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The Night That We Met (ft. sxdtune)

i get no sleep
i'm chasing dreams while i'm in agony
my face is numb 
my head is bruised for something sensory
lay down defences 
fall fatigued only a moment away
all i need is for you to stay

agony w/ lyrah & splashgvng

something simple | feat. mishaal (prod. apes prod)

cry me a river (prod. w00ds & Roiael)

Lyrics

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Forget the times when you gave me a meaning
Fell for your laugh fuck I fell for your breathing
Then you switched up like leaves in the seasons
Running away and I rot into pieces
Fuck with my mental not feeling enough
Feeling the pain and I’m taking a puff
Playing the victim like what have I done
I see through the lies I see through the bluffs

I’m hating my person
Thinking bout life and I guess I deserved it
Could have been better I was just a burden
Wouldn’t care right now even if the world end
World end 
World end
thinking right now and I’m wishing the world end
And if it did I would save you a spot yeah you hurt me a lot but your my favorite person

You were there for me so why did you lie
I fucking loved you and I felt alive
My only friend and you stuck at my side
But I guess that’s convenient cause you stuck a knife
And I fell for you once nah I fell for you twice
But I fell to the bottom it’s dark there’s no light
And I know I sound petty I don’t wanna die
But just thinking of you I don’t wanna live life

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

shoutout soku for letting me put an alternative verse on this

here's the original one: https://soundcloud.com/soku_music/go-now-feat-lxst-boy-prod-mist3r?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

my verse's lyrics:
the pain in my chest hurts more than ever
say ur just friends but the thought will never
never ever go away
cause u just wanna stay away from me
i've been down this road before
everyone hates me cause i'm a chore
leaving me empty? no i don't mind   
i've been conditioned to fight or flight

feeling little lost, little empty
this weight upon my chest from when u left me
now i'm writing all these songs about our memories
filling in the pieces so i find peace

soku - go now [joawili remix] (prod. mist3r)

Warning Signs

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: heydium and @jang0x
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surprise release :D
hope yall enjoy<3
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lyrics:
(verse)
always one to worry bout futures,
used to be chill, till i lost all my humor,
caught in revenge, huh, call me lex luthor,
i just regret that we didnt end sooner,
never stationed, always moving
always dreaming, never lucid,
i got plans so call me stupid,
but dont get mad when im suited
ill be at the top when nobody cared,
i was at the bottom all of them just stared,
so dont be suprised when im closing up,
i dont got an audience, ill make one up,
all ill get, ill get it by myself,
so dont even try to help,
none of yall ever worry bout my health,
til i start talking bout future wealth

[bridge]

(chorus)
look me up and down,
couldn't be bothered
your mans,
cause hes selfish and hes ignorant,
and never making plans,
he can never get involved,
like whats up with that,
yea, i would blow up your phone,
till you answered that,

(verse)
like baby girl, wya now?
you lost everything that you had now,
you did this yourself, dont be throwing fits,
but i wont lie, i do miss
all those nights, yea watching netlfix,
never decide on the show,
like we never decide where to go,
im glad that its over cause now im at home,
watching a movie alone on the couch,
there seems to be comfort in that,
cause every time, yea, i just fall flat,
but now it's too easy, got my life intact,
i always wonder how you doing, but im never checking up,
if you wanted that luxury,  should've been open to talk,
but you always giving up,

[bridge]

(chorus extended)
look me up and down,
couldn't be bothered
your mans,
cause hes selfish and hes ignorant,
and never making plans,
he can never get involved,
like whats up with that,
yea, i would blow up your phone,
till you answered that,
got a list of all the reasons why im never coming back,
you were ignorant and selfish so much times that ive lost track,
you could never get involved,
like whats up with that,
i guess youre perfect for eachother,
and im fine with that,

couldn't be bothered (prod. heydium & jang0)

written and performed by: @futoh and @lxstboymusic
mix and mastered by: @futoh and @lxstboymusic
produced by: lean teen
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first single of my collab album with my good friend Lxst Boy, hope yall enjoy<3
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lyrics soon.....

four in the morning w/ Lxst Boy (prod. lean teen)

prod. cxrter x bended
mix, master, lyrics by me
(lyrics)
take me for another day
and hold me oh dont go away
im bleeding when ur not with me
are you alone tonight
or is that a new guy

save your sorrows for the bottles in the bathroom
saving my life, like i know you didnt have to
why'd you keep me around, you werent like that
my hearts beating a sound yet you wont bite back
and im keeping it down for a while now
and youre beating around until i knock down
i dont know how u'd leave
if youre not even here with me

youre not even here with me
youre not even here with me
youre not even here with me
youre not even here with me

take me for another day
and hold me oh dont go away
im bleeding when ur not with me
are you alone tonight
or is that a new guy

im feeling it now like all the time
as ur talking about all your friends at night
and im looking around, theres no room for me
and ur spending ur time with a new guy
and ur saying that "I never loved you"
catching feelings while i know that ur not here with me

i didnt know that i was wrong
i didnt know that i was wrong
i didnt know that i was wrong
i didnt know

not with me (cxrter x bended)

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soku - go now [joawili remix] (prod. mist3r)

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