produced by logan

if you need me i wont be there
when you wake up, in front are stairs
have to hold back on what i want
i would love to be this blunt
save yourself
dont die in my arms
if word got out, youd be behind bars
save yourself
dont bleed in my arms
if you got out, youd be behind bars

i know something you dont know
i know i know i know i know
think im stupid? ive watched you close
im watchin watchin watchin been watchin
hows the weather over there
tell me why the fuck you scared

scared

produced by heylog

lyrics:
tread light, proceed with caution
months passed, i missed the pollen
carry weight that slowly turns to rust
and i'm thinking "what could've been done?"
wonder what's in the deep end
jump off, i swim for a reason
this the worst place i could ever go
and i sleep like "what could i have known"
residue
slip if i'm not using chalk
dirty wounds keep burning from the salt
come with me only if you're not opposed
i'm paranoid
is there something i should know

what is there to know (7x)
WHAT IS THERE TO KNOW (2x)

keep thinking i'm being stalked
i'm convinced i'm being watched
if that's true, i hope it's not
can't believe the time is up

shh

you're too late
that was the best i've felt
i'm so sorry i couldn't contain myself
i say things some would probably hate me for
just know i'm not here when you're at the door
i left a note
did you bother to look
someone had to plant their foot
just understand 
if i see another bird
come toward me, i'm pulling up the dirt

i got the remote
i'm now under control
toggle emote
and hit the swish like free throw
i'm not too bright
it's interesting what i know though
i pinched a nerve
but that snake had to go
man down
that's an elim
look bro, you gotta see this
feels like playin reload
the whole damn lobby on my penis
i'm starting to feel bad
you suck at making decisions
cast out, then reel back
maybe there's something i'm missing
i got no time, put it all way past me
i'm out of the loop, couldn't care what is happening
europe flight, got to finish up packing
lord these cathedral faces are dazzling
no time for none of that
it's day here while you're sleepin
i got a flight to catch
PROVIDE THE FOOD AND FEED EM
I CAN'T LET ANYONE STARVE
PISS OFF IF YOU ARE A LARP
NOTHING BUT DIRT TO ME NOW
AND THAT'S COMING FROM THE HEART

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dirt

don’t listn

produced by heylog

lyrics:
time will tell
pick the gun up and shoot in the head (in gta)
don't worry
you don't have to get by playing pretend
tried to be nice 
but i ended up losing friends
i disappeared and don't ever wanna talk again

driving on the freeway
the same one i saw that look on your face
you told my boy it's been hard to reach me
"talking to log isn't easy"
stop tryna get me to hangout
without you i've picked up the pace now
just go ahead
select all, delete it
i'm done and i'm leaving
been a while, i wonder if you'd recognize me
always thought what we had was strong as concrete
spoke too soon and i shoulda moved on way long ago
don't know you and i can't believe we used to be close
tempted to pick the gun up and shoot him in the head (in gta)
at the time all i wanted was for you to be dead
stupid bitch, you don't wanna live life playing pretend
don't be asking for guidance or for a hand to lend
swear it felt like yesterday
i don't recognize this place
it sucks that shit's permanent
and that scar won't go away
it don't matter where you are
at your house or in your car
i'm stuck there next to your hip
your fault you took it too far

shoot

what have they done to us??

produced by heylog

lyrics:
run
breathe through your lungs
hold onto me
hold onto me
fast
won't let you crash
just look at me
just look at me

we're separated
and no one has called back
i just wish you were here
so i could hear you laugh
and it stopped raining
he kept seeing your blonde hair
i just want some hope
that you're out there somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere

rip my heart heart out, slowly listen
hold my hand but you're too distant
sometimes i can't even breathe
when u are no where to be seen
i hate that i left that night
and cutting skin is a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin you know i hate
i been searching everywhere
and i miss when i had blonde hair
you said you liked that bout me
and now it looks dead and dirty
don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin's such a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin' you know i hate

i'd rip my heart out so you could live
and you can't stop me from doing it
now you're right there next to me
but only happens in my dreams
and i should never of left that night
i didn't know it'd be our last time
and i hate myself for that
it was the most we ever laughed
i keep searchin up and down
n hopes that i'd find you somehow
i'm not having any luck
and i refuse to give it up
and don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin is such a waste of time
and you'll get no where with that blade
cause that's something you know i hate

one two three

blade

prod by me : /

sunlight peaks through my blinds
it burns my eyes n makes me want to die 
and you're not here, layin' by my side
and I wish that, things were different now

grab on my hips, then we start, locking lips
caught in a kiss, move my hips, just to sync
bite on my lip, love the mark, that you left 
don't loosen grip, hold it tight, close to death

fucked up in the head and I don't know what to do now
you're telling me that it's been over 
and I just feel like I been locked out
ain't no fuckin way I'm movin on

why the fuck you leavin me when you know that im all alone
got this pain inside my heart, a poison wit no antidote
people saying that they love me but I know they fuckin dont
if they really did, would I even be all alone?

agony, sweet agony, I love it when you're holding me
killin me, you're killin me, my agony, it holds me sweet
agony has been here longer than anyone else ever has
agony, my agony, it won't ever leave me and I'm sure of that

I can feel the cracks inside of my persona breakin
she just tell me that anything she said wasn't fake, yeah
tell me that im special but what of that am i making ?
I can tell that life ain't done so it gon keep on taking

I done walked up on this decision and then it fucked my life
I'm just hopin that I can hold on and make it out alive 
elliot didn't get so lucky like i did.. i threw it
I could never lie about it, I know i misused it

if you think it's worth it putting me away for years, 
I'm not gonna fight it i'll pay off my debt in tears
I hope things go well for you and if they dont im here 
just a stupid dog that won't abandon post that he's near 

tell me that I deserve this, 
if you- said anything- my wrist i'll slit
my blood will drip, my life will end, 
and you'll be it

tell me how.. 
if im feelin down you'd know
promise i will tell you everything i know
until then im in hell

tell me you love me
hate me it wont break me
hold me don't let go of me
don't let go of me

you can give me your hate, it won't change anything for me
I could shake it off like leaves on a car when it's starting 
to accelerate on the speed and then they just fall off
I just wanna see the boys win and they already know that 

you deserve to be happy and I want you to know it
you're the love of my life and I wasn't even knowin 
someone could pick me up and repair me like it's nothin 
I been learning german so I can give the love a language

[[acceptance, self reflection]]

---

I made a vow to never lose again

release

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produced by nte

cant believe what i saw
gotta breathe and take it all in
in the end i see it fall
aint got a rhyme, but the reason keeps crawling

so baby just drop it
dinner time and you know that i want it
about time that we on the same topic
pretty lace bows got me feeling so toxic
so baby just drop it
dinner time and you know that i want it
about time that we on the same topic
pretty lace bows got me feeling so toxic

got a call on my phone at 3am
cant get this girl up out my bed
almost dead
blur the line between a screen and what i said when she
she brought me down and down to my worst
gave that girl my heart and im cursed
when i was in the dark, yeah i fell apart
knew that i was never the first
so i scope her out and just lurk
shes the only thing i find worth in
knew this would never work
got what i deserve, said im a kid and im still learning

oh, oh
thats when the blood starts running cold
thats when you start bringing up the things i did
heart full of broken promises, and i
knew you were wrong
wasnt for long girl
but im biting my tongue
shes collapsing my lungs, oh no

look at what the cat dragged in
2 pills down and a pack of zyns
i been thinking about cigs to forget my sins
im a star, boy i aint gon feel that shit
look at what the cat dragged in
2 pills down and a pack of zyns
i been thinking about cigs to forget my sins
im a star, boy i aint gon feel that shit

niac

prod. by me

lyrics:

i got some jade
without your name
you want me bad
i can read that off your face

dont let me wait
ill go insane
you better get it now
before its way too late


i found some ja-ja-jade
without your na-na-name
dont let me wai-wai-wait
ill go insa-sa-sane


lets pour some light
lets get so high
i wanna break everything in sight

that shits not mine
thats shits not yours no
you broke my mind with the way you said my name oh

i just wanna know
how many times can i hit that before im feeling detached

i spend my time alone 
thinking bout you in my room but i know its not you

youre only in my dreams
know that youre not real
only sometimes ill allow to feel

i put that onto me
tell me cant you see
youre crawling in my brain like a centipede 


i found some ja-ja-jade
without your na-na-name
dont let me wai-wai-wait
ill go insa-sa-sane

(i wanna smoke with you
smoke whatever you do
let me sign up to
i would smoke some crack for you

oh i know its true
im imagining you
got a mind without rules)

youre not real
how does it feel
im not here to stay
ill come back and pay up

hope that you will know
that i am not the same
i buried down that face
im not here to fucking stay

you changed my attitude 
i blame that shit on you
bodies bodies jades
swear that shit is all the same

im breaking all my bones
oh im not coming home
i found some brand new jades
i got a brand new face

what have they done to us??

Helve