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8/12/22

can't last forever

My Shitty Love Songs On Her Playlist (jean parker & aidan han)

IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT (5head X Flower)

sk8miles

lyrics ♡

let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
full of sharks
let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
we got hella shards, breaking hella shards
let's swim
let's swim

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

post chorus
in your room

verse
ha, i hope that
when you're w him, you're screaming my name
ha, i hope that he knows
that you liked when i fucked on your face
ha, those were the better days
those were the better days
take me back to those better days (no they weren't lolll)
when i was w you, damn i made it a wetter day
and now im chilling watching anime
fucked a new bitch, it's like any day
but anyway, ive been gaining
like hella weight
cuz of raising canes, so
working it off
balling so hard, like im in the nba 
im the one like an ace of spades
but fuck it imma leave you anyway

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

outro
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

let's swim in an ocean full of sharks

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

limbo (2022)

run from you feat kii. (malloy x max flynn)

Distant Romance

Dive In (Trey Songz) ~ SoMo Rendition

prod: https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami

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Kiss my eyelids (prod. Shinigami)

'You Complete Me REMIX' - Triller ft. Fijitia & Willie Peace.mp3

True to you

Places We Go

Light

Quite Alright

Voices - Saosin (Cover)

Messages

Looking For Love (prod. yung cortex)

Live Again (ft. Messyah)

Only One

Track #2, "Emotions" EP. 
During this time, everybody needs a little more love. This song is meant to be a gift for someone you love, or maybe someone who needs some. Thank you for the support.

Emotions

There 4 You

There 4 You - Marvin Dark

Righteous

All My Little Scars, Vol. 1

Last One

can't let go

lyrics:

and i cant seem to notice when ur not around
the leaves that fall are golden
they melt into the ground

and i wish you never left me with a sour tone
and i wish you wouldve meant it
when you said you loved me
and i wish i could prevent this feeling of alone
and i wish you could just let it go i said im sorry
trees falling breaking i cant escape
theres blood on my face as a warm embrace
the dusk turns to day and she turned to me
and i said dont cry and i twist the knife and
i just wish that she was born again
so this love story could never end
and im just left with the remembrance 
of her face that never left

i cant help think about these times
the dirt road hostel where she saved my life
with a take my hand i obliged ghost white
only she'll understand how i felt inside
with a denim torch i was acid washed
on 44th is where she broke my heart
my eyes meet hers in a time too dark
i hold damage inside these age old scars
sorry if i dont say it right will you help me inside
ive had too much too drink tonight
i cant make it to mine
oh you look perfect here with me
i dont think he could see
come here im holding you close to me
and you fit perfectly

and i cant seem to notice when ur not around
the leaves that fall are golden
they melt into the ground

wallflower ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

Urgent (prod thislandis)

can't last forever

Try to Find Me