There’s a window I check before I sleep
Then again at 3 AM
I don’t believe it matters much
But I still check it then

I’ve got a checklist folded twice
Taped behind my mirror’s frame
I don’t need to read it anymore
I just like knowing it’s the same

And I spin and I spin in the hallway light
Trace the steps to feel alright
Swear I’ll stop when it feels done
But I’m never done
Never done

The kettle screams, I flinch, then freeze
Like it caught me in a lie
All these quiet alarms I planted
To keep my wires tied

I rehearse how to say hello
And still get it wrong sometimes
Like I’m skipping stones across myself
Just to prove there’s water in my mind

And I spin and I spin in the hallway light
Trace the steps to feel alright
Swear I’ll stop when it feels done
But I’m never done
Never done

Don’t blink too long.
Don’t think it out loud.
Don’t stay still.
Don’t miss the signal.

And I spin and I spin in the hallway light
Trace the steps to feel alright
Swear I’ll stop when it feels done
But I’m never done
Never done

There’s a window I check before I sleep...
Just to see if I’m still here.

Spinning in Place

I make albums for fictional bands with assistance of AI tools.

Spinning in Place

Joel Leonard