive,
Tossed the map at the roadside.
Tank's run low—but now I see the gaslight.
Rearview of all I left behind
Headlights fade into the night.
Can't turn back, now I see the gaslight.

Gaslight

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
 The way I pictured it — 
you and me, 
A quiet place, 
we'd set ourselves free, 

Our spot by the water 
with a view. 
You’d put your arms around me 
in that way I’ve grown used to. 

[Pre-Chorus 1] 
But at the end of the day, 
that’s too much for you to face.
 
I guess I imagined it all 
Yeah, I imagined it all 
on my own. 

[Chorus] 
And at the end of the day, 
I'll stand here as you turn away,

‘Cause I imagined it all 
in my head. 
The thoughts appear 
in my head. 

The way I pictured it. 
Oh, 
The way I pictured it. 

[Verse 2] 
But then I remember — 
you reached for me and I leaned in 
That spot by the water 
you said was your dream. 

You said we could escape to be free — 
The moment you said you loved me. 

[Pre-Chorus 2] 
But at the end of the day, 
that’s still too much for you to face. 

That moment you said it all 
You ran from it all — 
Now I’m alone. 

[Bridge] 
You made it seem so simple,
Yeah, you made it seem so simple,
Oh, you made it seem so simple — 

The water called our names

At the end of the day, 
Nothing feels quite the same.
Did I imagine it all
in my head?

These memories keep rushing 
in my head.
 
The way I pictured it. 
Oh, 
The way I pictured it. 

[Final Chorus] 
The way I pictured it — 
you and me, 
A quiet spot 
with a view by the sea 

That’s where I go now that I'm free, 
Free from the thought of you and me. 

[Outro]
At the end of the day, 
that’s something 
you will never face. 

I must have imagined it all — 
I imagined it all —
The way I pictured it.
Oh, 
The way I pictured it. 

The Way I Pictured It

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